Thankyou EVERYONE for your advice and kind words. I think I may be going through some kind of phaze. I have a very happy home life with my boyfriend, we have been together for 5 years. The only problem between us is that he is a skinny guy, he always has been. He can eat anything he wants and not gain one pound!! So it's really hard to explain to him about what I am going through. He thinks that I can just stop eating before I am full. He always says "why can't you just eat a cup of food and be done with it??". He just doesn't understand. If I could do that, I wouldn't have needed the surgery. He also bought me this treadmill after my surgery because I begged him for it, and now it sits in my living room collecting dust and he is always making comments about it. I think that he feels for me in some way, but just doesn't understand the whole picture.
I work 30-40 hours per week and spend the rest of my day shopping, or cleaning the house. Maybe I am just bored?!
I am going to get my third fill on monday so I will see how it goes from there.
Thankyou again for all the advice, I am definetly going to try and work with my band before I go back under the knife.