Devastated...

I am devastated...I just found out today that even though I am self pay I will not qualify for lap band if I cannot "find" a co-morbidity....after being through all of my seminars and education classes and psych eval, nutrition counseling all of it I find this out today 1 month from surgery. I am 1 pound away from 40 bmi and about 150 pounds overweight but because I am young and "healthy" I will not qualify??? Just because I don't have high blood pressure, diabetes, high cholesterol, or sleep apnea does not mean that I am "healthy". I have many other "minor" co-morbidities but none that are on the list for the major 4. And of course I have been at a BMI of 38 for the last 3 years and just now at 40 so I do not qualify there either. I am so ready and prepared for surgery and changing my life, this setback devastates me...the reason I switched from insurance to self pay was so that I could qualify and now I find out I will not...I just don't know what the next step is..I'm so upset and can't hold back the tears every time I think about losing out on this because it means the world to me. I don't understand how anyone can judge that a person like myself who is 150 pounds overweight and 39.9 bmi is "healthy" I'm not healthy, I don't feel or look healthy, morbid obesity is not "healthy" that's why I began this journey in the first place. I'm just beside myself with anxiety and fear over not being able to continue my journey...