TracyinKS

GOOD MORNING! Jen: Your kitchen is going to look GREAT!!!! it looks so big and roomy. Jane: thanks on on the selling gold tips, and WTG on the knitting! Tracy: weight fluctuation do stink!!!! I'm retaining due to pms I'm sure. OK.. I've really got to get cracken today...... the girls at work are providing lunch for my belated birthday...... I think Nachos are on the menu. Have a great day!

You look awesome Laura!!!!! You are going to have that skinny ass basketball belly!!!! I bet you had no idea that you were such a natural looking skinny biotch. Tracy: I totally get you! I would of had my mom and sister in there, but both are way more squeamish than me and I had a c-section anyway

I like cream cheese, baking coco, splenda, a dash of vanilla, all mixed up and eaten with a spoon...... (I've frozen it too) Also, SF jello and cream cheese mixed up.. for a fruity twist. SF pudding works too, but it usually has a few to many carbs for my formerly INDUCTION level of atkins....... Oh and I would make SF pudding with cream and water (1/2 1/2) it cut down the carbs immensly.. but if it were available I'd use the calorie countdown milk. Oh and real pumpkin, cream cheese, splenda, spices....... yum yum

Dr., last week I had a ps consult for a TT and Breast lift. Was told that I would need an extended TT, but when I called around some other places had never heard of an extended TT! This scared me and I ended the call pretty quickly. What is the marker that denotes mini/regular/extended? Also after a cool little roll/tuck and lift I was shown where my breasts swere supposed to be! (although I tried it at home to show dh and it didn't work so well!) but it really made me want my breasts done as well.

Laura: first.. YOU ARE THE MOM!!!!!!! You are not obligated to do NUTHIN but bring that baby into the world!!!!!!! It is TOTALLY the mom's call. that it final word YOU are the boss.

where do you sell GOLD????????? Would it be a good time to unload old jewelry???????? Where would I do that????????

C-Section they will only let ONE support person in... Vaginal you should be fine.. it's up to you so long as they don't get in the way. I ran a video camera for my sister while her husband held her hand. More than two I don't know........ and I think she would be fine being the WAITING ROOM PERSON!!! you know make her in charge of answering the phone and dealing with others who will show up.

Pam!!!! That is horrible about the Twins! Also Poor Suzanne! and CONGRATS on getting everything turned in! I am proud to say that I am back on track today. I'm on my 2nd glass of water. Coffee w/creamer Carbmaster Yogurt 2 pc's sharp cheddar cheese L: the last of the pork steak pc sharp cheddar cheese D: will be baked chicken breasts I will most likely make a cream cheese/splenda concoction for my desert.. and NOT the ice cream I had over the weekend.

I'm waiting for a call back from this latest ps! I left a voicemail and also sent an email with some pics! EEEK! I was inspired by the pics on makemeheal. Shalee: I'm so excited for you!

AWEEEEEE I love him!!!!!! What a great pic! Suzie: Those pics of Robby are precious!!!! I'm going to have to steal them! I am back on track today! I am going to schedule a consult the the doc my friend Carol used. She has offered to go with me or at least meet me for lunch afterward. I will keep you all up to date. I have an extremely busy week, with Open Enrolment meetings on Thursday... So with that I'll sign off and check in when I can! LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!!

CONgRATS TRACY!!!!!!!!!!! 208.5!!!!! Yay!!!! Pamela!!!!!!!!!! enjoy your day! doing housework and watching football..... bye

Thanks Cora and Shalee.... I'm going to set up a consult with the doc that my friend used. (she had an RNY about 4 years ago) she had a tt and lift at the same time. The upside he is much more economical, but he is 2 hours away from me. I was sooo upset Friday, but I'm better now. I'll keep you all posted

OH and I talked to my friend Carol that had the RNY about 4 years ago and tt and boob lift about 18 months ago... she got BOTH done for 10K.. Her doc is in Manhattan KS (KState country) anyway I looked at his website and he lists all prices ON his site... This will be about 2 hours from home, but I'm going to schedule a consult with him. Charles is on board....... so maybe early in 2009. Also...... I have not been PERFECT.... I did have birthday cake and icecream last night and I fixed myself a drink, but I have NOT binged and the initial emotionals let down has passed! I'm feeling much better. THANK YOU!!!!!!

Here is Robby on the way home......... LOL!!!!

