SO I went to see my mom and my nana today. She looked at me and said I looked great. I got up to pull the couch cover up a bit and she said my bum is getting bigger. like the fat from my stomach is going to my butt. lol I laughed and I later looked in the mirror and it is true.. I might have a bum. lol anywho, My hunger is starting to come. I ate 1/4 cup of oatmeal for breakfast. and dinner I had Steak and a few grapes. That's all I could process for the day. I am happy because that's more than what I have been doing.

Newly single so I guess that' s a plus. At a time like this I guess its better to be single. I have all the support I need to get me by. Tomorrow I am going to focus on getting my protein in or at least getting more of it in. I read on here that someone was taking in more than 100 protein per day. I researched it and it stated too much protein is bad for you. So that's one negative that I saw on here. Another thing that happened today that kind of made me think, its okay to share your success or journey with other people but just know its only your opinion so don't be pushy. Doctors wouldn't tell you anything to hurt you on purpose. At least I hope not. lol .

I am so ready to start back working out. I wish I had some sort of connection with someone who works at a gym with a pool. I went to lifetime fitness in chicago and it was 160 down and 80 a month. The good thing was that it had an outdoor pool and two big indoor pools. three hot tubs and it was 24hours. But holy cow I couldnt imagine paying that much and I can't even bring a guess but 3 times a year. I feel really lonely working out alone. I wish I had a workout partner that was serious about working out. I really want one that has a pool because I love swimming and aqua classes.

my new goal is to be at 299 by the middle of August, and then to be 250 the end of the year. I dont want to lose weight to fast. I want to do it smart and healthy. I am so ready to finally start living after so many years of making myself a prisoner . Maybe this will also help me be less shy. Well I've said too much and I want to take a break from this laptop.. SO until LATER!!!