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Read more about Feeding Alone & Lonely

Feeding Alone & Lonely

I need to write this tonight as I continue to struggle with each bite. As the sunrises and with fresh eyes, a fresh attitude and determination I prepare each day with the attitude “In it to win it”, I can do the right thing. As the sun moves from East to West and life starts to happen, where to move, what school is best for my kid, what do I want to do next with my career, can’t find time to work out, need to clear my desk of all the task, people working my nerves, not enough money seem

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• metamorphosis
• June 20, 200917 yr

Read more about The Psychology of it all

The Psychology of it all

So it was a week on Saturday since I got my last fill and it’s tight. But this last week I have truly struggled with eating. I can’t help but think back on the 12 steps again and what addiction means. It’s insanity! It’s insane when you pay $$$$$ to physically alter the ability to swallow food, so you can lose weight, but then you try and force food down after you have paid thousands of dollars to physically restrict your ability to do so. Then you spend more time trying to figure out h

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• metamorphosis
• June 9, 200917 yr

Read more about Have I failed???

Have I failed???

As I continue to struggle and muddle through my food issue I realized just how tied my food is to so many other issues in my life. I am an emotional eater and it started so long ago, which in turn created a very nasty habit. But the question today for me is “Have I failed”? I asked that as someone responded to me and let me know that what I feel is not at all uncommon, but they mentioned failing. So I ask again if I struggle with the food and I don’t do what I am suppose to have I faile

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• metamorphosis
• May 29, 200917 yr

Read more about It's Not a magic cure

It's Not a magic cure

Well today, the harsh reality of this banding thing came crashing in on me. It felt like I ran into a wall while running at top speed. Today I realized that it does not matter if I have a band or I don't have a band I'm going to have to work at this food thing. It is mental, it is spiritual, and it is painful. I thought back to the year I spent in OA HOW and realized why it was so regimented, because it is an addiction and it is a dis-Ease. I'm not defeated but, just lost th

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• metamorphosis
• May 27, 200917 yr