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and Tracy.. NO I did not cry...... he was such a big boy, he even asked me why others WERE crying and then when he started clinging to me because I think he THOUGHT he was supposed to cry.. I hugged him and told him how VERY PROUD I was of him and that he would have so much fun meeting all kinds of new friends and that it would be SOOO cool because he would LEARN SOMETHING NEW EVERY SINGLE DAY! and then he could come home and tell me what he learned. He liked this a lot.

Michelle.. that sounds really good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL I am of no help! I thought of you last night at the back to school night.. the PTA was dishing up icecream, and they had an open call for parents to join the "Friends of Brewer" group.. aka PTA! I "might" go to a meeting or two. :tongue_smilie: I was back down to 177 today.. WHEW! after seeing 186 after vacation I was watching over my shoulder for TracyK to be there to kick my ass!!!

thanks Laura and Judy! I did the curls today because that is my hair naturally and I TRIED to get it straight, but I don't have all the gunk she put in it or a flat iron.. so I guess I need to get those things and practice. Judy: what is that you always say??? "Patience, Trust, WWJD?" Also, I wanted to give out a big heartfelt THANK YOU to all my violets who sent personal emails to me this week... including JENN. All marriages have struggles and I think that 2nd marriages are much harder than 1st's due to the baggage factor, the blending factor, and the older and wiser and not putting up with crap factor.... Neither of us wants a divorce so we will work on it, but I am well beyond being manipulated and belittled.. I have done it on my own before and I know that I can do it again. I don't want to because I do love him and the boys even if they are in dire need of training. Get this he even accused me of cheating on him with a band person????? Did he read my Haydee the hottie comment?? LOL anyway.. again.. than you ALL for supporting me.. this whole group has grown from a group of April 07'rs (and others) to friends.. I'm in awe.

he is not shaving but I am not saying anything about it.. I figure he is going to look like hell while I continue to get better and better looking.. people will be saying. WHAT is SHE doing with HIM? Also.... we ran into Shrek and MsShrek last night at Price Chopper……. Shrek looked grouchy because they were pushing a grocery cart out of the store and loading it into the back of a very crappy truck. (She probably had made him spend some money on groceries) We had all 4 boys and everyone was dressed nicely because we had just done the back to school night at both Robby and Cody’s school….. I was still in my work outfit.. so we looked like a nice big family……… we had to walk right by their truck and Robby grabbed my hand and said. “Mom I love you!” As we followed the rest of the boys in to the store………….. from the side, right when we were even with their truck.. I heard MsShrek yell at Shrek.. WHERE ARE YOU GOING!? (I thought for sure he was going to approach Robby and I, but he didn’t) My heart was beating a little faster but I just continued to walk slowly into the store. Later when Charles and I discussed it, he said that Shrek left the cart and groceries and walked around the side of the truck… (my guess is he was p.o.’d that 1. We all looked so good 2. That Robby didn’t act like his other bio kids and run up to him, or even know who he was. 3. That he had to spend money and was mad about all of the above. The good thing is.. Robby didn’t recognize Shrek and paid him no mind… a true test.. Robby does not remember him. We were about 5-10 feet away from him and msShrek and they were both gawking the most fabulous huge family making an entrance into the store.

Good Morning! Robby started Kindergarten today!

I am home tonight and you know he turned to face me and then his eyes got big and then he turned back around to the computer! He has not said ONE word about it......... the 3 older boys all were shocked but said it was nice and looked good.. but NOTHING from Charles... oh and he still has not shaved.. blech....... looks like I'm going to be married to zz top look a like! blech!!!!!! So the house was not destroyed but not clean top to bottom like he said, he also said that it would be up to me to fix dinner because he would be too busy outside messing with his new worktruck........... and the grass has not been mowed in a week, and he told me that because of all the stress he would have to go see his ulcer doctor! But other than that he has acted like the last 3 days has never happened.... the one thing is that he is getting on the 3 older boys more evenly (he was way overboard with robby and everyone including his own sister saw it).. we will see how long it lasts. I told him that the next time he went storming through the house telling everyone to pack their shit, that would be the last time because they would indeed be leaving...... My going to my sisters shocked him and two nights in a row had him scared.. (or so he says

awe shucks........... :Banane37: Have a great day everyone....... oh and my neice said I could have the pair of jeans I wore of hers.. she said cause she didn't like them! LOL what a great NSV!!!!!

