Bettina

:dance: :whoo: Yeah ..........my cpap machine is coming 10am in the morning!!!!!!:whoo::dance:

It would seem that "VI" has had a change of heart. Damn, I was kinda having fun calling her Vi. She just called to tell me that my insurance called her and told her to go ahead and order the cpap. Yay! She has been nothing but polite the last few phone conversations. Maybe the doc chewed someone out for not getting this done quickly as he requested. Ha ha I am not gonna dwell on that now, its over and done with. So the office manager ,formerly known as Vi, is faxing the request to the cpap people. Next they call me and set up an appt to come to my house...and as soon as I know what date that is, i can call Dr. O and schedule my pre-op appt and surgery...yay! :clap2:

VI called me today...(4pm-when my insurance is closed) ...she informs me that she faxed the info to my insurance and that she hasn't heard from them (not even 24 hrs mind you) and she has "done all I can do"....oh yeah forgot to say what "it" was....its my paperwork so insurance can approve my sleep apnea machine. Have they heard of VI before and knows how she works??? Hmmm. Anyway..."done all you can do"...think again VI...I need the machine.:mad: :ogre <----can you guess which one is me and which one is VI????????

LOL Happy? Hmmm I have other words for her...can't post them here...lol. Nah, i could live with dumb an happy, she was one of those mean people who is prob mean where ever she goes (spreading her joy I guess..lol) I await her call today so that I may enjoy more of her twit (i mean wit) and wisdom!

Little bird, sounds like you were at my house!!!! I came home with lip gloss on and got "why you wearing that" Ugh...because I can!! I am sure the scale is messed up don't be discouraged (and yeah I'd stay off it for awhile). When is your surgery scheduled? You'll be okay! And keep em guessing at home (hair curling)......its fun!!!

OMG....the doc thinks i have sleep apnea...so his nurse calls me to tell me when and where to go for testing.....the doc writes stars all over my chart and writes "august surgery" on the papers. I know cause he gave me a copy. So she calls and gives me an appt 5 weeks later...hello this does not work for me...doc told me a day or two...yeah. So then she tells me getting the sleep study sooner will not get me into surgery sooner.....omg did she not hear her own words???? So I decide to look around for another place...i find that my insurance covers a place an hour north...no problem its near my school. I call her back and she tells me that she "doubts the doc will give me a referral for that place" I inform her that i am going where the insurance pays it!!!!!! So two days later she calls the place and I get in...in two weeks. So now I def have it and nurse-zilla calls me to give me the results...."wow-this is the highest number I have ever seen" okay "what does this mean?' i ask, she comes back with "I don't know" OMG shoot me now please!! She has no clue about sleep apnea....so why is this woman with RN behind her name calling me?? At the very least I expect the person calling me and giving me all this info to know WTF she is talking about! So now I have an appt where she wants me to go...I call insurance and got the tax id for them..yay its covered. I call after its said and done because the tech tells me she is rushing this because of all the stars on my chart. Yay. I call nurse-zilla and she gets pissed "it takes 2 weeks you know" Ummm yes i do and explain to her again why I need it in Aug and why the doc starred my chart. So i call the sleep apnea place directly, its on the doctors desk....my doctor!!! Yeah i call back, I get the machine. Nurse zilla calls back to tell me that the doc will come in and it takes 10 days for the transcriber to type it. Ugh okay I am at her mercy I thank her and hang up! Now mind you I starte this lap band journey back in April and have had all my pre-op testing done. I need August because today was my last day of school and I start again on 8/28 but with 6 CLASSES!! I cannot miss that many classes I will be too far behind..3 psych classes and 3 education classes!!!! The doc knew this...they all did, and all promised me august. Okay so the doc calls me last night and tells me to call the surgeon in the morning and schedule my surgery....he faxed everything over...I call today and nope, nothing. I tell the receptionist about nurse-zilla (she was not surprised) and i tell her no way can i call that office back, but i did because the surgeons fax was down..lucky for me. So i call the pulm doc and leave a message for nurse-zilla and she informs me that she didn't know i had insurance and had to call them first.......OMG shoot me....no shoot her. I have never ever had problems with any doc anywhere but now i see how this crap happens. I can't believe she is a nurse, and doesn't know anything about what she is doing...oh and she is NOT new! Oh and guess what......my sleep number is a 7, which is not so high, so why the hell did she scare me like that a month ago and I haven't slept since then (except for the Mojito night...lol) I am not for wishing ill will on people.....this woman is gonna get hers via bad karma!!!! Oh yeah and last night I slept like a rock!!! :notagree yay (except hubby said i was having a big conversation in my sleep ugh) Oh yeah since the sleep apnea I have been sleeping on the couch (well laying down anyway) for fear of keeping hubby up all night with my tossing and turning. (he is roofing right now, don't want him to fall off due to lack of sleep!)

