CrystalV

I am still in shock I had this major surgery! Why didn’t I realize what major surgery it was before?!??
I am working hard on moving forward.
Trying to get Protein in becoming a real struggle.

Yes, started anti depressants and started working with a therapist

I am still in shock I had this major surgery! Why didn’t I realize what major surgery it was before?!??
I am working hard on moving forward.
Trying to get Protein in becoming a real struggle.

I am sorry you are going through this too. I am working hard with a therapist and going to a support group.
I wished I would have done more research and tried harder on my own. Now, I don’t feel like this was for me and I have to wake up everyday feeling this way. (Well, when I actually sleep. I’m having a hard time sleeping)
Praying for you.

Thank you. I am trying hard to work through the regret.

Thank you. Honestly, I was over all healthy to begin with besides having a BMI of 41. I exercised regularly. I did have high bp. I’m so vain. I wanted this to be thin.
Plus, I used money from refinancing our home to pay for the surgery. So many times over I have wished my husband wasn’t on board and would have told me no.

I knew the diet diet would be difficult but it is way more challenging than I thought.

i am glad you are doing better.

I am sorry you are going through this too. I am working hard with a therapist and going to a support group.
I wished I would have done more research and tried harder on my own. Now, I don’t feel like this was for me and I have to wake up everyday feeling this way. (Well, when I actually sleep. I’m having a hard time sleeping)
Praying for you.

Thank you. Honestly, I was over all healthy to begin with besides having a BMI of 41. I exercised regularly. I did have high bp. I’m so vain. I wanted this to be thin.
Plus, I used money from refinancing our home to pay for the surgery. So many times over I have wished my husband wasn’t on board and would have told me no.

I knew the diet diet would be difficult but it is way more challenging than I thought.

i am glad you are doing better.

Yes, started anti depressants and started working with a therapist

This day last week I had the sleeve. I was totally content with my decision to have the surgery. Now, the second I woke up in the hospital I immediately regretted it. I have been an emotional roller coaster since then. I still could have backed out this day a week ago. I have replayed so many things over in my mind when I could have chosen to back out. My husband was/is fully supportive. But, so many times I wished he wouldn’t have been so I would have changed my mind. I have started taking anti depressants and talking with a therapist and trying a support group but it still isn’t working. I haven’t told anyone that I’ve done this(including family(my own mother).
Guilt, Shame, disappointed in my self. I literally hate myself for doing this.
Have any of you experienced this? I am trying hard to move past it.
thanks

This day last week I had the sleeve. I was totally content with my decision to have the surgery. Now, the second I woke up in the hospital I immediately regretted it. I have been an emotional roller coaster since then. I still could have backed out this day a week ago. I have replayed so many things over in my mind when I could have chosen to back out. My husband was/is fully supportive. But, so many times I wished he wouldn’t have been so I would have changed my mind. I have started taking anti depressants and talking with a therapist and trying a support group but it still isn’t working. I haven’t told anyone that I’ve done this(including family(my own mother).
Guilt, Shame, disappointed in my self. I literally hate myself for doing this.
Have any of you experienced this? I am trying hard to move past it.
thanks

Thanks. I am hoping soon this will go away.

This day last week I had the sleeve. I was totally content with my decision to have the surgery. Now, the second I woke up in the hospital I immediately regretted it. I have been an emotional roller coaster since then. I still could have backed out this day a week ago. I have replayed so many things over in my mind when I could have chosen to back out. My husband was/is fully supportive. But, so many times I wished he wouldn’t have been so I would have changed my mind. I have started taking anti depressants and talking with a therapist and trying a support group but it still isn’t working. I haven’t told anyone that I’ve done this(including family(my own mother).
Guilt, Shame, disappointed in my self. I literally hate myself for doing this.
Have any of you experienced this? I am trying hard to move past it.
thanks

I didn’t join the board until much later, I’m going to try and find the original thread tonight. I hope everyone is doing well. I remember thinking it was a bad time of year to get the surgery for some unknown reason, now I think it is a perfect time of year. It is so nice to be healthier this summer. I had surgery 8/13/18. I hope it’s ok if I chime in now.
I didn’t start taking pictures until recently, here are my April-June comparisons. I took the first picture when I joined the gym. I’m close to my goal weight, I just haven’t decided what that is.

