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Thanks for the replies! It's nice to know that I am not alone in this. I'm getting sleeved at El Camino Hospital in northern California.

Hello Everyone, My surgery date is scheduled for November 12, and I was supposed to have started my liquid diet yesterday. But, man oh man, it has been a struggle the last couple of weeks! I have also been off of coffee for a week and a half now. And that hasn't been easy as well. I started my VSG journey about 5 months ago when I weighed about 305 lbs. I have struggled with weight all of my life. There were a couple of times in just the last 10 years when I'd lost 100 lbs, but then managed to gain most if not all of it back. When I hit 305 lbs. back in May, I pretty much hit a low point in my life and decided that I needed to resort to weight loss surgery. I had had it at that point! The next few months right after, I made up my mind to go through with the VSG. I went to all my nutrition classes, and with the help of my nutritionist I have lost 30 lbs. to date. Anyway, here I am almost 6 months later, with a surgery date. And the last few days, I'm finding myself thinking, "Am I really gonna go through with this?" "What is it gonna be like?" "Am I doing the right thing?" "What if I have complications, and end up regretting this decision?" I've driven by a couple of my favorite restaurants, and thought to myself, "Wow, I may never get to eat there again!" "No more Tuesday fish tacos at Rubio's!" In fact, on the first day that I was supposed to have started my liquid diet, I ended up going to my favorite buffet restaurant. And today, I felt so anxious about moving forward with the surgery that the moment I saw a muffin sitting in the fridge at work, I just lost control and immediately shoved the muffin down my mouth. Is there anyone else pre-op or post-op that went through this "Last Supper Syndrome"? How did/do you get over it? Just the thought of not being able to eat or even taste my favorite foods ever again just makes my mind and my stomach rebel. And I know this makes it all the more difficult to stay with the pre-op liquid diet. Any suggestions you could give would be much appreciated. Please help - I don't want my surgeon to have to cut me open because I didn't stick with my pre-op liquid diet. Thanks!