CLOSER

By the time I came home from the seminar the end of January 2011 I had a list. There was a giant list of requirements from both my insurance company and the surgeon himself. 6 meetings with my PCP to chart my weight loss or gain. Three monthly meetings with a dietitian for behavior modification. A 4 hour long psychological evaluation. Stress test, chest xray, blood work and an EKG. There were online questionnaires to be filled out, and a 4 hour PT class to attend.

The list seemed endless, and to be honest. I wasn’t sure I would be able to pull it off. I am about two months out. My PCP filled out a form for me in November, but we are not sure if my insurance company will count it since it hasn’t been consecutively .

I have a PCP appointment in June and perhaps another one in July. I have cleared all of the other hoops.

I am excited about the surgery. I wish they would give me a date. I wish my insurance company would just sign off on it. I am kind of stuck in the middle of nowhere now. I have all of these powders and shakes lined up ready to go. I am as prepared as I can be. I haven’t had the conversation with my shrew of a boss yet. I am not looking forward to that one.

My boyfriend and I do not talk about it. He gets quiet when I mention it. He always promises to be there for me when I have my surgery. He just seems worried, but I guess that is a good sign.

He has dropped about 30 pounds since I decided on the surgery. He constantly gives me diet tips- I am sure hoping I will lose lots of weight without going under the knife.

I believe this will help me. I believe it will change my life. I don’t think it will change my relationship with my boyfriend. If anything, maybe it might get even better.

There is just so much that is unknown now. I am ready to move on.