Vanity

caaallll meee!!! texxxt mee!! something fool!

you're gonna do great! text me and let me know how it goes!

Its amazing the changes that happen after your life gets set back into motion.

I have officially enrolled in school to become a master esthetician (an esthetician with SUPER POWERS! lol)

Being that I didn't even finish high school (I tested out when I was 15) This is a big step for me.

FInances are going to be a big issue though, I didn't qualify for enough in loans and now I have to pay 7k out of pocket which is like 600/mo and I'm officially unemployed.

ahh well, I'll figure it out, but I start school in 2 weeks and am SOO EXCITED!!

i think it really is they are scared of losing us.

Yes, 2 blogs in one day-one complaining, one hopeful...

Call me vain if you will (it IS my name)

But I can't help but think and hope of the future.

A day when I'll REALLY be hot, and not fat-hot.

I got my teeth whitened and they're AMAZING.

Got a chemical peel- my skin is a work in progress.:smile2:

And best of all I'm 5 days post op and the lightest I have been in years!:thumbup:

There's a couple events coming up and I'd really like to WOW the people there!

I know that I'm awesome now, But I really can't wait for the new and improved Vanity to rear her lovely head and take over THE WORLD!!:bored:

I'll post new pics in a few weeks, I wanna make sure you can tell a difference.

Yeah, I know I'm terrible. I watch americas next top model for insperation, I spend hours studying pin-ups to help formulate goals and a game plan :crying:

(I don't think I've ever told anyone that!)

anyways-I think thats it for now!

Thanks for reading!

and just so we're clear- I now despise clear liquids :thumbup:

(I know I should post my op day story, but ill do that later)

::thumbup::

Tomorrow is my surgery and I am so so so excited, so glad to start on this journey- to get to the other side of the bridge and start the uphill climb.

I just wish that my dh was even slightly supportive. I feel very alone in this (minus all of you here on lbt!)

If I even mention anything about my surgery, he shuts down. Like somebody flipped his power switch.

Last night he blew up about the smallest thing (unrelated to surgery) and left the house for like 4 hours!

I slept in the living room as my silent protest.

as of right now its been like 16 hrs we haven't spoken over a stupid fuckin quarrell.

And here I am 23 1/2 hrs away from surgery and not speaking to my husband (he hasn't even tried to talk to me)

He refused to drive me to my appointment so my sister is. I'm going into mexico by myself and he hasn't the slightest concern (my friends bought me pepper spray lol)

I just don't know...I don't even know how I'm getting home- I'm just trusting in my ability to figure shit out.

I wonder if this will pass once the surgery is done and over....

Oh well, I am strong and will overcome these obstacles, just wish I had someone IRL that would be supportive.

I can't thank all of my friends here on LBT enough for all the encouragement and support, you guys have really helped me through this!