SUCCESS!!!! OK... short version. Denise: CUTE CUTE CUTE! Suzie: FUN FUN FUN (thanks for the card and PURPLE Bday hat!) Terry: NO binge as of yet and I even went to the cheesecake factory for lunch after the walk and DID NOT HAVE Cheesecake! Pam: WAY TO GO! KEEP IT UP Kat: How are you feeling.. and I've told your ballpark story a couple times! :tongue2: Judy: Thanks for the FUNNIEST CARD ever! (singing card that played happy birthday via armpits!) Here is Suzie our Doc and Me

I had a long long long post yesterday GONE... typed it 3 times and then just got p.o.'d and gave up here is the link to the photobucket album from yesterday tracyinks/Walk From Obesity - Page 1 - Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

LOL Pam!!!!! Yes we do!!!!! Every single one of you is so damn special. I swear.... our S.O.'s might think we are weird but I am so blessed. Kat: Yes, because over the phone I was quoted $8149 for ALL! (not the breast lift, I threw that in today since I was nekid anyway)

my policy does cover it, but you have to prove medical necessity, and when I talked to the Nurse reviewer at BCBS, she said I needed 1. pictures 2. pictures of rashes 3. pictures of skin break down 4. receipts from prescriptions for said rashes and breakdown 5. letters from docs (all involved who've seen said rashes and breakdown) and it would be skin removal only, no muscle tightening...... I DID TRY THE DAWN DISHSOAP recipe and it didn't even work on my belly so I just said screw it and had hoped to go this route.....

Michelle thanks so much for the call! Everyone was arriving home like gangbusters right when my phone rang... now the house is quiet once again, as Charles and Robby are off to pick up the other two, and Cody is attached to his DS and the cartoon channel, filling his tummy. I am eating pork steak.. you guys would not believe what I did... no I didn't go to DQ or Sonic but I went to the store and the amount of crap I bought was unreal! Putting it away I was like WTH????? HERE GOES: Count Chocula Cereal, FUDGE pop tarts, Chocolate Chip Waffles, a big ol tub of Chocolate/Marshmellow ice cream...... peanuts and candy corn to mix, not to mention a triple chocolate cake mix and butter cream icing (my birthday cake to me) even chocolate caramel creamer (NOT SF)........ GOOD GOD THIS IS SELF SABOTAGE! at least I'm AWARE before I actually dug in to any of it! Actually I did take a handful of the nut mixture but it didn't taste good enough.. you know the kind of craving that usually starts a binge to find something to satisfy... (or am I the only one who starts this way? LOL) So anway.. Suzie and Michelle reading your touching posts........ really means the world to me. and Michelle and Tracy your encouraging words over the phone well... its getting me choked up.. enough that my band is swelling! WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR!!!! Your giving me restriction so that I have restraint! LOL OK.. enough about me... blech.... gotta go before I get so tight that I start pb'ng this perfectly tender pork steak!

I'm back.. and THANK YOU TRACY FOR TALKING ME DOWN!!! I was really in tears in their parking lot.. I was sooooooo PISSED! what what quoted at $217.00 a month turned into $367 a month!!!! I'm telling you my heart was broken... they had me all scheduled in for 10/16 the girl was even booking the hospital when I told them to just stop. (Finance girl was on the phone with Finance Company) Nurse was scheduling.... I looked at the computer screen and saw the $367 and was WTH is THAT????? I was arguing with her and she was being kind of rude... but not budging on price so I just told both of them to STOP WE WERE DONE GOODBYE... This was the price though: Extended TT with muscle repair (incision hip to hip and beyond) $8990, $999.00 anesthesia, $999 facility fee. IF I were to add a breast reduction/lift it would of been 16K, more if I were to add the implants (on top) HE did a cool little tuck and push up trick to show me where my breasts were SUPPOSED TO BE! LOL So anyway......... I called Charles and was so upset on got on the interstate going the wrong direction.. he said to meet him for lunch. He was very understanding and said that if it meant THAT much to me then we'd find a way to get it done........ so I guess the journey is not over just stalled a bit. Truthfully I've been trying to figure out WHY it was such a big deal, and Tracy summed it up for me pretty good....... we spent all this time and energy to get here and to hit a brick wall is depressing...... because for ME.. I've never been or felt NORMAL SIZED, I'm as close now as I've ever been and I kind of feel like this is the universes way to say.. TRACY you'll never FIT into me, you'll never be normal. Your not good enough....... now I know this is crazy, but its the way I feel.

