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Thanks everyone for your support! Ya'll are so great!

My surgery is 10/15. I can't wait to start losing either! Good luck on your post op diet.

Yes, I cried. I am not really sure why, but I did. Well, I knew partly that it was because as I started my pre-op diet today and my old habits would die hard. I knew that today I would start a new journey that would bring me to new points in my life that I have never been before. I was a huge ball of emotions. I was happy that I would reach my goal but sad that I would have to leave my comfort zone in order to do so. Food to me is like a security blanket to a toddler. I will have to find comfort in something else. Maybe that's one reason I cried. What? What would I find comfort in?? Would it be enough to find comfort in each goal that I reach?? I don't know. I am simply going out on a limb knowing that I will grab hold of another "security blanket." a habit that is healthy. Perhaps, it was knowing that I simply couldn't binge as I sometimes did in rough times. I feel like a baby, literally. I know that I will have to learn new habits and find comfort in something else. I have been over weight my whole life so it's almost as if I am going to be reborn again. I read alot of post where people said that, now I really get it. Who will I become?? Will I be the same me?? I like who I am just not what I look like. Wow, this is a lot to take in.

Well fellow bandster and bansters-to-be....I do know one thing; I am going to take this leap with my head held high! I will try not to worry so much about the "what if's" and such. I am greatful that my insurance has approved me! :w00t:

Maybe I just needed to blog. I do feel better now.

I also know that I am not alone in this world. Someone out there in bandland has felt what I am feeling or something similar.

I will leave my insecurities at this blog. From this day forward I will wake each morning happy and thankful that I have a new happier, healthier life ahead of me. :crying:

Shwooo.....that felt good. Goodbye old worries. Hello new life!!!

Karen, first of all girly, give your self a pat on the back and some credit. Your accoplishments are one step closer to your goal. I weigh 215 and my bmi is 42. Yes, I'm a short one. I carry a lot of my weight in my legs and butt. Therefore, I hate shopping for any kind of pants ecspecially jeans. My thighs are so big I have a super hard time finding pants. Most of the time when I buy pants they are tight and I just have to stretch them.

=0( SO.....my point here is instead of looking on the bad side count your blessings. I know that when you're the person on the outside looking in, it's easier said than done. Chin up girl! Keep working out. If you lose 18lbs more, you will be under 200. I know I would be stoked! You should be too! Keep up the good work and applaud your sucess big or small. If you don't recognize the good you've done you may back track. Be positive and keep moving on up! LOL!

Yikes! I am sorry to hear about your fill from hell. I am not banded yet but will be soon. I keep reading all of these nightmare stories on getting fills and it is freaking me out!! I haven't changed my mind though. I guess I am not freaked out too badly huh? LOL! I hope that your next fill goes smoothly. You've earned it.

Keep it up! I hate the feeling of hunger. There is nothing worse! Yes, it is a hassle to prepare your food ahead of time but a hassle well worth it. Now let's see if I stick to my preaching when I start my pre-op diet! LOL! I'm kidding!

Awesome! I used to run A LOT in High school. Since I have put on so much weight I stopped. I have issues with my knees. I hope they will subside with my surgery. I loved the "high" I got from running. It was a great stress reliever. Keep it up girl!