*****UPDATE****** feb 2nd, 2012

i now have a leak & a stent was placed in. feeling horrible!!! the below post is the least of my worries now!

im going crazy..

i was sleeved dec 20th. everything was ok until maybe a week after coming home from the hospital. i realized that i was extremely exhausted and always felt faint. it didnt really start hitting me hard until last week. everyone keeps telling me that it will get better but it feels like its getting worse! i keep trying to "stay positive" but how much more of this can i take? i want to feel normal again!!!!

i noticed that when i walk, im like dragging my feet. im so weak and faint. almost like my thighs might just give out.

i also have excessive gas which i think is making me really nauseous. the burps are just crazy. i cant eat or sip without burping.. then it wont stop until i take some gas x chewables. i live off those chewables.

as far as shakes, i cant tolerate them. ive tried so many different ones & i throw them up. they absolutely repulse me!

i do eat but i have to be "in the mood" to eat whatever is in front of me or i will just throw it up. my stomach is extremely weak! i cant even tolerate Soups. they turn my stomach too.

i called my surgeon & told him how im feeling & he told me im dehydrated. told me to get on gatorade for a week & see how i feel then. im going in thursday morning to see the nurse practioner.

the gas & the gatorade mixed is making me very nauseous.

i take 20mg of prilosec in the morning, 2- Multivitamins & 1- B12.

im so so so so so so tired of this! i truly regret surgery. i never thought id feel like this but i do.

That is so awesome!!!

That is so awesome!!!

thank you !

how is it going cutie

Awesome, job! I'm so glad to see you doing so well.

how is it going cutie

im doing good!!! how have u been?

Awesome, job! I'm so glad to see you doing so well.

thank you so much!!! im trying!!

Congrats on your 124 lb weight loss!!!!! Sounds like you'll be at your goal weight before you know it!

Keep up the GREAT WORK!

i weighed in again today and i am officially 149lbs!!! down a total of 124lbs! im in shock. no more 150s for me.

i am 14lbs away from my long term goal

Congratulations Jasleeve! You're doing so well!

i weighed in again today and i am officially 149lbs!!! down a total of 124lbs! im in shock. no more 150s for me.

i am 14lbs away from my long term goal

so...now the question....is the regret still there?

Congrats on your 124 lb weight loss!!!!! Sounds like you'll be at your goal weight before you know it!

i hope so! i cant wait

so...now the question....is the regret still there?

that regret will never subside because that experience will always be there. am i happy i had it? yes. am i happy im small? yes. am i grateful i lived? yes. would i do it again? absolutely not. do i regret doing it BECAUSE OF WHAT I EXPERIENCED? absolutely.

i may sound crazy or as if im contradicting myself but its the only way i can express myself.

Congratulations Jasleeve! You're doing so well!

thank you love!

Keep up the GREAT WORK!

thank you! ill tryy

that regret will never subside because that experience will always be there. am i happy i had it? yes. am i happy im small? yes. am i grateful i lived? yes. would i do it again? absolutely not. do i regret doing it BECAUSE OF WHAT I EXPERIENCED? absolutely.

i may sound crazy or as if im contradicting myself but its the only way i can express myself.

nah I think I get it. Is it maybe that you don't regret the surgery, but you regret the path it took after - which can be exclusive of each other. I'm very glad you lived and are healthy now