back to reality...blah..

Post op day 6...physically I'm feeling great...little tenderness in my stomach when I try to bend over or bend the wrong way! I was able to sleep on my side last night comfortably for the 1st time so that was AWESOME!! As much as I tried to stay away from the scale I weighed myself and I have lost 11 lbs since surgery 6 days ago and that made me feel pretty dang confident about this whole thing! BUT even with all these great changes going on I'm feeling so bummed and lonley today!! I just miss my husband and the fact that he won't be home for another 10 months is so irritating today because I want my best friend here with me watching these changes...seeing me grow and become a new person! I think I'm so bummed because my dad had to go home today so it's back to just me and my lil guy...I think he's feeling it to b/c all day he's been saying "mommy I miss my daddy...him in Cuba but I miss him!" AAGGHH dang you deployments...this is our 4th so you would think I could handle days like this, and I can..I'll be fine it just SUCKS!! I MISS YOU SSG RICHARD SCHATZ AND WE ARE SO PROUD OF YOU!!!

Sorry to be a downer...tomorrow WILL be better! It has to be because I 'go back to work' tomorrow!!! I put that in quotes because I work from home, I do in home daycare so I won't be actually going anywhere but I have 2 new kids starting in the morning and I'm a little nervous about it! There is one 4 year old and a 6 month old so I"m nervous to see if I will be able to pick him up with out any discomfort! Well off to get this house back in order and ready for daycare because right now it looks like I haven't cleaned in years! URGH! Why can't I just stay home, not work and still get paid!? LOL!