Krestel
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I'm having a really tough time at work and the boss has called me in for a meeting tomorrow, and Im literally concerned for my job. The question is how do I keep on my road towards weight loss. With all the stress, my dinners probably keep getting bigger and bigger and Im not talking my morning dogs walks like I used to. Yes, Im still down a lot of pounds, but it's these types of situations that got me into the big numbers to begin with. I really need to handle this one better. I dont want to scew up my body with this second chance that Ive been given.
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Cold no.2 since surgery. The funny part is now Ive lost my voice. I feel better in my sinuses now, but my voice is 90% gone. Losing your voice as a person who talks as a teacher for a living is so funny. You feel normal and when you speak, nothing comes out. I hope it goes over by Monday, but if it doesn't oh well. Ill be at school and cant talk to the students. Oh gee darn.
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Still dont feel skinny/thin..wonder when that is going to happen.
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I don't "feel" skinny/thin either but I know I am just by looking in a full length mirror! I remember one time I was in TJMAXX and passed a mirror and saw myself from the side. I had to stop and take another look because I couldn't believe that was me. Actually, I never felt "morbidly obese" either. I just knew I was by looking at the size of my clothing and the number on the scale!
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Same here.... I remember the first time i caught a glimpse of myself in a mirror in a mall.... i had to back up and i started crying ... I could not believe it was me. that was way back in 2012ish.... when i was 143#..... now at 120# even though the pants size says 0-2..I still don't see it. I know i have body dysmorphia
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I can now buy clothes in normal stores again. Admittedly the first time when I started trying on clothes, I really had to keep myself calm. Normally trying on clothes causes me to become SOOO depressed that it take weeks just to get over it. Now, I have to keep myself from not wanting to buy everything!
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How can a bowel movement make me lose almost 4 pounds? How much poo am I full of?
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Why do I keep hurting myself? Even if Im losing the weight, I can still feel my old habits clinging to me. I was really stressed this past week and ate at a fast food place and thought for some reason that I could eat my old meal. It turned out to be sooo not true and I felt sick after it. This is not the first time Ive done this kind of thing since surgery, but I seem not to be learning from the experience. So even if Ive been creating some really great new habits, my old ones are still hurting me. At 5 months out, I still have lots to learn about myself and my body. So even with all the weight loss, my journey isn't all that great since I know that if I keep doing this sh*t to myself, I am going to go back to my old weight after the honeymoon is over.
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You have to make the decision whether you want to go back there or not. You know what got you to your previous weight and know those habits can destroy what you have worked so hard for to get where you are now. Sounds like you need to have a serious conversation with yourself and change your negative thoughts! If that doesn't work does your team have a therapist you can talk to so you can rid yourself of the self sabotage? Sometimes we are our own worst enemy. Good luck. This journey sure isn't easy but is so worth it!
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First long walk after major depressing event. If I had been my old self, I would have been crying myself to sleep in a Ben and Jerry's by now. Instead, no tears and meal shakes have been my go to. Not doing perfect, but one day at a time. It's amazing how much easier it is to deal with events like this when you are not hating your own body as much. I wonder if this is how normal people feel.
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What is normal, anyway? I think we all have varying levels of normal. You just experienced a HUGE WIN. These are the changes that will impact major change on the scale in the long run. The head and heart truly need to be in the right place for everything to work the way it should. Congratulations. Sounds like you are on your way.
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I'm contemplating getting rid of my now ridiculously large clothes. For me it's big step to let go and just do it. My old clothes are like a safety net that I want to keep, but something tells me if I keep that safety net then I will go back up to my old weight.
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Im now wearing my smallest pants...now what?
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It depends on where you are in your weight loss journey. I went through a number of sizes on the way to my goal weight, and I had decided I was not going to get a whole new wardrobe until I was there. Before that, I went to thrift shops and looked for great deals online for a few items of clothing that could tide me over until I went down another size.
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One year surgiversary and feeling GREAT! Best thing I ever did in my life.
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Tips for when you are cold: house cleaning! I get cold no matter what time of the year when Ive been sitting in the soffa and today, I had a bit of an epiphany. If Im so cold, why dont I just get up and move around to fix it and clean the house at the same time. ...and it seems to work. I'll have to see if it's something I can do more long term, but just today it also seemed to alleviate my anxiety as well. You all prolly know this trick but my thick head didnt. Here's to a clean house and warmer feet!
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The only way I can tell that I'm losing weight is from the scale and my clothes "getting bigger".
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When logged in, click on your username up top then choose my surgery, from there choose your option on the left menu. Or click the link https://www.bariatricpal.com/patients/portal/?do=progress
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I baked a gross of (144) chocolate chip cookies for the coffee break (fika) at work. The cool part was that I managed to not eat a single one of them. Not only that but I finished with my baking by 11pm and got up at 5am for my doggie walk before work. This time it was MUCH easier to skip the cookies since I was thinking about dumping in the back of my mind. That and the damn gremlins (oops I mean grehlins) are on vacation at the moment.
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One-derville has been passed today. Sort of a mental milestone, but I still have more to do/lose. Although it's nice to get over that hurdle for once (and all?).
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New found appreciation for you all!
So Im back in the US to take care of my aging father and it seems like more than ever that being bigger is the norm everywhere here. I cant say that Ive been the best, healthiest me at the moment, but I think you all Americans are doing GREAT to even be working towards the goal of getting healthier in face of all this temptation (even if you are a "slow loser"). So give all yourselves a pat on the back!
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Officially no longer over weight! Goal #1 reached! I'm now under 80kgs (176 lbs) at 179cm (5'10") and 10 months post-op and am over the moon. My weight at 79.9 kgs (176 lbs) gives me a BMI of 24.9 which means that I have a normal weight! OMG.
I still want to lose about 16 lbs more though in order to get safely into the middle range to insure against that little regain that happens. The I have maintenence in front of me as well.
BUT I have hit my first goal. Yeah me!!!
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The dogs have finally figured out the new schedule for walking twice a day...and keep bugging me at the appropriate times to go out. For those of you who dont't have dogs, they have no snooze function. So they have really held up the bargain of being my personal trainers. Who's a good boi?!?
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I now TRULY understand the expression heartburn and it hurts like a MF! I dont know what really caused it yesterday but maybe it was dumping from something that I commonly eat. I really dont care cuz it hurt like F*&K and I think Im going to be on liquids today just to be on the safe side.
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Losing 1.2kg/2.6lbs in a week seems to be a bit disappointing when in reality it is quite reasonable at about 5kg/11lbs per month. I think that I cant quite remember the last 30kg/65lbs. Oh the mind games we play!
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Naval organges are soooo good. How did I miss that oranges now dont have seeds?!? My gawd what a difference.
Good luck 
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