DEPRESSING .......... I had a good consult but when it came to the money I felt they were doing the bait and switch... $217.00 a month turned into $367 a month.. I got pretty irate and told them to stop.. I had the date set and the scheduler was calling the hospital setting it up.... I was totally destroyed pissed sad to come so far and to hit this wall. I guess thats what they do... bank on people being excited and saying go ahead lets do it. So anyway I met hubby for lunch and he said that if it was THAT important to me, we'd find a way............ so the journey is not over just stalled a bit. What WOULD of been on the table was and extended TT, breast reduction/lift and augmentation (on the top)........

Getting ready to head out the door....... the taco's and chips and dt pop yesterday showed on the scale this morning... POOP!!!!!!!! but oh well it is what it is 181 (176.4 yesterday) THE WATER RETENSION QUEEEN! Not exactly excited about standing nekid infront of a doc and have him wiggle all my giggly parts and take pics! LOL but ya know you gotta do what have to do.... I will let you know... they said to allow for 2 hours and my appointment is 10a.m. so AHHHHH! I'm burping coffee right now just writing this.... Hey the good thing is.. depending on the outcome today I will be do the walk tomorrow and I'm on my docs team.. so the ENTIRE staff will be there including the good doc himself. and I can ask him if I need an unfil or not (IF I GET TO SCHEDULE SURGERY) Terry: I am approved for financing..... and right now my down payment is $800 TODAY, provided I can have surgery in the next 30 days. If I have to put it out, they go through the whole process again of running my credit, and the lower the score the higher the deposit..... so my goal both financial and work wise is to be able to schedule it a between Open Enrolment meetings and payroll so that I have a good 12 days to recover off work..... other wise.. I roll into my boss taking a cruise and all the end of year benefits stuff that I do. and payroll...... so its the week of OCTOBER 14th or 2009 sometime. I have schedule my pap for next week so if needed they can run the extra bloodwork when they poke me for my thyroid...... so you can imagine how the opening at the doctors is paramount to me having a flat belly or not. OK gotta head! WISH ME LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

scale was back down to 176 today..... WISH ME LUCK TOMORROW!!!!! I'll be back to post the news good or bad

Keep getting fills until you reach your sweet spot...... but for each of us that special level is different. For me ... I kept getting fills until I could barely eat a cup of food...... that WORKED for ME... but not for others who refuse to go without certain foods. You have to really look into yourself and decide what foods you eat regularly what you are will to change and what you refuse to......... I am queen of self sabotage (as I have lost and gain many times pre band) so for me I knew that IF I could eat pizza I WOULD..... so I keep my restriction level to a point that I CAN NOT PHYSICALLY EAT IT....... because I am a speed eater and one bite would send me to the toilet spitting out the hunk of dough ball that was the crust. I have the small band that is marketed to hold 4cc's, I've had as much as 4.3cc's in it and that was tooooooo much....... I now figure to have a little over 3 cc's and I can eat more than I had been able to prior to my last little unfil, so I am working my Low Carb plan (my plan of choice) My mom is getting ready to be banded and I have stressed over and over to her that the band is NOT rocket science, you eat less, and feel full longer... and gods honest truth before my last unfill I would go HOURS forgeting to eat... I was not hungry and seriously I was pissed off the first time my stomach actually growled after my last unfil, but I am trying to wrap my head around working my plan........ (sorry if I confused you) 1 fill in my opinion is not enough to feel real restriction. The nurse at my docs office used the term...... (don't worry we will clamp this puppy down) and they did after 4 fills, and the 5th was too much. You've lost 12 pounds, your winning the race..... get another fill and then take it day by day...... focus on protien, Water, and vegtables and see where that gets you..... (even if you just say to yourself that you will go 1 week with no junk) I'm betting that ONE week of determination with get the scale going. Yes it sucks...... band is not magic, but you DO have to turn it on, and I'm here to tell you that this formerly 272 lb woman is LOVING her size 10 ass! (and I've only lost about 25lbs since January.

WAY TO GO TRACY!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had a taco for dinner too.. DH was pouty that I tried the new mexican place without him so I said what wth, but I had 1 taco and a few chips........ pork steak will be my meal(s) tomorrow. So I guess I need to go look up how many carbs and calories I had with 3 beef tacos and 1 yogurt today........ even though I feel like a pig i guess that it really wasn't much! and I have stayed away from all things sweet today...... PS is tomorrow at 10a.m. they said to allow 2 hours...... oh lord, I'm getting nervous.