My sleep study is tonight and for some reason I am so nervous..it's making me feel ill. :/ This is make it or break it time..everything I've done for the last few months rests on the results of tonight..so nervous.
As a follow up to my previous entry...I have a sleep study scheduled on May 14th. The results of this sleep study will determine if I am able to get my lap band. If I have sleep apnea I will be covered and if not I am at a loss for now...I have never wanted something so badly in my life. I hope and pray that I have some form of sleep apnea..as this is my last chance to "find" a co morbidity. Is it odd for me to be hopeful that I have a sleep disorder? If I have sleep apnea I will be able to stay on my same surgery track for a June 4th surgery date..if not then I must move on and find another way. But no matter what I will get this done, it is what I want and I will find a way-only I can take the steps needed to a healthier life and I am completely prepared to do so. Well just needed to get that out and off my mind for a bit..any thoughts? Advice?
I am devastated...I just found out today that even though I am self pay I will not qualify for lap band if I cannot "find" a co-morbidity....after being through all of my seminars and education classes and psych eval, nutrition counseling all of it I find this out today 1 month from surgery. I am 1 pound away from 40 bmi and about 150 pounds overweight but because I am young and "healthy" I will not qualify??? Just because I don't have high blood pressure, diabetes, high cholesterol, or sleep apnea does not mean that I am "healthy". I have many other "minor" co-morbidities but none that are on the list for the major 4. And of course I have been at a BMI of 38 for the last 3 years and just now at 40 so I do not qualify there either. I am so ready and prepared for surgery and changing my life, this setback devastates me...the reason I switched from insurance to self pay was so that I could qualify and now I find out I will not...I just don't know what the next step is..I'm so upset and can't hold back the tears every time I think about losing out on this because it means the world to me. I don't understand how anyone can judge that a person like myself who is 150 pounds overweight and 39.9 bmi is "healthy" I'm not healthy, I don't feel or look healthy, morbid obesity is not "healthy" that's why I began this journey in the first place. I'm just beside myself with anxiety and fear over not being able to continue my journey...
Let's see... where to start....Well I am on my way to becoming a bandster...I'm at my highest weight that I have ever been- 270ish pounds. It's time to move foward..I have my surgery date set for June 4th of this year. I couldn't be more excited. I have been reading these forums for months now and finally my story is a reality.
So my surgery was changed to the 19th which was Thursday so that way I would be the only person on the schedule that day and the only one in recovery. Everything went great I was in at 6:30 and on the table by 7- surgery was over by 8. I woke up quickly and was just a little dizzy from the anesthesia but that's normal, they said I woke up very fast and they were surprised at how well I did. Drank some water and then was home by 10. I felt great! Went for a couple of walks and even went shopping, I was in no pain at all. Fast forward to the next day, I was sore like I had worked out probably because of the way I was laying on the table, my neck was sore and I had gas pains. The soreness was nothing, it was just achy feeling but the gas pains have by far been the worst out of all of this and the pain medicine doesn't touch it. So I have just been dealing with that, all I can say is walk, walk, walk, I am now on day 4 and my left shoulder is still hurting tremendously, but other than that I feel great. I never expected to feel so awesome. I have lost 16 pounds already counting pre-op and I feel super. I have been getting my fluids in and walking and couldn't be happier that I made this choice. My scars are teeny tiny and I'm sure will fade in no time. I haven't felt hungry even though there is no fluid in my band and that is one of the most unexpected feelings. I know that once the swelling goes down I will probably be in bandster hell but for now I am smooth sailing. I will probably be getting a fill at my 4 week appt. So for anyone out there reading this that has doubts just know that you can do it! I will say that having a support system is crucial. Without friends and family I would be lost. They support me and cheer me on and encourage me, and help me remember that this is just the beginning. Keep on Keeping on!
I haven't been on here in awhile, I've just been so busy getting everything done and sent over to my surgeon's office so that I can hurry up and wait. I will be having my surgery on July 18th with Dr. Paul Enochs in Cary. My surgery is exactly 16 days from now and I am so excited! I thought that I would be more nervous than this but I'm just so thrilled, I can't wait to be on my way. The only thing I'm worried about is this heat! The temperature has been in the hundreds for the last few days I can only imagine how miserable it will be to get out of surgery and walk out into 100 degree weather ick! Hope everyone is staying cool out there.