2 months post-op and 2 fills later....

"I thought you would have lost more weight by now" my mother says while we're having lunch yesterday. :crying: (the look on my face while I work on not choking on what I was chewing.)

"Well I'm supposed to lose 2lbs were week, I'm 2 months post-op or 8 weeks post op today and I'm way ahead of that goal. Yes I could have lost more if I was working out like I should and didn't eat crap for the last two weeks since I've moved but I'm still way ahead of where I should be."

"Oh ok.... I guess" she says as she shrugs and eyes me as she looks back to her plate.

I saw that... now suddenly UBER "aware" of what I'm eating (6oz steak, veggies, starch) I felt that old feeling rise up... "Would you ladies like pie for just 99 cents???" the waitress interupts.

"What kind of pie?" I ask... She lists them and I decide on peach, warmed with ice cream. Ala mode just like my extra pounds evidently..

I then turn to my mom.. "What?!?!?! We're sharing."

"I didn't say anything Yvette... eat what you want to eat..."

Already feeling full I take a couple of bites of pie and eat the ice cream. I know I know.. SLIDER food.. but it was good and I realized in that moment I will struggle with food for the rest of my life. I know I can overcome it, I've done very well since being banded but in the last couple of weeks there's been too many slip ups and letting the cravings get the best of me.

I don't know how those of you with kids do it, since I've had children staying with me for the past couple of weeks it's been WAY harder, they eat ALL the time and they want things I shouldn't be eating. I love them but I need to find a balance or something lol..

Guess it's practice for when I have my own.

Either way no more.. today I'm going back on the basics I was eating, I'm going to make my list and go to the store and get what I need to make healthy band and kid friendly meals. For the days they're eating crap, I'll do shakes/smoothies. No pizza, no pasta, no more bread and NO MORE SWEET TEA! I made it with one meal and it's been "Can I have tea?" ever since... and every time I pour them some, I pour me some.. EMPTY CALORIES! UGH..

Ok Done with everything else, as I was typing this this morning, I was on my prayer call and the person leading intercessory started praying about appetites being controlled and eating just what we need to feel satisfied, not to eat til a point of gluttony. God will minister to you in many ways...

It's time to get serious...Think I'll start some twoadays at the gym as well..

It's friday, my day off. I have to put my bedroom together, it's the last room in the house that hasn't been completed after my move. Tired of looking at boxes and clothes thrown everywhere.

Then to check my mail, the bank, other errands and plan my menu. But before all that... I'm going back to bed

Don't beat yourself up!! it's only been 2 months. We been eating the wrong ways for so many yrs how can anyone expect us to change right away. You did it, you learned... as the months go by and you start losing more weight your habits will change. I've been doing this for 8 months now and lost 65lbs so far. Not alot compare to others, but I feel like I'm finally succeeding because I turn down certain food items now without thinking twice. I do have ice cream, one scoop not the whole container... my mantra " LOSE IT AS YOU WILL LIVE IT!"

Did you notice you ordered the pie right after your mom commented on how she thought you should have lost more weight. Do you maybe have ongoing issues with her and your weight? Could it be a subtle sabatoge on her part? Something to think about.

Did you notice you ordered the pie right after your mom commented on how she thought you should have lost more weight. Do you maybe have ongoing issues with her and your weight? Could it be a subtle sabatoge on her part? Something to think about.

Yes ma'am that's why I posted it... my struggle isn't really between me and her, she is a lil' for lack of a better word, envious of the surgery, she saw how well I did (I've lost 64lbs since Dec) and she wanted to get it too, her insurance doesn't cover it and she doesn't want to go into debt to selfpay. But it's not a real jealousy - she's happy for me. But there's not another word that comes to mind on it. My initial results astonished her.. she wanted to do the same. But now I've slowed... My dr isn't concerned because I'm way past where I should be for weight loss in this time frame.

As for ordering the food... yes that's why I'm upset I went right to the "comfort" of food.. UGH!

Your doing awesome and as the comment above states we are learning everyday on how to live this new way it will come..I got another fill on Wed and the nurse said it takes about 6 months to get into the groove..... hang in there!!!I was banded 12/9/09 so I am right there with you learning everyday!!

Don't beat yourself up!! it's only been 2 months. We been eating the wrong ways for so many yrs how can anyone expect us to change right away. You did it, you learned... as the months go by and you start losing more weight your habits will change. I've been doing this for 8 months now and lost 65lbs so far. Not alot compare to others, but I feel like I'm finally succeeding because I turn down certain food items now without thinking twice. I do have ice cream, one scoop not the whole container... my mantra " LOSE IT AS YOU WILL LIVE IT!"

The eating wrong is a continual process.. I'm doing very well weightloss wise I'm just ugh I don't know. Yesterday just showed me it's going to ALWAYS be challenge.

Yvette, I feel your pain and minor setbacks, but I know that you will get past this. Everything is about choice and you make choices for you. People who are not living it, no how much they love us, don't really understand that is is not a quick fix and that it is work. This work will be a challenge and there will be times that you will have setbacks. You recognized it, now move on. I know you're strong - hell you've lost 65lbs already - I am hoping to be as successful as you.

Yvette, I feel your pain and minor setbacks, but I know that you will get past this. Everything is about choice and you make choices for you. People who are not living it, no how much they love us, don't really understand that is is not a quick fix and that it is work. This work will be a challenge and there will be times that you will have setbacks. You recognized it, now move on. I know you're strong - hell you've lost 65lbs already - I am hoping to be as successful as you.

Thank you so much Lynn you're absolutely correct - I shouldn't be upset. Today is a new day!

New day new Start... I have screwed up alot with my eating. With 3 kids around me asking for snack costantly i have found myself eating with them...stuppf thati dont really crave or enjoy.

You are doing great!!!! yes your mom is probably feeling lousy about her not getting the band, but she is your mom and she wants you to be happy and healthy. my mother is very supportive but sometimes she says things that she does not realize can hurt and stress me out...especially when there is a week where i dont loose any weight.

my weight is coming off very slowly...but i dont regreat having the Band.

Keep it up!!!

We are in the same place w/all of this. Its hard because one day I have great restriction and the next day I am a bottomless pit. The few days that I have had great restriction, it has been so easy to eat well and be satisfied w/that. But, right now, it seems like I have less restriction than when I had no fill at all. Its hard, but I just keep reminding myself that eventually I will get to the point where I have that good restriction all the time (or at least most of the time). We will get there!

Girl shut up lol! Why did you crack me up with the ala mode part. Stop though! You are doing great! Your mom knows you are doing good, try not to worry about it (but girl I'm the same way I would have been hurt too). Keep up the hard work and show everyone you aint playing!!!!