AnewMe@28

Love Love Love this post. It so fits what I have been feeling from certain people lately. I have had some ladies come right out and tell me, "Oh I don't like you anymore." Don't be upset with me because I decided to change my life. I would do it again and again if I had to.

I was just telling my best friend, that I finally feel as if the playing field is level. I finally feel as if I did not miss the meeting on how not to be fat. I feel as if I have the key to success. I feel like a normal person. I am not constantly obsessed with being fat. I don't constantly think about how big I look and how to lose weight. I can feel my eyes starting to fill up so I better stop here.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Love Love Love this post. It so fits what I have been feeling from certain people lately. I have had some ladies come right out and tell me, "Oh I don't like you anymore." Don't be upset with me because I decided to change my life. I would do it again and again if I had to.

I was just telling my best friend, that I finally feel as if the playing field is level. I finally feel as if I did not miss the meeting on how not to be fat. I feel as if I have the key to success. I feel like a normal person. I am not constantly obsessed with being fat. I don't constantly think about how big I look and how to lose weight. I can feel my eyes starting to fill up so I better stop here.

I don't really have an answer for you except it could not hurt to talk with your Dr. I saw them in a segment on Dr. Oz, & he was talking to folks that found themselves munching all day. I thought I fit the bill so I tried them out. Love Love Love them.

You mix them with and let them sit, that is when you eat them, after they have expanded. They don't expand anymore once they are in your tummy.
Im in love with them. I find they help me control my appetite. I get my fluids in with no problem, I don't mix it in my water just my shakes and yogurt.

I am actually not at goal numbers-wise I guess I should say. My clothes goal was a single digit size. My goal numbers wise I dont know, still don't know.
I started at 298lbs, was sleeved 12-14-2010. Lowest weight 171lb but with my turning a blind eye and grazing on horrible food& did I mention I hadnt seen the gym in ages I managed to go back to 190lb.
Well I stopped fooling myself and purchased these seeds, eating right& kicked my own butt at the gym so I am down 1lb in 1 day. Thank God I have my sleeve to help or I would consider it a lost cause and just accept the weight with open arms or should I say open mouth, lol. Thank u guys for listening. It always encourages me to pick myself up and get back on the wagon.

I stopped going to the gym and eating right, before Thanksgiving. And I just started getting back on track this week. It took a while but I was not eating correctly & also not working out. I didnt even jump on the scale.

Ok so I am over a year out, & I have seen/not seen (turning a blind eye) that I can eat way more than when I first had surgery. Well I was watching my fav dr, Dr Oz, and he was raving about these things called Chia Seeds. He said they did wonderful things like fill you up and keep you full longer. They are filled with wonderful omega's, Protein, & Fiber. I was like hmmm really...
Well I went to my little health food store and purchased some. I tried them & I honestly feel like I just had my surgery (quanity wise). I can not eat much at all. I am talking like within weeks of surgery, when my tummy was swollen and 2-3 spoons of runny mashed potatoes filled me up. And I can not go back later and try eating more(grazing) as the chia seeds stick with you.
Ok is this stuff for real? I am in love so far. I have even started working back out again. If it is just all in my mind maybe it does not matter since it is getting me motivated and up and moving again, fighting the good fight, you know?

