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Read more about Day 14 of the pre op liquid diet

Day 14 of the pre op liquid diet

I am numb to just about everything at this point. I went to have my eyebrows waxed the other day and it hardly even hurt. It was the weirdest thing. It's kind of like my whole world is black and white. And logically I know this is all worth it. I know this will all pass and I will be fabulous. I can even say it out loud but right now it's just words. That whole BS about how it takes more muscles to frown than smile, i'd like to challenge that please. I think what i hate the most is my lack of pe

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• rachnett
• August 20, 200916 yr

Read more about day four and six of my pre op diet

day four and six of my pre op diet

8/10/09 Day four. Somebody shoot me. this f’ing sucks. I’m having less than 500 calories a day with 95% of them being liquid. It should be 100% liquid but I can not tolerate the powdered protein they want me to be consuming every day. I’ve tried every imaginable form of it out there. It all tastes like crap. It’s all thick. Really I’m not being a baby about this. I’m the girl who can’t drink milk because it’s yucky. If I force myself to drink it, it’s just going to come back up. I can hardly ea

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• rachnett
• August 19, 200916 yr

Read more about self hate

self hate

7/28/09 I must hate myself. Right? why else would I do this to myself. I’m like a fast food junkie. This must be what it feels like to be hooked on crack. Always thinking about your next hit and where it’s going to come from. The moment I feel a twinge of lunch-time hunger I’m all about where I’m going to snag my next “hit”. Then I eat and for about 30 seconds I enjoy it right before the guilt sets in. Then about 10 minutes later I feel terrible. Bloated and full and yucky, which just accentuat

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• rachnett
• August 19, 200916 yr