Checking in

I'm going to start checking in weekly with my wring. I need some accountability. I feel like I'm struggling and hanging on for dear life. I have this great tool and I need to use it. Not forget I have it. Last few months have been awful. I will have a couple good days then a lot of bad days where I eat whatever I want. Then I tell myself there is always tomorrow. Not true. Maybe tomorrow doesn't come and I wasted the day. Who knows. I'm trying to do better, I know I can so why don't I. That brings me to accountability. I have been stalled for a year so maybe in my mind I was giving up. Well yesterday I weighed 174. Omg up from my lowest about 8 pounds. I want to be in the 150's so bad I can taste it. Well sometimes anyway. Others I'm going through the motions and other days I'm stuffing my face. One meal at a time right? So far today I'm in good shape. 155 calories and 22 protein. I will eat lunch in a few hours I better go get some wat in. Have a great day everyone.