Polymorphing

Hello Twinsie! This time next year you'll be shopping for a bathing suit in a single digit waiting on the weather to warm up enough to flaunt it!

LOL, it's crazy how our stats are A MATCH! We even have the same goal weight! I hope to be as successful as you are, in 10 months! I'm one of those "pretty face" fatties, and it always angered me how people told me I didn't *need* to lose weight as if having the full package was somehow not permitted.

LOL, it's crazy how our stats are A MATCH! We even have the same goal weight! I hope to be as successful as you are, in 10 months! I'm one of those "pretty face" fatties, and it always angered me how people told me I didn't *need* to lose weight as if having the full package was somehow not permitted.

I also wonder if naturally skinny people leave the house feeling as fly as I do right now. I feel like every eye is on me and my smokin' hot bod. Hahaha!

I think the sugar/carb cycle is part of it but it’s not all of it. At least not for me. I’m four and a half years out and I allow carbs and sugar in my diet now, but they don’t have the same appeal. I can eat a cookie but stop at one (or...can you believe it, a half!) not because I’m full (at this point I could eat a whole box of cheese its if I wanted) but just because it doesn’t have the hold. Do I like carbs and sugar? Damn straight I do. But not in the same way.
Also, it’s really good you are making those changes now and they are a way of life for you because you will be able to eat more than five bites again, for sure. But the habits you are creating now, the new relationship with food/flavors/etc will make it so you don’t do something you regret. And honestly, an occasional indulgence shouldn’t be regretted! That’s the cool “free” feeling! Sometimes, I eat three or four of those cookies! But it’s a choice and not out of control and I don’t regret it the next day! I just don’t make a habit of it.

Yes!! I've had this same thought myself. Do normal people just walk into a kitchen and leave without things on the shelves in the pantry and fridge calling to them? Was this always their life? There are times I have actual hunger and I'm in front of the fridge and nothing in particular is screaming my name. It makes it so much easier to make a healthy choice when I don't have that burning desire to eat the salty-fatty-starchy thing anymore.

The thing that is gone is the addiction to sugar and whats left is the joy of cooking and tasting food without the sugar addict monkey on your back. whether it was sweets or carbs(me) it was just sugar. The human brain runs on sugar (glucose) and it rewards you if you give it sugar. thats normal but for some of us it goes way past normal to a level that controls our actions and reactions. If i had a dollar for every time my doctor asked me to cut carbs. Well i would have had a lot of dollars (lol). Not that i didnt try over and over and over but the reaction was the same. Crazy hunger and still feeling like i needed to eat even when i had just eaten a meal.
The surgery followed by the restricted diet for 6 weeks let me break thru that and i to feel incredible and so different and while my complete lack of any hunger only lasted 5-6 weeks it was the happiest i had been in years.
Now at 7 months i look forward to the meals i prepare and i try for bold strong flavors and i enjoy that first bite very much but by the 3rd i am already feeling that the end is near and the 4th or 5 bite ends it. Sometimes i still feel bad that i just wasted the rest but that is the old me always trying to "clean my plate".
I hope i never can eat more than those 5 bites cause it makes me feel real good to walk away and know i did not just do something i will regret the next day.

I believe this phenomenon to be hormone related or something, maybe it is true that once the ghrelin producing part is cut off we have a more normal response to food. Anyway you slice it, I'll take it.

Yup, I can totally relate to that “free” feeling. In four and a half years out and while I do feel hungry at times—both Head and real hunger—I still have that “free” fake it or leave it feeling.

I don't think I had the sensation of full until after surgery. Some people believe that surgery takes hunger away completely. There is real hunger and head hunger as you progress.
Almost 4 years out - My hunger is manageable.

Somewhere along the timeline of our lives we discovered that food elicits a certain amount of pleasurable feeling and, in some theories, the pleasurable feeling is made more intense as it counters the pain of daily life. At least this has been true for me and I've discovered this through therapy. Food to some of us can be like alcohol to an alcoholic. Consider yourself lucky to begin to break free from this cycle but please remain aware that the propensity to turn to food as a solace may still be there but just in a dormant state. The outcome of your surgery is an absolute blessing and it bodes well for long term success. Create a new voice inside your head to remind you that food is only for living not for medicine. :-D

Yep. I can so relate. You can't explain or convince pre-surg normies of this cataclismic change. They have to "get it" for themselves. LOL.
Now, I'm still a foodie and enjoy interacting with food and making up new recipes. But if I didn't do that, I would not feel a loss! You know?

I'm 4 weeks post op and I feel the same way. I'll have head hunger cravings. But then when I eat, it's just meh. Totally take it or leave it attitude. I'm also loving it! I never thought I could eat so few calories and not feel deprived.

I've been noticing a lot of changes about myself, of course, it's easy to not desire food when you're feeling ill or unwell, but I've been feeling WONDERFUL these past couple of days and no issues in my stomach at all, yet I have this... take it or leave it attitude when it comes to food. It's so so surreal and it makes me wonder if there are people who are just, born that way, without having to be sleeved. The people I always envied, the people who do not think of every food they see as a "missed opportunity". It feels extremely natural to NOT eat, when pre-op it felt unnatural to not be munching on something. I still love food and my cookbooks and I'll always be a foodie but now I feel pretty meh about actually eating the food. As I'm healing, my desire for eating food is decreasing by the day.
Anyone else feel that way? Is it temporary? I hope not. I love food but I feel... free.

I've been noticing a lot of changes about myself, of course, it's easy to not desire food when you're feeling ill or unwell, but I've been feeling WONDERFUL these past couple of days and no issues in my stomach at all, yet I have this... take it or leave it attitude when it comes to food. It's so so surreal and it makes me wonder if there are people who are just, born that way, without having to be sleeved. The people I always envied, the people who do not think of every food they see as a "missed opportunity". It feels extremely natural to NOT eat, when pre-op it felt unnatural to not be munching on something. I still love food and my cookbooks and I'll always be a foodie but now I feel pretty meh about actually eating the food. As I'm healing, my desire for eating food is decreasing by the day.
Anyone else feel that way? Is it temporary? I hope not. I love food but I feel... free.

I CAN FINALLY HAVE pureed FOODS! My NUT emphasized that all foods must be put through a blender or a food processor for two weeks. So when I google search for "pureed" foods I get "mashed with a fork till soft", oh well.
I just made a pot of autumn carrot and sweet potato Soup following this recipe and replacing the butter with coconut oil: https://www.onceuponachef.com/recipes/autumn-carrot-and-sweet-potato-soup.html
I also squeezed a lemon after it was done and added some smoked spanish paprika.
AND IT IS TO DIE FOR. I had 4 tablespoons though and got completely full. Did NOT experience this with yogurt or other liquids. Wow.

I've been noticing a lot of changes about myself, of course, it's easy to not desire food when you're feeling ill or unwell, but I've been feeling WONDERFUL these past couple of days and no issues in my stomach at all, yet I have this... take it or leave it attitude when it comes to food. It's so so surreal and it makes me wonder if there are people who are just, born that way, without having to be sleeved. The people I always envied, the people who do not think of every food they see as a "missed opportunity". It feels extremely natural to NOT eat, when pre-op it felt unnatural to not be munching on something. I still love food and my cookbooks and I'll always be a foodie but now I feel pretty meh about actually eating the food. As I'm healing, my desire for eating food is decreasing by the day.
Anyone else feel that way? Is it temporary? I hope not. I love food but I feel... free.

I've been noticing a lot of changes about myself, of course, it's easy to not desire food when you're feeling ill or unwell, but I've been feeling WONDERFUL these past couple of days and no issues in my stomach at all, yet I have this... take it or leave it attitude when it comes to food. It's so so surreal and it makes me wonder if there are people who are just, born that way, without having to be sleeved. The people I always envied, the people who do not think of every food they see as a "missed opportunity". It feels extremely natural to NOT eat, when pre-op it felt unnatural to not be munching on something. I still love food and my cookbooks and I'll always be a foodie but now I feel pretty meh about actually eating the food. As I'm healing, my desire for eating food is decreasing by the day.
Anyone else feel that way? Is it temporary? I hope not. I love food but I feel... free.

I've been noticing a lot of changes about myself, of course, it's easy to not desire food when you're feeling ill or unwell, but I've been feeling WONDERFUL these past couple of days and no issues in my stomach at all, yet I have this... take it or leave it attitude when it comes to food. It's so so surreal and it makes me wonder if there are people who are just, born that way, without having to be sleeved. The people I always envied, the people who do not think of every food they see as a "missed opportunity". It feels extremely natural to NOT eat, when pre-op it felt unnatural to not be munching on something. I still love food and my cookbooks and I'll always be a foodie but now I feel pretty meh about actually eating the food. As I'm healing, my desire for eating food is decreasing by the day.
Anyone else feel that way? Is it temporary? I hope not. I love food but I feel... free.

I've been noticing a lot of changes about myself, of course, it's easy to not desire food when you're feeling ill or unwell, but I've been feeling WONDERFUL these past couple of days and no issues in my stomach at all, yet I have this... take it or leave it attitude when it comes to food. It's so so surreal and it makes me wonder if there are people who are just, born that way, without having to be sleeved. The people I always envied, the people who do not think of every food they see as a "missed opportunity". It feels extremely natural to NOT eat, when pre-op it felt unnatural to not be munching on something. I still love food and my cookbooks and I'll always be a foodie but now I feel pretty meh about actually eating the food. As I'm healing, my desire for eating food is decreasing by the day.
Anyone else feel that way? Is it temporary? I hope not. I love food but I feel... free.

Oh this is some BS. You mean to tell me that I could have avoided all that damn small talk and extra tip money by dropping this baby on the table?
SMH

I CAN FINALLY HAVE pureed FOODS! My NUT emphasized that all foods must be put through a blender or a food processor for two weeks. So when I google search for "pureed" foods I get "mashed with a fork till soft", oh well.
I just made a pot of autumn carrot and sweet potato Soup following this recipe and replacing the butter with coconut oil: https://www.onceuponachef.com/recipes/autumn-carrot-and-sweet-potato-soup.html
I also squeezed a lemon after it was done and added some smoked spanish paprika.
AND IT IS TO DIE FOR. I had 4 tablespoons though and got completely full. Did NOT experience this with yogurt or other liquids. Wow.

I cooked for the first time ever last night, I actually found it to be therapeutic save for the few moments when everything smelled great and looked delicious!

I used to call that “Fat Kid Denial” when you start to make excuses as to why the scale is going up. Or when you put on a shirt and it doesn’t fit and you say “Oh this must have shrunk” or you try one on at the store and it is too small and you say “oh this 4XL must run small in this brand”

Keep in mind that I'm only 6 days post op.... I wish I cleaned my house a little better. Now that I'm at home during the day and not in a rush (as I was before working full time), I am noticing all the little stuff that need tidying up but I don't have any energy to clean.