I would like to schedule my surgery for the first full week in March once my insurance is approved, any other March Sleevers in the building?

Last night I had a mini panic attack. I started thinking all kind of thoughts like "what if I die, who will take care of my babies (I have 4), will they ever forgive me, what's really on the other side if I do die, will I be able to watch them grow, im too young to die, I can't live like this anymore I HAVE to have the surgery, I better write notes to my family just in case but you can't put everything you want to say to your babies for their lives into a letter..." you see, that's just an example of my thoughts that come rapid-fire. I know im getting the surgery, no question. I just try not to think of what if...but then again I have to think of it just in case. Ugh I wish I could turn off those thoughts though. Im sorry, im just kind of venting bc I don't really have anyone to talk to in RL who can actually understand and sympathize with what im going thru. Also, I've been off aspartame for about 9 days (stopped diet coke, life long addict) and im starting to have the mental part of withdrawals which includes anxiety/nervousness. That isn't helping these feelings/thoughts.

I know how ur feeling. I have an anxiety disorder and my thoughts have been running wild about my surgery as well. I think that when they put me to sleep that im not gonna be fully asleep and that I will be able to feel everything. I have never had surgery before so im freaking out.

Last night I had a mini panic attack. I started thinking all kind of thoughts like "what if I die, who will take care of my babies (I have 4), will they ever forgive me, what's really on the other side if I do die, will I be able to watch them grow, im too young to die, I can't live like this anymore I HAVE to have the surgery, I better write notes to my family just in case but you can't put everything you want to say to your babies for their lives into a letter..." you see, that's just an example of my thoughts that come rapid-fire. I know im getting the surgery, no question. I just try not to think of what if...but then again I have to think of it just in case. Ugh I wish I could turn off those thoughts though. Im sorry, im just kind of venting bc I don't really have anyone to talk to in RL who can actually understand and sympathize with what im going thru. Also, I've been off aspartame for about 9 days (stopped diet coke, life long addict) and im starting to have the mental part of withdrawals which includes anxiety/nervousness. That isn't helping these feelings/thoughts.

I completely understand your thoughts, I have them too. I'm 26, and have suffered from panic attacks for as long as I can remember. However I don't have kids (Kane is my bulldog) But I'm very close with my parents and 3 sisters, and can't help but think of "what it's" when it comes to the surgery. I often have racing thoughts that go from one to another, similar to what you're describing. I've found over the years, when I know I'm letting my negative thoughts get the best of me, turning on a song I really like and singing usually distracts me. I know it sounds random, but its always helped. If you ever need someone to talk let me know! We're all in this together! And soon enough, we'll be on the other side of this surgery and this will all be a faint memory!

peacockmom, I too am having some of the same thoughts/fears. Although we realize we are doing this for all the right reasons, we still have to think about "things" with regards to our families, especially our kiddos. I am a single mother and worry alot about my three daughters and the what-if's. Great idea coming on here for support. We can all help each other.

March 12 th got date today

Ok so we got dates but who's waiting for approval? I am...

I'm march 20 I'm 5'1 now 220 I've lost 12 pounds in the last 23 days goal weight 130 !

Whoohooo!! I'm the 20th too!

I see my doc and NUT tomorrow for my last reg appt before surgery... I'm approved and ready to go... I will get my preop diet tomorrow... I've already been eating small plates, no soda, no straws and lots of water already. I've lost 10 lbs...

My surgery is on the 20th... So I'm supper excited!! My stats: 35 yo, 5'7" 320 lbs (330 to start) size 24 jeans 3x tops.

My goal is 150. (No lower than 140)

Nervous? A little. I'm so excited I don't think I have enough room for nerves.... I've told only my closest friends and family (some close coworkers). I will be off work exactly 3 weeks to the day if surgery....

Have been doing BOP (bariatric outpatient physical therapy) I am joining a gym in march... I will be able to go to the gym within days of surgery so I'm excited about that....

Biggest thing now is working on what to pack getting my house ready...

30 days til I'm sleeved endoscopy now complete that was this morning next appointment is March 7th preop day... How's everyone else?

Last night I had a mini panic attack. I started thinking all kind of thoughts like "what if I die' date=' who will take care of my babies (I have 4), will they ever forgive me, what's really on the other side if I do die, will I be able to watch them grow, im too young to die, I can't live like this anymore I HAVE to have the surgery, I better write notes to my family just in case but you can't put everything you want to say to your babies for their lives into a letter..." you see, that's just an example of my thoughts that come rapid-fire. I know im getting the surgery, no question. I just try not to think of what if...but then again I have to think of it just in case. Ugh I wish I could turn off those thoughts though. Im sorry, im just kind of venting bc I don't really have anyone to talk to in RL who can actually understand and sympathize with what im going thru. Also, I've been off aspartame for about 9 days (stopped diet coke, life long addict) and im starting to have the mental part of withdrawals which includes anxiety/nervousness. That isn't helping these feelings/thoughts.[/quote']

Totally understand... I have even had the "talk" with my husband if what if... I die, I go into a coma, my final wishes ect... So what helped me was to write a letter to him with messages to each of my loved ones... That helped ease my nerves and I'm so much better now!

Tomorrow begins my preop diet as well as my preop appointment!!!! Im really excited/nervous!!!!!

That's great,start my pre op diet real soon

March 21st. I am not telling anyone. Going to be tough but there is so much going on with my family that they wouldn't handle this decision well right now. But I have to do this - for me for once. Right now, my biggest fear is that I won't be able to follow the pre op diet. I am glad this forum is here because its now like I have a whole new circle of friends that I can talk to and where we can share our mutual journey. I have a billion questions and am reading posts like they are a lifeline. Mostly, I am just lecturing myself about taking it one day at a time. I am in Florida and, so far, my insurance approved with no arguments or hassle. Which, of course, means I'm am waiting for "the other shoe to drop" because that part seemed so easy. I only have a really really bad situation with GERDS. Anybody have approval from insurance and then have it taken away? I was 294, first surgeon visiting was 291, I am 289 and praying I can get down to 281 by surgery date.

Ok I have been wanting to ask this for a while and with everyone talking about it I have just got to ask now... My doctor, surgeon or nutritionist did not mention any type of pre-op diet to me... All they said is I can't eat/ drink hours before surgery... Anyone else not have a pre-op diet... They also said people have had surgeries canceled for gaining weight before surgery and I should plan to lose 10lbs before surgery but nothing else.??

My surgeon said 10 pounds was necessary and that was all he said. The Nut (nutritionist) was the one who told me the diet to follow to get there in the best possible shape and minimize the hunger. But eve she was just making it a strong suggested diet. I asked about drinking coffee and she said it was ok as long as it counted towards my calorie count. Perhaps you could ask your nut to give you some suggestions on how to lose 10 lbs in such a short time? I still don't believe I will be able to do it even following all her instructions. I am such a slow loser.