19 pounds to goal

I can't believe I'm 9 months out from lapband and I have 19 pounds to my goal weight. 140 is the bmi for my height to be a normal bmi, so I'm 14 pounds from being average weight for my height of 5'3. It's hard to believe I never hit a real plateau and never gave up. I had bad days, but always got right back on track. The last few days (last 3 days) I've had some personal issues and been in a real depression and my band is so tight I'm barely eating 500cals a day. I eat egg beaters and they lay on top of my band and I want to puke them up. I'm forcing myself to push fluids, focus on protein and fiber. I don't want to loose my health. I've come so far. And I'm so close to goal. I keep telling myself this depression and life issues is temporary and I will make it, that everyone has this feeling sometimes, and to focus on the long run and not let my good habits go. I still carry my pedometer in my pocket daily and have been forcing myself to walk out in the sunshine. 10,000 + steps a day. I start a new job in 2 weeks that really isn't 100% of what I wanted. But none the less it's a start in the right direction. I keep telling myself it's a start. And it was half of what I wanted.

I just read your entire blog after seeing your dramatic pictures. You look amazing and have done a remarkable job. I am sorry you are feeling down right now. I do hope this passes and you feel in better spirits soon. Being depressed is the worst. Just keep pushing yourself out of it and try to keep busy. Keep posting and showing pictures. . . you are an inspiration! Linda

You and your pictures are really inspiring! Thank you so much for your blog. It is really helpful to hear the truth about the ups and downs. Cali