:notagree I must be back on the road to sleep because I had 2 dreams last night..yay! And, OMG the pulm doc finally called me, he told me I can go ahead and schedule surgery...he faxed the info to the doc, and to the cpap people so they get right here to give me the cpap:painkiller: !!! So tomorrow I call the surgeon!! I asked what my sleep number is and its 7....which happens to be my lucky number, but aside from that I feel better because the lowest number they use is 4....so I am only 3 over that.....not so terrible in the scheme of things!!!! So now comes the nervous part.....I have a battery of questions to ask the doc..............scary stuff I have read on the boards. But i myself have had 3 c-sections :omg: so I have had abdominal surgery before so there is a chance that I will not have all the terrible things happen to me as it has others. (also had back surgery and was shovelling the driveway 2 days later) (I am a really good surgery candidate--no prob with local or general!!!-and I heal really really well !!:clap2: )

Dang, where did you get all that energy? If that is what banding does, I can't wait!! Don't forget that muscle weighs more than fat......you said you were laying wire...sounds muscle building! Yikes the bread incident sounds awful, hope you feel better! Best Wishes!!!!!

Yay !!! I am so happy you got in so quick!! And isn't it nice to get a peek at the doc and see that seems really nice! I bet your gonna do great! Let us know how it went!!!!

Yay finally i slept for about 2 1/2 hours !! :notagree I decided to get a jump start on my Spanish homework...good thing too it took me 4 hrs to do it!! I had a quiz thursday night...and one 2 weeks prior...both I fear I bombed. :cry So I decided to get the homework done and out of the way so I can start studying for the final (next thursday)..I need to do a good job so I have a fighting chance to pass this class. :nervous Oh yeah and I also am supposed to do a 2-page paper on some "spanish" experience...watch a movie, read a book, visit an art museam, or eat at a Spanish restaurant. I was going to just research it (we can do that too) but he is really into the restaurant thing so the only way to bag an A is to go to the restaurant and write about it..oh well. So, while I was looking at the restaurants online, I decided to finally try a Mojito, the Prof had given us the recipe last semester....I had the ingredients so i looked up the measurements online and made 2 -1 for me, 1 for hubby...ugh he didn't want one:( ...so I had to drink them both...lol. Wow goes down smooth but hits ya like a brick wall. No headache either...yay. Now all I need to do is get to the restaurant and write my report! (I can do this!):clap2:

Hi Little Bird, thanks for the info...no, I can't take anything because my family likes to make sure I get up early....It doesn't matter to them that i can't sleep and am in school and that i face surgery. The whole thing with me is stress and I know it. I just have to deal. Actually I have read that stress is a side effect of apnea. Hmmm and come to think of it, Monday is my birthday....that'll do it every time too...LOL.

I may call the insurance co and talk to the nurse there....i never thought of that. I realize I am not in any real danger not having the cpap. Hmmm psychiatrist.....nah more like funeral parlor. Its hard to explain.....I am not tired like regular tired. I know I am not sleeping but i am more like in a fog. Ugh I think I finally got some sleep this morning...I actually got to dream state...and the phone rings at 8:15...someone trying to fax me!!! I am not a fax! Ugh I called them and they thought it was strange...and then it happened again....finally stopped so i guess they found who was doing it, but now I am awake..boo hoo. Oh well I will study for my spanish final. That is what is most upsetting....being this tired I can't seem to retain what I study so well......I have to kick butt on the final and my paper so that I can just pass! Kissing the high GPA goodbye!!! Damn!! Aug 28th starts 6 classes...all hard...I better have my cpap by then or heads will roll!! UB will be paying me the $10,000 that i will be blowing for the semester!

:angry OMG still no sleep. 15 days I can't take it anymore! Hubby thinks I should do housework and then i will get tired and fall asleep....he totally doesn't understand sleep apnea! I even tried rum and coke last night....still no sleep. I feel like a zombie! I called the sleep people....finally my report is on the doc's desk, he reads it, and faxes it to my doc. I called my doc 2 days ago, talked to Nurse-Zilla again.....bitch! She said ya know it takes two weeks (mind you I hadn't even asked her anything yet..that was her greeting) ......and i said...yeah but there is a rush on this and I haven't slept since July 19th.......I told her I can't take it anymore and that it was affecting my health and my personal life. Did I say bitch? I meant Uber-Bitch. If anyone ever hears that I wrapped my car around a tree because of lack of sleep.....please tell the authorities it was the U.B's fault. Maybe U.B. could use some homemade brownies to cheer her up (who cares if I lace them with Chocolatey Ex-lax!!!!)...ugh i feel like I am gonna whig.....gotta log off! :nervous

