I'm Addicted To Food

I'm now done 30 pounds. 30 pounds! I like stepping on the scale now. It had been probably 15 years or more since I weighed in the 180s. Hooray for me!

I like losing slowly. I'm learning a lot along the way. Mainly, I have learned that I'm addicted to food. I think I'm going to go to a counselor to talk about this.

It is so frustrating constantly thinking about food. And it's definitely not normal to love eating as much as I do. It is really comforting to eat. It's the most comforting to eat sugary or greasy things. Why I can't get the same comfort from celery I don't know ... sigh. I also sometimes feel like I have no control over food. It's like I can't stop eating, even when I want to. How did I get this way??? What is wrong with me??? I can't wait for a counselor to solve all of these problems for me. Hopefully overnight! ha ha.

But, despite my food addiction. I'm still down 30 pounds in 5 months!!! Take that, food addiction!

Also, while I'm in the process of curing my food addiction, I'm going to beg beg beg my PA to give me another fill even though it's only been a week since the last one. I know I'm getting close to green, but I'm not there yet. She will probably say no. But then I might do even more begging and might throw in some tears for good measure. We'll see.