Trying to Beat My DNA - 8 days post-op

Well, I'm just over a week out and feel pretty good. My monthly friend showed her ugly little head a couple of days ago so I am all bloated and cramping, but other than that I am good. I am still cranky as all get out. I'm not sure what that is about, but I way more irritable than I usually am and believe me that is not good.

Doing pretty good diet wise. I got to advance yesterday and the change in texture was so welcome. I'm still not getting all my protein in. I've tried adding unflavored protein powder to my soup, but I am only able to get 4 ounces of my protein shakes down at a time instead of the 8 ounces I am suppose to be getting. It is very frustrating. Before surgery I thought, "There is no way someone can not get all their protein in with these shakes." Boy, was I wrong. I guess I didn't anticipate that I would feel full even with liquids. I'm sure that is probably about to change since the swelling is going down.

I like this feeling of getting full off of so little, but I do get depressed feeling occasionally thinking "What did I do?" I am missing planning the big meals and going out to eat with my family. I never realized how much my life revolved around food until now. Last night was very difficult for me. We took the kids to the movies and of course they had popcorn and sodas. That popcorn smelled so inviting. I was a good girl though and didn't eat any of it. I just sat there and sipped on my water. I'm just taking this one day at a time and trying to keep the bigger picture in my mind. I have no doubt that I will get there, it just seems like the bigger picture is so far away right now. UHHHH!!!!