It's almost Thursday...a day i've been dreaming about for years in the abstract sense, and focusing on acutely for about 7 months. i just had a wave of nerves hit and as i have in the past - my mind went to what food might sooth me. (i should also say i have gone through brief moments of mourning the chance to really gorge on a turkey pot pie or entire plate of pasta)

today was different! rather than be sad about the quantities of food i'll no longer eat, or run to the fridge to see what would ease my worry - i recognized 1) food will not take away these nerves. if i ate something now i wouldn't actually feel any less nervous, and i'd end up feeling guilty for cheating on my pre op diet and i've done so well that just isn't worth it, and 2) i'm not actually sad about not being able to eat another entire pot pie again. instead i just realized how AMAZING it will feel to one day be able to have a few bits of a savory taste that i love and feel satisfied! i've never experienced that before. i've always felt like i'd be missing out on the next amazing bite if i didn't eat a huge portion - or that i'd eat and almost immediately feel hungry again. now i get to look forward to enjoying food without feeling beholden to it - and I CAN'T WAIT!!!

Great words aviva

Couldn't have said this any better! Awesome

well said. I havent had a good night's sleep in two weeks. Im ready for Thursday @ 9am!!

I have been dreaming about surgery too! I go Thursday but no idea about the time yet...I will find out wednesday

I have the same nerves, its a mixture of excitement and anxiousness. I'm excited for all of us!!! Change is in the future, but a GOOD change! Woo hoo for us!

What an amazing journey you are about to embark on! Stay focused, do what you know you should and you will be successful. It will take some trial and error, but it is oh-so-worth-it! Let us know how you do and best of luck!

Great mental shift aviva. That's the real secret of the band. Change the way you think, and you will be successful. Good Luck!!

It's almost Thursday...a day i've been dreaming about for years in the abstract sense' date=' and focusing on acutely for about 7 months. i just had a wave of nerves hit and as i have in the past - my mind went to what food might sooth me. (i should also say i have gone through brief moments of mourning the chance to really gorge on a turkey pot pie or entire plate of pasta)

today was different! rather than be sad about the quantities of food i'll no longer eat, or run to the fridge to see what would ease my worry - i recognized 1) food will not take away these nerves. if i ate something now i wouldn't actually feel any less nervous, and i'd end up feeling guilty for cheating on my pre op diet and i've done so well that just isn't worth it, and 2) i'm not actually sad about not being able to eat another entire pot pie again. instead i just realized how AMAZING it will feel to one day be able to have a few bits of a savory taste that i love and feel satisfied! i've never experienced that before. i've always felt like i'd be missing out on the next amazing bite if i didn't eat a huge portion - or that i'd eat and almost immediately feel hungry again. now i get to look forward to enjoying food without feeling beholden to it - and I CAN'T WAIT!!![/quote']

You are ready for this girl! You are not alone. I too began to mourn bit then I realized that we won't b on a diet , it's abt better choices and being restricted on the amt of food we consume. I'm ready to go shopping for some new workout tennis shoes and outfit and hit it! Take it moment by moment... U got it' ! Praying for u!

The nerves are setting in....I've Ben awake since 330am. Ahhhh!!!

Good luck today! Remember we are all here waiting to hear how you are! You have as huge support system !!!

The nerves are setting in....I've Ben awake since 330am. Ahhhh!!!

Relax! Trust me, it will b over before you know it .its almost time for the ultimate life change girl!

The nerves are setting in....I've Ben awake since 330am. Ahhhh!!!

Me too. Trouble sleeping last night and bad headache today, which combined are common stress manifestations for me. Just want it to be thurs already.

The nerves are setting in....I've Ben awake since 330am. Ahhhh!!!

Let us know how u r feeling kbush!

The nerves are setting in....I've Ben awake since 330am. Ahhhh!!!

Let us know how u r feeling kbush!

Good for you. When i have those thoughts about not being able to gorge, i realize it is my dependency talking and not the healthy me who realizes that gorging one's self is a short term solution w long term consequences (all negative).