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Literally the exact things I want omg!! Ugh. It makes me mad at myself because I know I'm just bored and it's making me this way. But I have so many healthy recipes, and I just want to hurry up and be able to make them and EAT them!! That's why I'm craving all the unhealthy stuff cause I'm like if I can't even have the healthy stuff then F it [emoji30]lol I'm not gonna actually eat any of the stuff. I wouldn't be able to physically anyway! lol I'm really hoping after these two weeks it gets easier. I know I'll have to WORK for it after I'm past this phase but I WANT to!! I'm just mad that I can't move or eat ): you know??

I want to eat a pizza and Taco Bell and bread with cheese dip and chips and guacamole and 3 orders of in n out fries and I AM ONLY 4 DAYS OUT OF SURGERY AND I AM SO TIRED OF PROTEIN DRINKS AND CHICKEN BROTH I AM SO HUNGRY AND UPSET. ): I made it worse and tried to make myself feel better by weigHING MYSELF?!? I literally promised myself I wasn't even gonna weigh myself until like 3 weeks after surgery. Idiot. I've lost 1 pound and got super pissed. Now I'm hungry and pissed >

Someone please tell me when the extreme pain goes away ))): I just want to be able to move normally again and it's only been 3 days since I've had surgery [emoji21] I'm very impatient and just want to freakin eat solid foods cause being on only liquids for the past week and now for the next 2 weeks... I have constant headaches ): I want to be able to take a normal drink of water without feeling naseous. I want to get up and off the couch without feeling like my incisions split open every time ): I'm sure I sound like a baby and also ridiculous because I only had surgery 3 days ago but I need to know when it's gonna be better ): I don't regret anything, I'm still motivated as ever but I want to be able to do and eat healthy stuff NOW!!! )): I don't think it's helped that I haven't been able to take my anxiety and depression meds in a few days cause I can't swallow pills yet. So I'm really just in a funk. please someone give me peace of mind.

They sent me home today, my surgery went perfect but I am in so much pain it's unreal. I haven't been able to get rid of any gas, and coughing feels like death. I can barely sip water without wanting to throw up ): here's my incisions. The big one is so deep and it pulls my stomach down, ugh it hurts soo bad ): how are you??

That's exactly when my surgery is!!! Ahhh I'll be praying for you!! Let's check in on each other!! [emoji173]️[emoji173]️[emoji173]️

Getting to the hospital at 11 tomorrow. I'm so so nervous. It hasn't hit me until RIGHT NOW. I've felt horrible on this liquid diet, I've had such anxiety in general, and just getting over being sick, still have a cough and stuffed up nose. I'm terrified of coughing tomorrow and the pain I'll feel in my stomach when I do ): I'm not having second thoughts or anything, I think I'm more anxious like I just wanna freaking start this new life already. But I'm so worried to find out if it's gonna turn out bad or good that I'm starting to panic. I have a pretty severe paranoia disorder so my mind goes to the worst. I don't have a lot of friends who support me. I really need you guys right now. This is probably the most scared I've been in my life ):

I think those are the ones they gave me! There's a box of vanilla packets and a box of chocolate packets and they are so disgusting I want to throw them up. So I don't know what to do!!

Surgery on Monday. I'm on my liquid diet, which is KILLING ME. I'm trying so so hard to stick to it, and it's so hard to be on social media or even watch tv and see ANY food cause it makes me so hungry ): the packets they gave me taste horrible and make me wanna barf. So I've been drinking water and juice and chicken broth. That's it ): also my nerves are setting in. As I'm getting closer and it's getting more real, it's making my stomach turn. My pre op class is tomorrow so I'll get all the paperwork and everything done so I won't have to do anything the morning of surgery, but it's just all getting very very real. I just need a boost of confidence to make it through this final stretch. Any advice??

Are they gonna cancel my surgery????? I don't have a fever anymore! I haven't had one for like 4 days, I'm just still kinda congested and stuffy that's it. Is that enough for them to cancel my surgery?? I'm so scared )):

I already struggle with major anxiety, so now that it's currently hit me that I have a week until this life changing surgery has really shaken me up. I KNOW 100% this is what I'm supposed to be doing. I know I'm going to be happy and healthy and confident and my life is going to improve so much.. I think I'm almost scared of that. Because I'm not used to change and I'm scared of change. And I'm also not used to GOOD change lol. I have no idea what this new life holds for me. This new, healthy, not hating myself, depressed, and secluded life. Is it weird that even though I know it's going to change my life for the BETTER I'm still scared for the change because it's going to be so 360? I've just had a really crappy life so that's why it sounds so dumb for me to say that haha. I don't know. I'm just a lot of emotions right now. People who have went through this- how did you feel the week before your surgery. I need some strength and comfort right now. Virtual hugssssss[emoji31]

I have pcos and I've read a lot of people saying oh getting vsg cured me of pcos or helped my symptoms etc. I want to know if anyone has any experiences and what happened, I'm hoping for some positive things to come from this surgery (in regards to my pcos)

I really didnt want to tell anyone about my surgery in the beginning cause I didn't want people to think I was just getting wls to be skinny. But then I realized I wanted the support and love from my friends so I started telling them. Some of them are amazing. But some of them are almost getting mad at me.. even when I try to explain how it's for my HEALTH! Physical and mental.. and they try and say you could do so many other things, this is just an easy way out, etc. but they don't understand how my body works and what I have to deal with. It's really discouraging me and hurting me. It's not convincing me out of it in any way, but how do you deal with people who are against you when this should be an exciting time for you.

We can be there for each other!!!

So I'm 22, 5'6, HW: 270, CW: 246, GW: 160 I have anxiety, depression, ptsd, paranoia disorder, agoraphobia, insomnia and social anxiety: My brother who is only a year younger has autism and epilepsy and that's pretty much where all my mental issues have stemmed from. Being in a hospital is going to be very hard since I basically grew up in one since he had seizures so constantly. About my weight loss struggle, I have always always been chunky my whole life. In the beginning it was just because my parents didn't really care what we ate, and we definitely ate for stress because of how hard it was with my brother. But once I hit late jr high/high school I just got so overweight and that's where my really bad depression set in. I tried crazy diets, tried weight watchers, had a personal trainer at the gym, tried the military diet, ate no dairy no gluten for a long time, absolutely nothing made me lose weight. Nothing. So I kind of gave up and just thought this is how I'd always be. Beginning of high school I was diagnosed with PCOS, my doctor was incredibly rude and basically said "you're gonna gain a bunch of weight, not be able to lose any of it, and you probably won't be able to have kids." So that's what I had playing in my head throughout high school. And the beginning was true, no matter how hard I tried I couldn't lose weight. Just recently we had to put my brother in a group home because of how violent he has gotten. I was so depressed that for the first 2 weeks I didn't eat. I lost 23 pounds. I had never lost that much in my life. But not eating was not an option or a way out for me. So I met with my doctors and they all said this is pretty much my only option. My body doesn't react to trying to lose weight unless I literally starve myself. And I also have been thinking about the chance or not being able to have kids one day. That scares me so much. I couldn't risk that. I had to do something now. Also I am so close to getting diabetes and ovarian cancer I just want to be healthy. I know 90% of my depression comes from being overweight. Which leads to anxiety because I can't leave my room because I don't want anyone to see me because I'm fat. It's just a cycle. I want to feel happy for the first time in my life. I want to feel confident. I am so prepared for this life change. People have been questioning me and testing me and basically saying are you sure you're ready bla bla but you don't understand how committed I am. I've never had surgery. I'm terrified. We're paying out of pocket and we're not a rich family. I'm not going to go through this surgery, I'm not going to spend all this money and then just decide I'm gonna eat whatever I want and reverse everything afterwards. I'm ready for a completely new life to start. What is your best POSITIVE advice to stay on track and to motivate yourself and remind yourself that this is for the best and to be excited about this and not be scared? My surgery is in 17 days.

Very new here! My surgery is in 18 days. The anxiety is kicking in. I'm trying not to compare myself to others/ but I'm really trying to get advice from as many people as I can about their experiences. How they calmed themselves down, what they brought to the hospital, advice on what to help with the pain the first few days, how long until you can really move around without being in pain, a general idea of how much weight you lost in the first 2 months, I just feel like getting more information and stories and advice will calm me so much more. I have severe anxiety and depression. I know this is going to change my life and really turn things around for me. I also have pcos and I'm really praying that this surgery will hopefully cure some of the symptoms. So please, anyone, I'm reaching out to all of you. I need you! Age-22 Height- 5'6 HW:270 CW:246 GW:160