Moo

This is my story I guess.. Haha where to begin.. I suppose I have been overweight since i could remember my mom and my dad were too and my sister and brothers werent too bad but they are getting there now.. I have decided to get this surgery but havent told many people about it and of course not my mom I dont want my whole family knowing..Well my weight wasnt too bad but i had athsma real bad and i couldnt do too much and i liked food.. My brother had died and I just kept getting into trouble and let myself go even more because my mom gave me pretty much whatever i wanted no veggies etc cuz i dont really like them to be honest but i have had to get over it and i eat them a bit now but its still hard sometimes to make myself do it..I met my husband in a video game he got to know me online and met me in person and he isnt into overweight girls he has said this a few times he wants a trophy wife whatever.. But i tried my best i hurt myself pushing myself so hard.. i started out in the beginning at 340 and got down to 280 with him but i couldnt do any more after we were married i keep going back and forth between 260 and 280 and it is such a frustration for me! I dont feel good im always kinda down on myself and my husband gets frustrated with me because im not making progress... Mind you he is a very sweet guy and I love him with all my heart and i want the same things that he does.. So i brought up getting a band last week and hes bending over backwards to help me get it... Taking out a huge loan etc.. I can only pray this works for me.. I want to spend my whole life with this man and not leave him early.. I just hope to have alot of support!