Hello Everyone,

My surgery date is scheduled for November 12, and I was supposed to have started my liquid diet yesterday. But, man oh man, it has been a struggle the last couple of weeks! I have also been off of coffee for a week and a half now. And that hasn't been easy as well.

I started my VSG journey about 5 months ago when I weighed about 305 lbs. I have struggled with weight all of my life. There were a couple of times in just the last 10 years when I'd lost 100 lbs, but then managed to gain most if not all of it back. When I hit 305 lbs. back in May, I pretty much hit a low point in my life and decided that I needed to resort to weight loss surgery. I had had it at that point! The next few months right after, I made up my mind to go through with the VSG. I went to all my nutrition classes, and with the help of my nutritionist I have lost 30 lbs. to date.

Anyway, here I am almost 6 months later, with a surgery date. And the last few days, I'm finding myself thinking, "Am I really gonna go through with this?" "What is it gonna be like?" "Am I doing the right thing?" "What if I have complications, and end up regretting this decision?" I've driven by a couple of my favorite restaurants, and thought to myself, "Wow, I may never get to eat there again!" "No more Tuesday fish tacos at Rubio's!" In fact, on the first day that I was supposed to have started my liquid diet, I ended up going to my favorite buffet restaurant. And today, I felt so anxious about moving forward with the surgery that the moment I saw a muffin sitting in the fridge at work, I just lost control and immediately shoved the muffin down my mouth.

Is there anyone else pre-op or post-op that went through this "Last Supper Syndrome"? How did/do you get over it? Just the thought of not being able to eat or even taste my favorite foods ever again just makes my mind and my stomach rebel. And I know this makes it all the more difficult to stay with the pre-op liquid diet. Any suggestions you could give would be much appreciated. Please help - I don't want my surgeon to have to cut me open because I didn't stick with my pre-op liquid diet.

Thanks!

I know this wasn't meant to be funny, but I seriously busted out laughing about shoving the muffin down your throat because that sounds just like something I would do... Lol I'm pre-op myself and don't have surgery until March 11th. All of the questions that you have going through your mind, I have as well. I think that I'm going to kind of miss being fat because it's what I hide behind. When that's gone, what am I going to do? I'm going to miss all the foods that I eat now in excessive amounts and shoveling muffins down my throat, but this is best for the both of us!!

My surgery is the 12th as well and I startmy diet tomorrow. While I am a little concerned about only having protein shakes for 2 weeks, I just keep telling myself that the torture of this diet won't even come close to the agony that any serious complications could endure should I not remain compliant. I binged at Outback tonight for my "last meal" and allowed myself to have anything I wanted on the menu so I wouldn't sit there over the next 2 weeks thinking "man, I sure wish I would have gotten that pie"! Just keep in mind that they aren't trying to kill us with this diet; they are trying to keep us safe. I'm sure if there were other ways to prep ourselves, they would find it. They know we get cranky when we're hungry!!!!

I've worried about the same things!!

We share the same date.... But I have to be on my best behavior because my Dr gave me an additional 8 pd weight loss by that date or it will be canceled... Needless to say I am stressed and sticking to my 800 calorie liquid diet!

Where are you getting sleeved???

I am right there with you! My surgery date is set for December 20, and I find myself saying, it's ok right now because in December, there is NO turning back! I think these thoughts are perfectly normal!!!!

Thanks for the replies! It's nice to know that I am not alone in this. I'm getting sleeved at El Camino Hospital in northern California.

Oh Wow... Mountain View, CA!

I was born there... 35 years ago and my kids where born at El Camino too... GREAT HOSPITAL!

I live in the Central Valley now... I moved out here 11 years ago. Since

I have Kaiser and will be going to Fresno.

God willing we will all be fine O:-)

Wishing everyone the best!!!

Hello Everyone' date='

My surgery date is scheduled for November 12, and I was supposed to have started my liquid diet yesterday. But, man oh man, it has been a struggle the last couple of weeks! I have also been off of coffee for a week and a half now. And that hasn't been easy as well.

I started my VSG journey about 5 months ago when I weighed about 305 lbs. I have struggled with weight all of my life. There were a couple of times in just the last 10 years when I'd lost 100 lbs, but then managed to gain most if not all of it back. When I hit 305 lbs. back in May, I pretty much hit a low point in my life and decided that I needed to resort to weight loss surgery. I had had it at that point! The next few months right after, I made up my mind to go through with the VSG. I went to all my nutrition classes, and with the help of my nutritionist I have lost 30 lbs. to date.

Anyway, here I am almost 6 months later, with a surgery date. And the last few days, I'm finding myself thinking, "Am I really gonna go through with this?" "What is it gonna be like?" "Am I doing the right thing?" "What if I have complications, and end up regretting this decision?" I've driven by a couple of my favorite restaurants, and thought to myself, "Wow, I may never get to eat there again!" "No more Tuesday fish tacos at Rubio's!" In fact, on the first day that I was supposed to have started my liquid diet, I ended up going to my favorite buffet restaurant. And today, I felt so anxious about moving forward with the surgery that the moment I saw a muffin sitting in the fridge at work, I just lost control and immediately shoved the muffin down my mouth.

Is there anyone else pre-op or post-op that went through this "Last Supper Syndrome"? How did/do you get over it? Just the thought of not being able to eat or even taste my favorite foods ever again just makes my mind and my stomach rebel. And I know this makes it all the more difficult to stay with the pre-op liquid diet. Any suggestions you could give would be much appreciated. Please help - I don't want my surgeon to have to cut me open because I didn't stick with my pre-op liquid diet.

