Well, Cyber-friends, I can't believe it. After having the surgery cancelled, 2 endoscopies, 2 liquid diets, and a huge extended emotional rollercoaster, tomorrow is the big day.

I am down about 4 inches and 12lbs since the journey officially began. People ask if I'm excited or nervous. I'm mostly numb and tell them that I'll believe it when they wheel me into the OR. I've been working out with a trainer about 3-4 days a week and have built up some amazing core strengh in preparation for this. I did have a moment where I wondered to myself, "hey, can't I do this without surgery? I've done it before!" That moment lasted about 30 seconds before I realized that I've tried unsucessfully about 100 times since that one awsome time when the planets were aligned so well. This is it. I want children, I'm 40+ years old, and this is my last chance.

Being a nurse (and an ICU nurse at that), I know WAY WAY WAY too much and am (when not numb), getting increasingly scared sh*tless. I'm having this done at my own hospital, and I don't want my collegues to see my ass! LOL! Fortunately, I doubt that they want to see it either! I also know what goes on in the OR, and lets just say I hope that the nurse practitioner keeps everyone in line. I just hope I get through this with some dignity.

Anyway, my trainer awaits (last pre-op session) at the gym. Thank you all for all of the invaluable information, resources, tools, and support that you've given on this site, and for helping me in this journey. I wish you all the best, always. Please include me and my worried husband in your thoughts and prayers through the next few days.

Cheers!

I say you gather all your co workes and moon them all and just get it over with. you'll light the moon make every one includiong your self giggle. and then whats there to be afraid of!!! Well any way congrats on tomorrow and good luck! keep us updated as soon as your up to it.

Keeping you in my thoughts!! please post when you can and share your experience... these stories help me to look at surgery with a clear mind and not wig out.

Good luck and get back to as soon as you can.

Jane x

Maybe you can write them a nice little msg. on your cheeks....lol. Best wishes to you.

i like the writing on the cheeks idea...good luck

Congrats on getting your surgery. Our thoughts will be with you.

Cindy, as a fellow ICU nurse who was also scared witless, I have to say I was pleasantly surprised by the process and everyone who was involved in my care. I really had no problems (apart from the horrid NGT which I wasn't expecting.. ugh!) and I found the nurses absolutely fantastic.

Sh*t!!! I forgot about the NGT!!! LOL! Uch is right! My husband refuses to write "stop looking at my ass" on my ass. Oh well. Thanks everybody. To the hospital in 1 hr.... :cursing:

Hope goes well with your surgery - know you are in my thoughts and prayers today.