Sheri: THANKS! and HAPPY BANDVERSARY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 80 lbs is awesome!!!!! now how about some pics from you! :crying: Thanks everyone for the compliments.. I've never had my hair this straight or in this style.. it took a while for me to get used to it, but my sis and mom both told me that it made me look younger.. and my BOSS... well he is OVER THE MOON about how fabulous it is! (he's so funny, he thinks of me as his daughter)

Talked on the phone last night to DH for 2.5 hours. I will only know if he's serious after the dust settles. I told him I cut it as planned and he just gulped and said.. HOW SHORT IS IT? I told him everyone loves it, and that he will be the only one who hates it. Robby said.. MOM you look beautiful, but Dad will be VERY mad and you two will have very angry words to each other. I told him that it would be OK because I was the Boss of my hair. He said, Dad thinks hes the boss of your hair. I said NO bubba, I'm the Boss of my hair. I am an adult and my own boss. Robby then said.. "so, when I'm an adult I will be the boss of my own hair and if I want to grow it up to the sky or down to the ground I can?" I said "yes bubba, when you are an adult you will be the boss of your own hair." KIDS! LOL. later he said... well, mom I'll tell ya.. that's a nice hair cut! LOL

oh Pie Hole report..... 1/2 pot of coffee with creamer 1 medium thin mint blizzard thats it and its after 3p.m.

I just had my hair cut...... up to my neck.... Robby said.. OH mom dad is going to be SOOOO mad, you might want to hide when he comes home, but I think its beautiful! the stylist laughed and then said awwwwe you so sweet! We have all the boys this week too and Josh the 8 year old just got kicked out of the babysitter.... I had to go get him.. and drop him with the other two at the house....Charles is MIA because he is in the process of getting his new work phone.. so out of luck getting him. I was NOT happy! My mom also has her 2 hour breast specialist appointment today at KU Breast Cancer Institute... I was all set to go, but she really didn't want Robby worrying about her so I'm hanging at my sisters and we are waiting for word........ Staying at my sisters again tonight and will talk to DH on the phone later.. he is going to flip his lid about my hair, but the entire fight over my impending hair cut was ridiculous.... and now its done.

Good morning.. I'll be brief... Robby and I stayed at my sisters last night..... and NSV! HUGE NSV! I fit into a pair of her jeans!!!!!!!! NEVER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE have I been able to wear her clothes! I started whooping and hollering for her to grab the camera.. I started singing.. "I'm wearing my sisters JEANS! ohya ohya" she's like.. I CANT EVEN WEAR THOSE!!!!!!! (because of her tight gut syndrome) So then I tried on a pair of my 17 yr old neices jeans and they fit too!!!!!!!!!!!! I was on cloud nine! and right now I'm wearing a complete sister outfit to work (since I didn't have clothes with me) I'm toying with the idea of cutting my hair tonight... (this was the source of a major fight 2 weeks ago) SERIOUSLY he was fit throwing mad at the simple talk of me cutting my hair to my shoulders.. and he has since NOT SHAVED... even starting a new job.. he did not shave! HE LOOKS hideous...... don't get me started.. but I cancelled our January cruise yesterday. He found me at the daycare yesterday and blocked me in begging me to come home last night.. (reminded me of shrek) he layed on the guilt last night and this morning he already called me at work..... but instead of saying he was sorry or that he realized what an ass he has been he continues to try and make me feel guilty..... (he wants me submissive and a crying heap) So my resolve to NOT CRY is still in tact. He is a good man, but he has been acting like a class A ass since March, and I've reached my breaking point.

I am skipping a bunch but the last post was about the I-tit!!! ROFLMAO!!!!!!! Ok.. so I'm back, we had a great time, but all hell has broken loose since then..... work a-hole was on a steamrolling Tracy bashing (as usual) never in 6 years have I been able to go on vacation without crappy emails to deal with upon my return... this woman has no life and I pitty her.. (this is the same one who had my boss ready to retire a couple weeks ago) anyway........ that is work.. and last night DH threatened to leave...... so when I didn't cry or beg him to stay.. he announced that after the boys went back to their moms he would fix the situation..... I told him to lower his voice, quit treating me as a child and that I wasn't divorcing him. he said I didn't have a choice and that $2500.00 was all he needed to fix that little problem..... anyway... I might be a little quiet, because he knows I come here daily.. I may destroy my bookmark at home... also I don't know who else could start reading me here..... Basically things have been really bad.... and his sister and my parents even have noticed that he demeans me. His sister even told me that she could see that he was breaking me, and that I needed to toughen up... so I have made a personal resolve NOT to cry... this really sucks... I don't know what has changed so much since we got married but it has...... so anyway.. if this time next week comes and he really does leave.. then I will have to shut off cable, phone and the RR..... I will survive, but it will be back to basics....... and then there is the ass at work...... please say a prayer of strength for me. Oh and I was able to eat Chicken Fried steak, and Pasta....... luckily the scale was back down to 180 this morning.... (was up to 186)

Kat I thought you were here in sd??? guess I missed it. oh and right now I'm eating a scone and I'm on my second coffee.. not sugar free... (purchase required for wifi) but it is quick and well worth it.

skipping a bunch of posts to check in via a little restraunt in SD! I am totally stressed but better now cause the KOA wifi was tooo slow of a connection to do my payroll and my cell had no service.. so I found a little coffee shop in CUSTER sd with wifi and 5 buck coffee! but I'm getting it done and my boss thinks I'm hell on wheels.. he's pretty happy and I get to look out on a very cute bike infested main street while the employees and other bikers look at me oddly all set up with my lap top cell phone and notes! whooohoooo

