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Are these noises made all the time or just after you eat? I am in school too but haven't had surgery yet. I am concerned about fitting into the desk each semester. Hopefully this will be the last semester I face that delimma.

I have thought too about how I will answer that question.Just like some people don't like to say how old they are I don't like to discuss how much I weigh or eat. I want the lapband but I don't want everyone to know I have one. Maybe it will change after I have my surgery and the weight comes off. I don't want people to think I did it the easy way because the lapband is not easy. I will still have to guard what enters my mouth and exercise. I dont think your reply comes off harsh at all. I have told people myself that I threw my scale out. It is not always accurate and can just frustrate me more. I think I am just gonna tell people my weight has always been a struggle and I don't like to talk about it.

Sweet potato souffle or pumpkin pie sounds good.

Maybe your pouch has just gotten irritated so bad from one thing it is just snowballing into this big mess. If it were me I would go back to liquids a few days (assumming you can keep that down). Give the pouch time to relax from all the vomiting. Are you feeling healthy otherwise? It's not just a virus? If your Doc isn't working with you maybe it would be a good idea to meet with another one. Good luck. I hope things can get straighten out quickly for you.

I go through periods of hair loss too and I am not yet banded. I would try adding protein powder to soups and maybe even go see and endocrinologist and have my hormones checked. Congrats on 40 pounds though. If your not happy talk with your doc and see what can be changed. You deserve success don't give up.

I am a busy mom too. I have a five year old and go to school. I like to play my wii for excercise. When He was a baby I put him in the stroller and walked laps around the block. To make it more intense I put weights on my ankles. Now that he is older I can either play Wii with him or wait til he takes a nap. Even going outside and playing soccer. I like to have variety. I also have some Richard Simmons, Yoga and Walk Away the Pounds videos. Even if I can't make it through the whole video I have still burned calories. Get creative. I have seen some yoga places offer mommy and me yoga (even doggie and me). Swimming. You can find something you enjoy and have time for. 15 minutes is even better than nothing so try starting with that.

Good luck. Here's to the new you!

Cheri, You are such an inspiration. I am glad you can walk around the school and get your excercise in. Shows dedication. Thanks apples and indio for the encouragment. My MIL is fixing roast with carrots and potato tonite which I can def have. Last night she made turkey gumbo. Hopefully she will be more aware of what she serves and if not I will just take the time to cook my own seperate meal. I am so sore I could barely get out of bed this morning. I played tennis on my wii yesterday and my upper body is reminding me. Think I need to focus on my legs today. I have a dancing game I can play that gives my legs and heart a good workout. Anyone using Wii fit or Wii personal trainer? I am hoping to get one soon.:thumbup:

There is alot of stuff I just don't buy but my MIL does. Maybe now that she knows I am on a diet she will stop buying it. I think she really does buy it thinking I will enjoy it. From her perspective it is a nice gesture. So I will eat it not to hurt her feelings. Lately though I have had to throw out alot of her gifts because they have been going bad. I hate for her to waste her money so I just told her I was on a diet. I should have a long time ago. I just don't want to discuss it with her. She has already told me your suppose to eat this stuff at christmas. I think I have had had enough christmas food to last me a few years. I am still burning off last christmas, right.Today she wanted to buy me stuff to make fudge and I had to turn her down. I know she means well. Some people just show their appreciation by cooking and feeding others. This is my body and I need to feed it properly and take responsibility for it.

You don't have to read this. Just some thoughts. Will my surgery day ever come? It feels like christmas when I was a kid. It is taking forever to get here. I have 3 weeks left without the band.Four days till my next appt. I know my Doc is gonna expect to see some weight loss. Honestly I do too. I gave up soda and have been limiting my carbs and have been working out but the weight just doesn't want to drop. This is the struggle I have been in for years and this is why I am getting the lapband in the first place. Diets don't work. Even the low carb diet the Doc wants me on. I get stuck in the vicous cycle of restriction and binging. I will do great on a diet for a week then I feel so restricted I give up and binge. I am ok with giving up soda. I guess I wasn't as into it as I thought I was but carbs is another story. Every day without carbs the desire for them grows. Then something will happen (like my dinner won't thaw in time or someone will eat all my eggs) and I use it as an excuse to eat carbs. Once I get started I can't stop. I finally told my MIL today that I am on a diet. She gave me no reaction which is good. I was expecting a lecture about my eatting habits. The thing is she isn't telling me anything I don't already know. Just as much as food haunts me so do the negative comments. "It is my fault I am fat.""If I was a better person I wouldn't be in this situation". Honestly, the fat people I know are kinder, gentler, more undertanding than the skinny people I know. So how can it be that fat people are bad. We're not! When will the guilt go away. When can I put my thoughts into things that are more valuable to me? My MIL brought home a chocolate cake with chocolate buttercream icing and raspberry filling, I am trying to study but all I can think about is that cake. Maybe I should throw it away. Tell her it went bad. JK I don't usually lie. I am still trying to think of a way to tell her I am having this surgery. I really would rather lie to her and not tell her at all but I don't want to be a liar. I don't think there is anyway to soften the blow from her. Probably a bandaid situation. It's gonna hurt so you gotta pull it off as fast as possible and get it over with. oh well thats just my ranting today.

When my son was 2 we waited an hour and a half to met santa byt the time it was finally his turn he was so upset. He took his picture and was just crying and screaming. All I could do was smile. I love the pic though it reminds me never to waitan hour and a half for santa. This year I was 3rd in line the first day santa arrived at the mall. Took about 20 min total. I have a soft spot for pancakes too. I thought about making some fore my son for breakfast but I knew I would end up gobbling one down. Good luck tonite on finding a healthy option.

