This is basically my journal, although public. Hoping this will help me sort out my feelings. I am having VSG surgery July 15th and figured I better learn about myself and my poor relationship with food. This is a journey that I have never been on before. I was able to "diet" and lose weight plenty of times but I have never dealt with the issues that caused me to gain the weight in the first place.

Sooooo, started therapy this week. No much to say for the first visit, just mostly intake questions. I was surprised to have a DX already: General Anxiety Disorder. After researching I would have to agree. I have very poor coping skills and tend to stuff my face to help the "out of control" feeling. I also feel like I'm coming out of my skin when the anxiety is real high. I cannot wait until I can take control of this or at least calm it down. It's taking a toll on my concentration at work and I noticed I'm beginning to lose control a lot when I drive. And I don't mean, scared to drive, I mean I am getting VERY aggressive. I think I'm just redirecting the anxiety of the day's work into my driving, then sitting in a ton of traffic every day is really taking it's toll on me and the little patience I have.

I am glad to have the weekend to reflect upon this diagnosis and maybe find a book or two that can help me until my therapy visits kick in. My new therapist is booked for the next couple of weeks and I REALLY need help now so I better reach out and find it myself. Luckily I am very resourceful.