Ok so i seen my doctor's PA today and realized somethings today.

I went in upset because i havent had a fill in 3 months. I have explained that i was hungry in between meals and she still would not fill me. So today i went in with my "game face" on.

I think she felt tension from the beginning but i eased up on her when i realized.......i lost 5 pounds in 4 weeks.

Here i am all upset because she will not fill me i lost track of my progress. I lost...another 5 pounds. When she see's i lost of course she will not fill me. It is a loss.

If i am hungry i should eat, i am allowed 2 Snacks per day. Maybe some of this hunger is still HEAD hunger. I am only 4 months post op afterall.

So during the visit we chat about breast reductions and beings i have about 40 pounds to go until i will be satisfied (although i would love to get to 130) she gives me recomendations for some plastic surgeons.

She then looked at my MFP logs and said "you eat like a thin person" i think i blushed!! She was very proud of my calories and Protein. She was very impressed with my exercise.

I had a thought.....why would she fill me? Im doing so great in Her eyes....why dont I see that? Am I beating myself up that bad?

Then to the ok dont laugh at me question i just had to ask.....i lifted up my shirt and put my hands on my sides (hips) and said what is this??? It is so hard like a tumor or something.....i have never felt this ever.

She looks at me and says "honey that is all muscle"

What???? I have muscle?????? In my tummy????? Maybe my boyfriend was right when i asked him and he said it was my ABS!!!! Never felt this before in my life!!!!!

Exercise is paying off!!!!

Ok thanks for reading

Ps....dont laugh at me lol

I'm not laughing, I think it's AWESOME!!!

You had an amazing day!!!!

Congratulations on your big successes today!!

Iam not laughing at you but with you as we don't know what muscle is as we have had are muscles covered with skin ,isn't nice to know that you are on the right track with building muscle and losing weight , choo choo lol you know you can you know you can lol.

That is just fantastic!! You are doing unbelievably well :-) very inspirational!

Well thank you ladies!!!

For some reason a light bulb went off in my head today. I WILL lose this weight and I should not be in such a rush if I want to be successful.

As far as working out I love it, it is my stress reliever. I can only picture what my tummy would look like if I have these rock hard abs!!!

Now only if the front of my belly tightens more....

Congratulations! Thanks so much for sharing!