here are a couple of suggestions suggestions for superfoods to help supplement your needs as a vegan.
Spirulina contains rich vegetable Protein (60~ 63 %, 3~4 times higher than fish or beef ), multi Vitamins (Vitamin B 12 is 3~4 times higher than animal liver), which is particularly lacking in a vegetarian diet. It contains a wide range of minerals (including Iron, Potassium, Magnesium Sodium, Phosphorus, Calcium etc.), a high volume of Beta- carotene which protects cells (5 time more than carrots, 40 time more than spinach), high volumes of gamma-Linolein acid (which can reduce cholesterol and prevent heart disease). Further, Spirulina contains Phycocyanin which can only be found in Spirulina.
In USA, NASA have chosen to use it for astronauts food in space, and even plan to grow and harvest it in space stations in the near future.
http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/vegetables-and-vegetable-products/2765/2
Chia (Salvia hispanica)
Supports Heart Health
Chia seeds can help reduce blood pressure. The seeds contain one of the highest known plant sources of essential fatty acids (omega-3 and omega-6). EFAs cannot be synthesized by our bodies however, it is very important that we get enough to support our immune, cardiovascular, nervous and reproductive systems. EFA deficiency is quite common in North America.
Stabilizes Blood Sugar
Chia seeds slow down the rate at which complex carbohydrates are digested and then assimilated into the body. The soluble Fiber helps to stabilize blood glucose levels resulting in steady, sustained energy. In one study on diabetic patients, Dr. Vladamir Vuksan of St. Michael's Hospital in Toronto, found that blood was thinner and less prone to clotting and blood pressure of participants dropped significantly, after three months of taking Chia seeds daily.
Energizing
The word “Chia” comes from the Mayan language and means strength. Chia seeds are a balanced blend of Protein, carbohydrates, fats and Fiber. It is said that 1 tablespoon of Chia can sustain a person for 24 hours. Athletes have reported that Chia seeds help them perform at optimal levels for much longer periods of time.
Anti-Inflammatory Properties
A number of arthritis sufferers have reported reduced pain and inflammation after a few weeks of taking Chia seeds. The high concentration of omega-3 helps to lubricate joints and keep them supple. Additionally, Omega-3s are converted into prostaglandins which are known to have both pain relieving and anti-inflammatory effects.
Weight Loss
The essential fatty acids contained in Chia seeds helps to boost metabolism and promote lean muscle mass. The seeds are sometimes added to food to provide bulk and nutrients while adding very few calories. For these reasons, many people have found Chia quite useful in weight loss and weight maintenance.
Detoxification and Elimination
Similar to psyllium, the swelling action of Chia in the body helps to cleanse and soothe the colon, and absorb toxins while lubricating and strengthening peristaltic action.
High Quality Protein
Chia seeds contain about 20% protein, a higher percentage than found in many other grains such as wheat and rice. Chia seeds contain strontium which helps to assimilate protein and produce high energy.
Antioxidants
Chia seeds are an excellent source of antioxidants containing even more antioxidants than fresh blueberries. The high amounts of antioxidants in Chia seeds also keeps the oils from going rancid - contributing to a long shelf life.
Provides Fiber and Other Nutrients
Besides EFAs, Chia seeds also provide fiber, Iron, Calcium, niacin, magnesium, zinc and phosphorus.
2 tablespoons of Chia = 7 grams of fiber, 2 grams of protein, 205 milligrams of calcium, 5 grams omega-3
Brain Power
EFAs are known to make cell membranes more flexible and efficient making nutrients more readily available and nerve transmission more efficient. This helps to improve brain function (including memory and concentration).

http://nutritiondata.self.com/facts/nut-and-seed-products/3061/2

You are in a state of depression which is something everyone can understand, but it's above and beyond it because you knew that your food intake would be limited and it's as though you are mourning food in a way. The nausea isn't helping you and neither is the acid reflux. If regular shakes make you throw up - try something else like Syntrax nectar.
I hate the shakes too. (though I drank one every day 7 months pre-op with no problem). They made me gag, I would never bother eating or drinking them until I barfed though. Take some sips, put it away. I don't have a lot of money because of the surgery and other things, and finding any sort of Protein shake I could handle was getting on my nerves. I had an easier time trying to get down the Syntrax Nectar (which you can buy a 2lb tub of Fuzzy nectar, Ice Tea, Lemonade for like $33.00 (cheaper than buying at Syntrax - it's $59.00 there).
I am not hitting 80 grams of Protein a day, you aren't going to become protein deficit in this short of time. Worry about your Water, chew the Vitamins slowly. I find getting it down with skim milk is better. Try getting in a Vitamin B12 sublingual (goes under your tongue) maybe that will lift your spirits.
If eating with your family is causing tears, then don't eat with them for now. Do you have kids?
My father is embarrassed to eat in front of me, it causes my family anxiety if they see that they are eating something they KNOW I can't eat ...yet, or that used to be my favorite. They went through this surgery with me, and watching someone have this surgery is stressful not just on us, but on the family too. I had a few days where I felt depressed and sorta moody, but I put a different attitude on things. Why should I make them miserable because of a decision I made, that was still the right decision, but it's something I am not having a good time with.
I'm happy because I have two choices, find something that will work for me and try to stay positive or gag stuff down, and be miserable, moody and make everyone around me miserable and moody too. It's not fair to them.
Sometimes happiness is only achievable when you work at it. Do I feel happy all the time, hell no, I hate my Protein Shakes, I decided to go back every other day in the morning because they have more protein in it. If you keep looking for the worst, that is what you are going to see.
Find some positives in your day, don't eat with your family. Are you still on full liquids? Are you on purees? Not sure what phase you are on. I was on full liquids 5 weeks, I just started out with purees. I tried tuna pureed. I had 1.5 ounces of it with light mayo and 3 teaspoons of cottage cheese. That went down great. Then for dinner yesterday, while my husband and son ate pork chops, vegetables and a side dish. I tried the chicken can pureed, which I didn't make liquidy enough it stuck in my throat and I felt horrible the entire night, but I went for a walk, and I realized this is a decision I cannot take back and truthfully I have to change my attitude and look at the positives.
If you are having a lot of acid reflux get on a different PPI.
It honestly seems like this is about mourning food and not being hungry, and perhaps you are trying to get down too much. You can't compare what your family is eating to you...it's unrealistic. Realize you will be able to eat the same things as them in limited quantity in the future, but you are only 4 weeks out of having a serious major surgery.
Think about getting some counseling. The sleeve is a tool to control the size of your stomach but it doesn't fix what caused you to overeat in the first place.
I still hate my shakes, I drank them 7 months prior to surgery and they taste like elmers glue with chocolate, the smell of chocolate makes me want to hurt, but it doesn't make me regret my decision.
I hope you turn the corner soon and things start looking up for you. I wish you the best of luck.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

