So what's up? Why defeated? Starting over can be difficult but try to treat this like it's a lifetime change and you don't need to get there in a few months. It doesn't need to be so hard if you realize how much time you have to accomplish just short goals.
That's a good way to look at it tmf. I suppose I feel like I should be making as much progress as I was before but I was trying a lot harder before and following the band rules much more strictly! I can't seem to care enough to try that hard again right now.
