The Scale is so pissin me off!

In conjunction with several aspects I'm just bumbed this morning.... I reached 201 and was positive my next step would be down and then below 200... so why the crap am I 203?!

I'm frustrated! I'm waiting for an auction win on ebay to pay and I am FLAT broke! :thumbup: Got bills to pay and my weight is not doin wha I want it to... so here I am today watchin Ultimate Fighter and just chillin out in my apartment... I feel a little retarted, cos here i am lounging on my couch watchin Spike and bloggin when I should be out enjoying life.... did I mention I've got my hoodie on... okay yep I need to let go of this depression!:cursing:

Now.. I have my consult with Dr. Linder on Monday and I am excited about that! I'm gonna explain to him what I'm looking for and let him know I am experiencing extreme back pain I believe due to the sagginess of not only my belly but my breasts. My lower back is giving me every day pain...(right now I have a heating pad on my lower back) I just wanna be happy and right now I'm not...:cursing: