A new set of symptoms

Being overweight definitely has a lot of disadvantages. Almost every obese person has a plethora of health problems. I've always had stomach issues my whole life, migraines, joint pain, back pain etc. Now that I'm losing weight a whole new set of sx is cropping up. I have developed costochondritis and hypoglycemia. These are just mild sx and will eventually go away. I was having a really rough day today because I was just feeling so discouraged and exhausted. I wanted to stay in bed and do nothing until it was time for me to get up and go to work but I dragged my sorry butt out of bed and went to the gym instead. My heart just really hasn't been in it lately but I'm forcing myself to go because I know it's good for me. I was feeling pretty down when I realized that the stupid scale isn't showing any progress still. I feel like a failure because my weight hasn't reduced and I'm so tired of this pre-surgery battle. I just feel like I want to get this over with and move on. It's like being single, why can't I just move on from here? Don't I ever get to graduate. I would like the scale to show me as being less than 220 at some point. I wish I could just sleep for the next week until my appt with my surgeon. This is an exhausting battle and I know it's barely begun even though I've been fighting for almost 2 years. I hope by the time I turn 31 I'll be under 150. It seems like a lofty goal right now but if I get my surgery soon I know I can get there. I want to be a whole new sexy me and be able to wear gorgeous shoes without being in instant pain because there are 220 pounds on a 3 inch heel. ahhh dreams. I can't wait.