I will be daring and be totally honest with all of you...

I am scared some days, I am scare of who I am, who I am becoming...

the weight comes off and people are noticing lol, the one thing I want is happening and yet I am scared... people notice me.

Simple as that, they have looked at me, they have said that I look really good, that they can tell how much weight I have...

I am scared. I do not know this person, I am not fantastic looking but still 40 lbs down from where I started is good I know - this person - who is she? Does she wear the tighter sweater? Her husband has a gleam in his eye? Her friend is so happy for her? Who is she?

So under this fat, under this layer of protection I have built for myself, to protect myself... I am here! Yes, it is me! I am still the same, maybe I look different - I know and I want, but I am me, I love, I hurt, I cry and I celebrate my losses and gains with you...

I am torn between wanting to show myself, come out of my physical shell and wanting to hide because it is what I have done for so long.

I am being, I am me...