I lost 190 pounds of dead weight

Here i go drama where shall i start ok i have been under lot of stress and my b f has been no help he is not all on board with my getting the sergury anyway. I just had it and i asked him to leave oh and he couldnt get out the door quick enough lol. That was night b4 last and other then him texting me and being a complete ass that has been the extent of our conversatiion. I am sad in away but relieved in another, I feel like I am all by myself I have my mom sisters but they have their lives and i dont want to call with my issues i cant believe between my ex b f and my screwed up son i just cant find time to enjoy the fact that i am getting banded in just teo days instead i am so sad my heart feels so heave. My Bf was no prize so thats not it i just wish he were here to help me start this jurney i planned on dumpimg his sorry ass anyway just on my term yes i told him to leave but i didnt think he would (haha joke on me). I cant be stressing out i need to find peace b4 i go into surgery and i will to nite i will vent cry and tommorrow all that shit is gone it is what it is and my stressing wont help. I am okay

He will be tryin to crawl back in the near future. Do what is best for you, i had to learn that all people aren't going towhat the best for you. If your in this alone so be it, because your in it to win it. I hope everything is going well post-op.