Omg, I have had this conversation with my hubby several times, I thought I was just trippin. I have noticed people, men especially seemingly breaking their necks to be nice or help me.
At my job I am an office coordinator, I have to pretty much do everything. One day I am unloading supplies onto a dolly and getting ready to pull/push it into the bldg.
Mind you I have done this same task countless times as a big girl and nobody moved a eyelash to help me, not even to hold the door.
Well fast forward 1yr/127lb loss and I am doing the same task & co-worker & supervisor of the dept are both at my truck unloading supplies&pushing the dolly into the bldg for me, I actually had to tell them I could take it from here.
Now this type of thing has been happening alot, I would be flattered/unfazed had it happened before my hefty weight lost.
I was the same woman I am today, very independent & fabulous darling. The confidence was not/is not a question. I know my self worth as a woman&child of God.
This prejudice type of behavior rubs me wrong bc I feel like if you wasn't checking for me when I was 200+lbs please dont try me now. I am in love with the person who loved me all of me when I was 298lbs. He loved me then&still does now.

They did a "What Would you Do?" segment on t.v. on a similar thing.
There was a person stealing a bike--- tools and all (lock breaker, crowbar etc.) They did the segment in a crowded park. The "thieves" all kept looking around as if they wanted to steal the bike and were furiously trying to get the lock off.
1. White young man- hardly anyone strolling through the park said anything.
2. Black kid dressed EXACTLY the same as white kid- people gathered, said WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!? called the police.
3. Beautiful blonde- they actually kept helping her with the tools. Even when she said things like "well it doesn't reallllly belong to mee" they actually HELPED her steal the bike or laughed and watched not calling police.
Looks matter. People have pre-conceived notions. Even a few black women realized the same feelings came up in them and were glad to have been a part of it.. Imagine the black kid's sadness...even though he was an actor in the scene he saw what went on with the other scenarios.

Wow talk about a transformation...you look great&i like the dress.

I was in a wedding this weekend, I had a blast and I felt great. I just wanted to post some pics from the event of me in my regular sizebridesmaid dress that did not need any alterations & was ordered a size smaller months before the wedding. I also have some once changed into my LBD and started getting loose with my (short, just cuz of the heels) hubby...Hope you all are enjoying the wonderful new life with ya sleeve cause I sure am, as I am sure you will be able to tell by my Charlie Angel (kinda) picture....LOL...enjoy your life you guys.     

I was in a wedding this weekend, I had a blast and I felt great. I just wanted to post some pics from the event of me in my regular sizebridesmaid dress that did not need any alterations & was ordered a size smaller months before the wedding. I also have some once changed into my LBD and started getting loose with my (short, just cuz of the heels) hubby...Hope you all are enjoying the wonderful new life with ya sleeve cause I sure am, as I am sure you will be able to tell by my Charlie Angel (kinda) picture....LOL...enjoy your life you guys.     

Thank you guys so much....I feel amazing,blessed,&full of life. Doing it all with an amazing amazing man by my side....Oh side note I think the ladies will understand-> I was able to rock those shoes from 3pm thru 11pm...entire wedding & reception...Go Sleeve Go!!!!

I was in a wedding this weekend, I had a blast and I felt great. I just wanted to post some pics from the event of me in my regular sizebridesmaid dress that did not need any alterations & was ordered a size smaller months before the wedding. I also have some once changed into my LBD and started getting loose with my (short, just cuz of the heels) hubby...Hope you all are enjoying the wonderful new life with ya sleeve cause I sure am, as I am sure you will be able to tell by my Charlie Angel (kinda) picture....LOL...enjoy your life you guys.