Hey, I know the feeling...it's not just you. ABout one year ago I was so excited about doing this surgery, I was turned down by my insurance and did not have 17K to self pay. On top of that I had someone who kept discouraging me from continuing the process. I got a second job and paid all my bills off (new years resolution) and every penny I made with the second job I made a saving account which I named "The Lap Band Account" . One year later I have 20K ready to help invest in myself and sacve my life. This past thursday on 3/5/09 my 26th birthday I finally went to the seminar. I left there with such hope and desire to continue on in the process. Last year I met a guy in Novemer and he was schedule for surgery on 12/26/07, I am now his girlfriend & I went to his last weight in and he has lost 274 in 1 year and 2 months, mor ethan almost any lap band patient. He works out 7 days a week and said if you put your mind to it, it can happen. He was weighing 600lbs, the docs made him lose 100 lbs.... he is now at 226 !! He is my inspiration and I have been there through his whole process. He told me to forget what everyne esle thinks and says and keep in mind that they cannot save your life, only you can. Make the right choice...being nervous or scared is part of it....stay true to YOU!! :thumbup: My consulation is 3/20/09, I have my sleep study done, upper Gi done, phych eval..I am ready to go!