thought i could do it on my own!!

:angry_smile::cursing::cursing::cursing::eek:Well I was tryin again for the past two months to do this on my own.. But nothing I lost 8 pounds by starving my self and then I had 2 weeks on duty out of my area in new hampsier, I gained it all back!!!! I give up i need this done. I have my career and that one last step to my career dreams but the weight is the wall between us. I Have the love of my life back after two years apart and he knew me when i as at my smallest, I know we are going to marry one day and I want to look hella hot as we did when we first met!!! I need this done I need this done years ago so i don have to worry for this and that damn scale. BTW who said not weighing your self helps paleezze a day me not weighing my self lol wow ill fall back and not know it and totally depressed when i finally step back on the scales.... Ill be scheduling the surgery date tomarrow and Im taking the first day I get available, I have 3 days leave saved up So that should be good to go with work...