Okay so I cleaned out the car yesterday morning at 3am (see yesterdays journal) I stayed up longer and read those damn memorials that you see on OH.com........omg what was I thinking.....had a semi-bummer day because of it. Got me really thinking about the whole banding thing. I do realize most of those people who passed had a huge bmi and many co-morbidities....but it still makes ya wonder. One girl was in her 20's ...i forget her exact cause of death......but she must have had a vision or something (and I do believe in them from personal experience) she wrote a goodbye letter ...omg...she said goodbye to everyone .....and bam...she never came out of recovery!! There were a few who died of clots, but then again they had pretty high bmi's. One woman was incredibly heavy...waiting for approval...heart attack in her sleep---this is what I don't want, hence the idea to get banded. The truth be told about me....I am 100 lbs overweight....but I have not been heavy for too long. The real weight has only been a problem for the last hmmm...10 months. And, my weight is not all over...its my butt and my stomach....oh yeah and my legs....I can feel my ribs from the side....I have a waistline. Maybe this is why I am suddenly freaked out by all this. I also tried on my "monkey suit" that I will be wearing home from the hosp. well, I tried on my sister's suit, Mom is making one for me so I am comfy after surgery and I don't have to worry about the bra thing because its a one piece with a tank style top....totally spandex and extremely comfy..I will wear a plain t-shirt over it ...ahhhh i can still feel how good it felt to try it on. I tried it on so mom will know what size to make me. (same size -yea!) So maybe that is my whole issue, do I feel like I don't deserve the band? Maybe I should try harder to do this myself?? I have completely filled my obligation for surgery.....I just need the date from the doc......I have nothing holding me back...no more excuses. I have had surgery before 3-c's and a back surgery....and a few "lady procedures" that required being knocked out. I can do this....this should be easy. I have dieted many times before..lol back when i only had 25 lbs to lose.....i know the taste of diet food, there fore I have suffered. I say this because i know people who "just can't handle the taste" and I think, yeah, you have never truly suffered as a dieter...lol. I am not changing my mind about surgery. And frankly I am surprised at myself for even having these feeling (I am a control freak...sadly) Hmmm here is a thought....maybe I am just overtired!!!! (notice the time again!!) I just want to sleep! I want to be normal!

On an upbeat note....I think i have mentioned that I have been sleeping on the couch because of my snoring and hubby is roofing and I don't want him to fall off the roof because my snoring has kept him from sleeping....well he told me yesterday that he wakes up every morning at 3am...he used to think it was me that woke him up.....but guess what I am not there....so yay for me I can go back to bed and feel semi-normal again! I will spend tonight as my last night on the couch because my 9 year old is on the other couch (too hot in her room) and I don't want to leave her alone out here. And if I go to bed now I risk waking him up trying to get into bed...we have a freakishly tall bed comes up to my belly...I am 5'6" (which i realize is not giant but I just want to say that its not like I am 4'11") Its so nice to have a journel to vent on! I have not told anyone in my everyday life any of this stuff, so its nice I can "share" online. Wow I am actually feeling sleepy now.....gonna hurry up and put my p.j.'s on! :clap2: wish me luck!

ha ha I was actually thinking sauna too. The "egg" seems okay, he did stay home today to take it easy which I am grateful for, he is in the livingroom laying in the recliner. I was worried with the bump and the excessive heat, roofing was gonna be tuff today.

When I get the cpap---I am gonna sleep for a week....i think i deserve it..woke up with a killer headache today..ugh Take care!

I still can't sleep! I took a half of a tylenol PM and was drousy:notagree ...and then I was reading the memorials in ObesityHelp.com....and it woke me right up...ugh this stinks!

I called the pulmonary doc today to see if they got my sleep apnea results so i can get that lovely mask and go on with my life..the first thing out of nurse-zilla's mouth was "it takes two weeks" and i then informed her (with clenching fists) that I know but I was there when it was faxed over to be read! "I'll call you back" was the answer. Someone called later:confused: ...didn't sound like nurse-zilla to tell me that it was being determined what my number was then she said "I don't know what that means" ugh she works with sleep apnea people......was it the cleaning lady they had calling me?? (not to knock the cleaning lady---but this was someone working in an office who should know what she is talking about) :eek: I thanked for for taking the time to call me and wished her a lovely day. It will be okay---I need to relax! Oh yeah I told whoever called me that while I wanted to know for surgery....i was more worried about the lack of sleep and wanted to get on with a normal life. (meant nothing to her) oh well.