Hi! I'm doing good. I hit 80 lbs lost yesterday!
Hw 255/sw 225/ cw 175/ gw between 150-160
Top picture is day before surgery in blue and about a month or two ago in yellow other two pictures are a side by side in the same shirt which is now a dress! Right side is January of last year left is a month or two ago

I am sooooo glad I told no one except my husband, 2 adult kids, my brother and a nurse I needed to change work days with, and she was sworn to confidentiality. I didn't even tell my own parents. I needed a small group that I knew would be supportive and not judgmental - people who have seen my struggle over the years and would stand beside me in this surgery.
What I am really getting tired of is people continually coming up to me and asking what I did to lose the weight. Why is MY weight loss their business????? I tell them that I have made some major lifestyle changes in diet and exercise, which is perfectly true. If they ask for specifics, I tell them, "No wheat, no sugar, no caffeine, no soda (diet or regular), no juice, no alcohol, no processed food, no artificial colors/sweetners/flavors, intermittant fasting, and a lot more exercise." Their eyes glaze over either with the sugar or the alcohol. NOT A SINGLE PERSON HAS ASKED ANY FURTHER - THEY WALK OFF. EVERYONE WANTS A MAGIC PILL. If there was an obese person who was sincerely looking for answers and was willing to start making serious lifestyle changes, I might consider offering WLS as a suggestion to investigate. But I have not seen that person yet. It makes me realize that we here are a very small group of brave, courageous individuals who truly are willing to put it all down, make the sacrifices, and do the hard work for lifelong changes and health. We are few, I believe, when considering the general population.

I'm being kind of obtuse here because you are absolutely correct for 99.9% of the people on here and as nothing more than a point of interest there is a group of people known as the "metabolically normal obese" who are resistant to all the obesity-related comorbidies in spite of their increased adiposity.
That said....to everyone reading this....don't count on being this person! Lol....
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25555214

Everyone is so upset about not being able to eat regular food. Well regular and fat food got you where you are. Try something new. I’m 5 weeks post op bypass no pain. Blood sugar meds gone. Struggle mentally sure but no insulin no metformin is worth it! Try to relax and see the good.

All I can tell you is at a month out those first few days were incredibly hard but every day gets better. I also anticipated having emotional issues and asked to go back onto anti depressants that I had used in the past to assist me in adapting to such the huge changes in my body. Hope you’re able to get the help you feel you need but I’m confident as time goes on you will feel better about things.

Hang in there. I think many people experience these thoughts because, contrary to some beliefs, this is hard and not an easy way out. I hope you find some relief soon. All I can say is, it does get better. Good luck!

I am also one week out and cry every day about what I did . I felt so prepared before the surgery . I feel like reading all the message boards also messed with my mind ... so many horror stories , and it’s hard not to wonder if they will happen to you. It’s very very hard in the beginning .

I had terrible gas pain in my chest and shoulder area. That part I was prepared for. It was the immediate regret of doing it that I wasn’t expecting. I hate that I have done this to myself.

Thank you. Honestly, I was over all healthy to begin with besides having a BMI of 41. I exercised regularly. I did have high bp. I’m so vain. I wanted this to be thin.
Plus, I used money from refinancing our home to pay for the surgery. So many times over I have wished my husband wasn’t on board and would have told me no.

I knew the diet diet would be difficult but it is way more challenging than I thought.

i am glad you are doing better.

Yes, started anti depressants and started working with a therapist

This day last week I had the sleeve. I was totally content with my decision to have the surgery. Now, the second I woke up in the hospital I immediately regretted it. I have been an emotional roller coaster since then. I still could have backed out this day a week ago. I have replayed so many things over in my mind when I could have chosen to back out. My husband was/is fully supportive. But, so many times I wished he wouldn’t have been so I would have changed my mind. I have started taking anti depressants and talking with a therapist and trying a support group but it still isn’t working. I haven’t told anyone that I’ve done this(including family(my own mother).
Guilt, Shame, disappointed in my self. I literally hate myself for doing this.
Have any of you experienced this? I am trying hard to move past it.
thanks