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I totally went thru everything you said. I did the last supper TWO DAYS BEFORE SURGERY, I DIDN'T MEAN TO, I was just going to have my last bag of potatoe chips ever in my life, but then I had to have some French bread, salami, for the last time in my life, yikes, I better get an eclair, for the last time in my life. See, first I lost my required 15 pounds PRE surg, and then I ate all that stuff!!! I actually had to call the doctor and tell him, I didn't want him to cut me open and have salami staring at him. He said everyone does the "last supper" and all will be fine.

This incident showed me how addicted I am to food, I thought I was going to just have a small bag of chips.

I got off the coffee too and I am 2 months post surg and have had literally 5 cups of coffee, most last week when I was out of town.

I did not have to do a liquid diet. My doctor allowed one 300 cal. Meal a day, veggies and the shakes. You should call the doctors office and tell them your struggles, they may have something to help you. The only way I knew to call my doctor and have my meal plan adjusted is because I started talking to one of his other patients and she could not do only liquid either and again, her meal plan was adjusted.

I was very glad I had a preop diet prior to surgery because as soon as surgery hits the volume of food is so ridiculously small I would have been in food shock if I had not already adjusted a bit.

One week before the surgery I woke up and decided, I AM NOT GOING THRU WITH THE SURGERY. I did not care what anyone said, I was going to change my mind. Within a few hours I had an amazing prayer session with my acupuncturist and I heard my higher power say clearly, go forward do it. For me, that was it, I did not worry, I just stayed on course and had the operation.

I was very unhappy my first week postoperative. My mom had the surgery and my aunt too and they had NO post op pain . I had a lot of pain. I don't handle pain well, I could not eat much & I thought I had made the biggest mistake ever. I had liquid diarrhea, trying to get down 1oz of food was painful and I was so mad I had done this to a perfectly good stomach. It was a bad week, no other way to put it, A LOT OF PEOPLE DO NOT HAVE THAT BAD OF PAIN.

On my one week check I was almost OK, my pain was negligible. I saw the doctor and he assured me the pain I had was normal and all is fine. that was my turning point, I had been assured the pain was normal and I stopped being scared I had "wrecked" myself.

My 2nd week was slow going, tired, still unsure of what the heck I was doing w/ food and Water but I went on a small hike and started laughing again.

My 3rd week, I became happy again. I was NEVER hungry or craving food during this time.

I am now at 8 weeks and this surgery has surpassed my wildest dreams. I have and am still following the instructions, exercising almost daily and the weight is coming off. I do not have my crazy relationship with food anymore. I can't eat more than 4 oz and even that can make me feel nausea if I eat too fast. If I had not had the surgery I would have quit the "diet" by now. I would say to myself that I look and feel so much better, this is good enough, let's go get a pizza. I can't stop now, cause I literally can't eat past 4 oz. And 80% of the time I don't care about food.

I am having the most fun I have had in my life for years, it is the clothes thing, everything getting bigger, got a belt, just finished trying to shrink a few clothes in hot water and dryer to postpone spending money on clothes that will only fit for a month.

The even bigger thing is, I am not so intimidated to walk into a room, I fit in the chairs better, I don't have to worry if there is enough room for me to get thru a group of people. Of course since I am exercising daily I am getting more serotonin but there is more than that going on. I JUDGED MYSELF SO BADLY I did not want people to see me. I still weigh 240ish pounds so by no means am I the perfect body in the room, but for me this is the best body I have been carting around for years. I started my PRE diet at 290 on 8/1/12. Lost 15 lb.'s, had surgery on 8/27/12 weighing 285. I have not weighed myself since 10/10/12. I don't like to weigh cause scales fluctuate so much, if the number isn't very good I will want to eat out of pure frustration. Anyhow on 10/10 I was 250, I am pretty sure when I weigh tomorrow another 10 lb's will be gone. I am less aware of my body but my friends are going crazy at this shrinking Stacy!!!

I hope you go thru with this, like I said, it has surpassed my wildest dreams, and boy was I scared....I just had to quit thinking and do it.

Somehow, get thru the preop liquid food program, once the surgery happens the hunger leaves overall.

Take Care.....

I know this wasn't meant to be funny' date=' but I seriously busted out laughing about shoving the muffin down your throat because that sounds just like something I would do... Lol I'm pre-op myself and don't have surgery until March 11th. All of the questions that you have going through your mind, I have as well. I think that I'm going to kind of miss being fat because it's what I hide behind. When that's gone, what am I going to do? I'm going to miss all the foods that I eat now in excessive amounts and shoveling muffins down my throat, but this is best for the both of us!! <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />[/quote']

Oh sweetheart, I was scared to lose the fat cause I hid behind it too. As my weight falls off, 40 plus pounds so far I have not experienced feeling "too exposed". I am so damn happy with myself I love the excitement of how my clothes get too big about every 2 weeks and I find clothes in my closet I bought years ago that did not fit when I bought them, never could wear them and now those are getting too big too. I had my surgery on 8/27, I wrote a big note on this thread just a minute ago that tells more about me. Best wishes to you....

I think I survived without food funerals by telling myself when ever I had a strong craving that this would not be the last time I would eat that food. I just won't be eating it right now.

I don't plan on going around eating potato chips and other such food often, but, when I reach goal if I have a strong urge for chip I will have one or two (only after my protein and veggies.)

I'm still in the authorization stage, so my surgery date hasn't been schedule yet but I totally get you on "last supper" thoughts. I have them too, and I'm not even to my preop diet yet. I'm committed though and just have to believe that it will be all worth it to avoid the health consequences that are on the horizon from carrying this heavy of weight.

Plus, remember the liquid and soft food diets are temporary. Eventually things will "normalize." I keep telling myself that when that does happen for me, I hope I will better appreciate the food I do get to eat and be happy about how much healthier I am at the same time.

Good luck!