As some of you know I have been feeling down of late. I have pulled myself out of the funk and am looking life through different eyes now. I will not let other peoples attitudes destroy my self-esteem and self-worth. I have worked too hard to get where I am now. I also will not let my relationships with other people define who I am. Enough said on that subject.

To the reason I am posting today. I went to Target to do some shopping (I do that when I get depressed). I saw they had the bathing suits out already so I decided to go look at them. LOLOLOL!!!! I mean really Target having a bathing suit I would want to be seen in much less be able to wear, give me a break. OK so I start looking at the styles and sizes. They have some really cute ones this year. I pick out a size 18 in black of course and try it on. TOO BIG!! The girls aren't supported at all and my butt cheeks aren't no where near covered. LOL!! So I get dressed and think there is no way in hell I can fit into a size smaller. I must be in that in-between sizes. So I grab a 16 and try it on. IT FITS!!!! Cute halter style with the bottoms to match. NO NOT A BIKINI. It is a Tankini which I Love those things. Then I get to the hotel room and try it on again cause I still can't quite believe it and I see it isn't even a 16W but a straight 16. WHOO HOO!! I am so thrilled. Watch by the time summer rolls around I won't even be able to wear this one. That is OK I can bring it to the Vegas swap. LOL!!

Love you guys

Congrats Penni That is AWSOME!

You have a great attitude and I am happy you are feeling better now. Does that mean you are going to post more with us now?????

WOOHOO!!! Penni, That is awsome, Its a shock to go try something on you think would be your size just to find out your smaller!! wow You are doing good!!

Too Cool! Nothing like shopping and have a NSV as well, to get you out of a funk.

I love Tankini's especially with "boy shorts" bottoms

Congratulations on your NSV! It must be a great feeling when you realize that you've made such a great accomplishment!

Go, Penni! Good for you!

Penni, glad to hear you are out of your funk. You are so right, you have come to far to let anyone destroy that!

Great NSV..seeing those smaller sizes, lets us know our bands are working.

Congratulations!

The only thing I don't like about Tankinis are the name. Why the hell do they call big woman suits Tanks? Wrong, wrong, wrong.

Penni, how 'bout posting a pic... you don't even have to be in the suit, but lemme see it. Do they have pink ones?

OK here is a pic. And NO I am not in it. I will do that when I go on vacation.

Penni that is so cute. I want one but not in my size.Haha!!!! I am so happy for you . Good NSV for you!!!!!!!!!

Ok Penni, since it seems like we're "boobie sisters", I need to ask... does THAT suit top hold the girls up and keep them in the right place???

If so, Im on my way to Target!

So when is vacation? I am ready to see you model that suit now! I bet it looks great on you!

Paula: Yeah this top really holds them in place. If I get enough gutz I would wear that bathing suit top as a top to go with jeans or a nice skirt as well. IT really keeps the girls in place. I was surprised.

They have all kinds of colors. Pink, Black, Purple, Green, Brown, Red, etc. I want a Pink one so I will go to the Target when I get home.

I am going away this weekend with John to Cambria for two nights. So I might get him to take a pic then. LOLOL!!! Then again maybe not.

Penni, great for you, and finding one at Target to boot. If I wore a halter top like that, my neck would snap from the weight of the puppies.

That is OK I can bring it to the Vegas swap. LOL!!

Love you guys

Make sure it covers the 'girls' this time then!! :)

OMIGOD Penni... that is soooooo adorable! I may just have to run down to Target and get one for myself! Wait... it's like 35 below outside with the windchill... hmmm... maybe not...lol.

It is so wonderful that you see the fantastic woman that all of us see everytime you post. John is a very lucky man indeed. (((hugs)))

Darcy