So I get home from studying Spanish with a friend...only to find a band aid on my husbands head and a huge burn on his face....he fell 7 feet off a ladder...and then all the stuff from the scaffolding fell off and hit him in the head! :mad: He has an egg on his head...omg awful. I took a pic with my digital and showed him. I don't know what the cut on his forehead looks like he won't let me see it. I threatened to hit him in the foot so he'd have to see a doc. :angry Stubborn man!!! (but I still love him):hug:

I still need to clean out my van......he works an hour away and the truck doesn't have air condition-well, it did-it broke. I want him to take the van it will be 100 degrees with the feeling like 106 tomorrow!!! This has nothing to do with his boo-boo i had decided it on the way home today.

I was gonna get into pj's and decided since I am wide awake I might as well go out and do it now. My son is still awake too so maybe he'll help..lol I just have to get my school books and two beach chairs out..no biggie.

I am also hungry...very hungry. There are chicken chimichangas in the fridge and the gravitational pull is almost more than I can endure.:omg:

I better get out to the van...he will be up in 2 hours to go to work.

Don't get me wrong my DH is a nice guy however, he totally doesn't undertand what sleep apnea is or the fact that I didn't consiously choose to be fat!!

He thinks I am tired because I am fat...and if I got up and got moving, fat would go away and I would not be tired. Okay and while I agree to this theory, it's just not that easy. He def doesn't want me banded. Too bad... I don't want to be fat anymore. He totally doesn't believe that sleep apnea makes you stop breathing..it does..hence the fact I am not tired because your body wakes up each time you stop breathing. When I sat down to write this, I was very upset, but now I have decided to fight fire with fire. I am gonna wear the apnea mask (as soon as I get it), I am going to have the lap banding......and I am going to lose all the weight and sleep at night, and then...............................I am gonna run him ragged. OMG I will never sit down and I will drag him with me so I can say "what do you think now?" maybe then, he will believe me!!!

I still haven't slept since the fitting!!!! I turned off the tv at 4:00am this morning...then laid there and listened to the neighbors fussing:confused: ...and then hubby came out and turned on the tv again!!!:mad: (i was on the couch)

So he says "why are you up?" I remind him of the sleep apnea issue. And do you know what that darling man said to me???? "Well, you should get up and do dishes or clean something to expend all that energy you have." At that moment I realized that my husband is an alien:alien from some other galaxy!!! I said "hello...I want to relax so I can sleep." (expend all the extra energy.....my *bleep*!!!! So at 5:20am I decided to call the sleep apnea tech and ask if I can take Tylenol PM to help me sleep:notagree ....I don't really want to take a sleep aid for fear that I will be in a drug induced sleep and not be able to wake up. :cry But tylenol pm has a little sumpin sumpin to take the edge off...lol. She said yes!!! Yay....she said I was just nervous and that is why i couldn't sleep (which i knew). So tonight after I pick up my son from work (Shop-Rite) @9pm I will be taking Tylenol PM....so excited!!.........Whoo-Hoo!!!!:clap2:

MoOrLess beat me to it...lol. I would just tell her. It would be nice to have a "buddy" at work.

Pretending to do the dishes---hmmm I guess I was having a moment....lack of sleep makes people do crazy things!

Ugh ....yet another day of no sleep......they better hurry with the apnea head piece or they will be doing lapband surgery at the loony bin!

Ugh, that is awful. And I felt bad for complaining that I have been waiting since April. I did all the tests. The prob was the whole sleep apnea issue....and nurse-zilla in the pulmonary doc's office was a total butt head and dragging her feet! Tuesday I went for my sleep apnea headress fitting...now they read it, send the number to the doc.....then I have an appt with the doc and 2 weeks after that I am on the table!! Its been a crazy journey and I know how you feel. Soon we will be chatting about how we love our bands!!!!! Yay!

Hey, benign is good!! Yeah I always call it a "smash-a-gram". I always wonder myself......doesn't it do breast tissue damage to be smashing it like that?

Glad to hear the good news...sorry you had tears..it will get better! :welldoneclap:

Teresita, you are a trip!!!!

Faked dishes because I guess I thought he'd think I was ridiculous for still being up. Blows in my mouth....I almost peed laughing!!!

Can you feel it......I just gave you a big squeeze!!!!!!!!!

I don't blame you for being angry (and I hope you aren't upset about that) your parents really screwed you over. Probably not intentionally, but they did it just the same. Journaling is very important...keep it up. And yay for taking charge of your own life and doing something for you for a change!! I am sure you'll get to goal in no time!!! :welldoneclap: