coming here instead of snacking

ugh! i hate money. more like i hate the lack of money at present. money money money!

i know the pull to munch on something is just because i am upset and stressed. so i am here instead, keeping my fingers busy.

i have lost a few pounds the last week or so. that feels good. i have worked out a few times, need to get better about it, but at least it was something.

i am really starting to worry about this cruise we are going on in october. will i be at goal in time to have my tummy tuck before? if not am i gonna be at an ok place emotionally? i dont wanna be freakin out all week on the boat! plus, the formal dinners? omg, i have to buy some clothes. the other ladies of the couples we are going with are looking at stuff now...i am getting depressed. i dont wanna look at stuff now! what size will i be then?

ughh, what a day so far! and its not even noon. great.