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haydee.. you crack me up! I thought when you were talking about Juan YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT A BIG POOP! (ROFLMAO) j/k Laura: HAVE A GREAT TIME IN Jamaica!!!!!!!!!! KAT: Have a great time in Sturgis!!!!!!!! and at the Chip Everyone: Have a great time without us! Pie Hole Report: Coffee w/sf creamer 1 granola bar potato soup with lots of bacon, chives and cheese (a little local place) 1 glass of water

Good Morning! PieHole report so far: Coffee w/sf creamer 1 granola bar (80 cal)

Pam: WOW what a story!!!!!!! and also cool link to the BB earthquake! Haydee: Cute skirt. Pie Hole report from yesterday: 1st: thing Cookie B: Coffee w/sf creamer B: Granola Bar (180 cal) L: Tuna Lunch Kit S: 1/2 bag of popcorn w/REAL butter D: Pork Steak.... that I ate too fast and had a HORRIBLE vomit incident when I bent over to pluck weeds out of my flower beds S: Medium vanilla cone from DQ (not soured!) Oh and while I was fixing dinner I had the last of the bottle of white russian premix......... then later after the cone......... I had a dt. dr pepper and the last of my cocunut rum.. (today is trash day and I was cleaning out the fridge before vacation) yeah thats my story..... So i have no idea how many calories or carbs all that was........... AF finally showed up yesterday in full force and today the scale was 179.2 TODAY: Coffee w/powdered creamer granola bar ( 180 cal) I am going to TRY to drink some water.....

I'll go back and catch up... but KAT: My Dad stopped by to visit, and ended up taking Kinsey home with him, so I am now really at loose ends!! She was whiny and cranky. She was up a good part of the night, her Daddy got hurt at work, so they spent hours in immediate care. He is an electronics technician--and in charge of the black boxes in all the trucks. A guy come in saying his truck was overheating and his box was shutting off---which send signal to Denver that he just stopped driving suddenly! So Jason test drove it, and sure enough it was not working, so he come back and was going to disconnect it, and unplugged it on the inside, then had to open the hood to get the the last of the plugs for it. When he opened the hood, the radiator blew. He had full PPE on, and happened to have his head turned away talking to someone, but it burned his hand---just the bottom half, and about 3 inches of his wrist, that was bare. He had long sleeves, but when you stretch, they pull up.....so he is a mass of blisters. And get this-------his boss is threatening to fire him over it! It broke their unrecordable accident record---booohooo-------he got hurt at work! Rick thinks they guy is trying to make him mad enough he will quit....I dunno! HELL NO HE DOES NOT QUIT! That is Workmans COMP! His supervisor needs to make a report and send it in to their WORK COMP CARRIER ASAP! When he is at ANY DOC for this he needs to be ADAMANT that it is WORK COMP.. NOT HIS INSURANCE........ no scripts or docs or nothing!!!! and they can not fire him for getting hurt..... if he does then he needs to contact an attorney...... if he is off work, for more than a week.. the Work Comp Insurance will pay him 2/3rds of his pay. NOT his payroll dept. but the Work Comp Carrier.

We head out after work on Friday! We head for home the following Friday........ I will most likely check in since I'm taking my laptop and will have wireless internet... :thumbup:

Good Morning! Denise: Your daughter is in my prayers! What a way to start mommy hood! Poor baby boy.... Hang in there... Laura: YOU LOOKED SO CUTE In that top! I am soooo very sleepy today and I have a meeting at 10... I am so ready to be on vacation, but I'm also taking some work with me. Pam: the office looks GREAT! Jenn: Yes get yourself out there and open up the possibility

TracyK: When I am a good low carber... I AIM for 20 net carbs a day.... meaning that I subtract dietary fiber............ and I also don't count coffee or sf creamer....... (so mostly.. It would be around 30-50 carbs a day)

GREAT IDEA! I will take both WC oatmeal and some Tuna kits...... We are actually trailering the bikes so yes, we can take the kitchen sink if needed. This will be my first time TRAILERING to Sturgis... (my ex would turn over in his grave before trailering) LOL......... but we are leaving overnight Friday arriving Saturday... will be weird for me to "cheat" but Oh well....... I'll get over it...... especially if it RAINS, HAILS or Blows Crosswinds! LOL

Ok.. I ate my soup.......... and suprise.......... I didn't instantly explode into the size 24 person I was pre band. Thanks Kat...... yeah that is a thought I might actually be ABLE to eat some of the meats..... wow. yes we are cooking dinners at camp. (at least that is the plan)

Wow Laura that house sounds like a ROYAL headache!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm eating left over cheddar potato soup... ( I have to go easy on my band after a fill/unfill) My stomach was screaming at me..... its quieted down now.....