RachelDevin

I'm a retired 62 year old grandmother of a 3 year old and really enjoying this stage of life. I am however, a true member of the sandwich generation. My 93 year old father and my 86 year old mother live with me and I take care of my grandson 5 days a week. Things are always hopping around here, to say the least. I must admit that I am absolutely scared to death of the surgery. My son-in-law had it and is doing fabulously. His father had the surgery and is another success story, so why am I so frightened? But then I'm a chicken when it comes to going to the dentist, too! My biggest issue is that two months ago I found out that I had diabetes. That REALLY scared me and I've lost 40 pounds since then. What that means is that I only have 55 more to lose, but the Doctor is still willing to do the surgery, since I was approved beforehand. My children say, "Do it." My own feelings are mixed, because I've never been able to keep it off before, so who says that I will now? On the other hand, I never had motivation like diabetes before. I've brought my blood glucose down from nearly 300 to 93-120, on my own, with no medication. If I have that kind of focus, couldn't I lose the other 55 that way, too? But can I keep it off? You hear the ambivalence in my "voice?" I just don't know what to do. My husband says that I should take this opportunity now, because they may not want to perform the lap band surgery on me later, because of my age. Can anyone offer some advice? I am so mixed up. Thanks for listening. Rachel