It has been raining here all day and I just can't seem to get warm. My in laws keep the house cool but have a fireplace on their side of the house. That keeps them warm but we bundle up. I hate wearing jackets and coats inside the house. I did get in a good workout and that finally got me warmed up. Really I have no room to complain about temp. I have been trying to study but it is hard when everyone is home. My MIL asked if I was gonna make fudge this year. So I told her no and that I was on a diet. She really didn't give any response to that. Just an OK. Better response than I hoped for. I don't know how ya'll have learned to resist food. I see something yummy and it just haunts me till I give in. Hopefully with practice I will be as good as some of yall are. Cooking food and eating a healthy amount then putting it out of mind.:thumbup:

HI I am also scheduled for the 4th. I am so excited I can barely wait. Sorry you had a little scare there but it is awesome your doc worked it out for you. Congrats.

I don't have much support here either. So I think I am just gonna keep it private for awhile. Not everyone is understanding but there is a ton of support on this site.:rolleyes2:

Sorry you had a prob with another member. Glad I have been avoiding those post. Congrats on your body changes.

Sorry you had such a bad virus. Is gastroentritis common with a band? Or just coincidence? Hope your cold clears up soon too and that the 10 pounds is permanent.

I love to hear how well people are doing on the band. I can't wait for the day I reach under 200 lbs. Atleast now I can see the day coming. I have a five year old son and can't wait to be able to take him places and not be embarassed of my weight.

I read those post when I was first doing research on the band. I almost decided not to do it but then I met my surgeon and feel alot more confident in my decision to do it.I am careful to stay away from the negative blogs. My experience with the band will be my very own. No one else will have the same exact experience I will have so I take the info with a grain of salt. I have have read so much positive stuff about the band, it far out weighs the negative. Don't let things get you down.

Linda, It is great to hear how wonderful you are doing. I would probly have been a baby for a few days. Glad it is all fixed up for you and hope your recovery is smooth.

They have my lap work now so every thing is still going as planned.

Welcome spence. I too am looking to sign those food divorce papers. It has become consuming for me and I don't want to be thinking about food all the time.Good luck to you.

Well I had a post all typed out and it got lost after I clicked submit. I will try this again. Had a great time at dinner and the nutcracker last night. I didn't feel any anxiety with this couple. They were really talkative which helped. Half way through the nutcraker my son anounced that he could "see their underpant" lol. The two little boys behaved really well for it being a ballet. I started getting pedicures about a year ago. I love them. The leg massages are great. Although I haven't had one lately because I am saving for my surgery. Here in Florida It is always sandal weather so I get them year round. My surgeons office called yesterday and said they never received my bloodwork. I gotta call around today and figuer out what happened to it or if I need to redo it. I have an appt on wed with the surgeon and he wanted to go over it so I may have to post pone. Which is ok. I have 3 major test this week and really don't need distractions. It just seems like it is taking forever for my surgery date to come. I can hardly wait.

Meredith, Physics, Wow. I am amazed. Goodluck on all the end of semester finals and stuff. I have always wanted to visit new york. I hope you have a blast. Laura, your little one singing the beatles is going to be so adorable. My son was just in a program last night at church. My husband and I giggled the whole time. There were some really precious moments. Enjoy them and takes lots of pics. Tonite I am taking my son to see the nutcracker. It has kinda become a tradition for us since before he was even born. He loves to watch the tree "grow" and the mice and soldiers fight. We invited his friend and their parents to go with us so it will be an intresteing evening with two 5 year olds. My son always causes us to leave at intermission cause he just can't sit still through the whole thing. I am a little nervous about hanging out with his friends parents. I have social anxiety but I am trying to fight it because I need face to face friends. My son's friend is also going to stay the night. My in laws are excited more about this sleepover than they were the last. Partly because they are good friends with this family and know that they are strong christians. They get concernced when I have friends who aren't. I just think it is adorable that my little boy has his first best friend. Thank you all for supporting my decision to take mood stabilizers. It means alot to me that I can be honest about it and receive such positive feedback. I am tired of living feeling guilty because the 2 churchs I have attended in the past years have decided it is not something they want to endorse but would rather speak against. I have stopped going to either of those churches which is the main source of tension between me and my MIL. That is why all the other crazy stuff happens.

I just got back from anatomy class and I am pretty sure I just aced the first half of my final. I am so excited. This is my first semester since I dropped out 10 years ago. I never expected I would do so well. I honestly thought I would get B's and C's but so far all A's. Some of them barely A's. I am also setting the curve in my human growth and development class. Hopefully this is just getting th ball rolling for my new life. I will have a new career and a made over body, a new wardrobe, a whole new attitude. I really am looking forward to the future. I am also making new friends. Which is hard because I have some social anxiety. I am scared to death to talk to new people but these classes are pulling me outo of my comfort zone and forcing me to get to know people. Hopefully I will find a friend somewhere. A best friend that doesn't care about my faults, that I can talk to about personal stuff and that I can share clothes with. Have I hit my midlife crisis at age 28? I am not happy where I was at but I sure am climbing out of that ditch. Is my husband gonna like the new me? I really am not sure. It already scares him that I have made a few homosexual friends. I think he is a little upset with my new assertivness too. I usually am very passive but lately have been putting my foot down. expecially about getting the Lapband. I had hoped once I graduated school he could return but he seems happy in his job right now so I don't want to push him out of it. I am doing this for all of us. Going to school so we can be more finacially stable and losing the weight has so many benifits. One thing I am hoping for is and improved labido. Even more energy. Once I am earning the money I want to be able to spend the money with my family. Visiting places, flying, rollercoasters, waterparks all of which are so hard now. Even maintaining a house, yard work and stuff. It all seems possible now and I hope my husband will see that I am considering him when I considered the band. I don't want to leave this world early and leave him alone with my son.