Rockin' Robyn

Great! Thanks for the tip Band Groupie!

Down 5 Pounds...wish the tickers would post on the blog. Here's the food diary for the day: B: 2 mini crustless quiche (180 cal / 16 protein), 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 cal /10 protein). S: 1 tbsp peanut butter (100 cal / 4 protein) L: 1 cup taco meat (200 cal / 20 protein), lettuce, salsa, 2 tbsp light sour cream (80 cal / 4 protein), 2 tbsp shredded cheddar (110 cal / 5 protein), 1 avocado (300 cal / 4 protein) D: assorted cheeses (300 cal / 15 protein), 2 slices summer sausage (120 cal/ 7 protein), 1/2 cup pistachios (200 cal/ 6 protein), 1 glass wine (150 cal/0 protein). Grand total for today is 1820 calories, and 91 gm protein. Went a little over on calories today...but it was my day off and splurged a little while watching a movie. Gotta keep it up.:thumbup: Surgery Date: 8/5/05 Starting Weight: 384 pounds Lowest Weight 1/2/07: 226 pounds Starting over Date: 1/4/09 at 320 pounds Created by MyFitnessPal.com - Free Calorie Counter

Down 5 Pounds...wish the tickers would post on the blog. Here's the food diary for the day: B: 2 mini crustless quiche (180 cal / 16 protein), 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 cal /10 protein). S: 1 tbsp peanut butter (100 cal / 4 protein) L: 1 cup taco meat (200 cal / 20 protein), lettuce, salsa, 2 tbsp light sour cream (80 cal / 4 protein), 2 tbsp shredded cheddar (110 cal / 5 protein), 1 avocado (300 cal / 4 protein) D: assorted cheeses (300 cal / 15 protein), 2 slices summer sausage (120 cal/ 7 protein), 1/2 cup pistachios (200 cal/ 6 protein), 1 glass wine (150 cal/0 protein). Grand total for today is 1820 calories, and 91 gm protein. Went a little over on calories today...but it was my day off and splurged a little while watching a movie. Gotta keep it up. Surgery Date: 8/5/05 Starting Weight: 384 pounds Lowest Weight 1/2/07: 226 pounds Starting over Date: 1/4/09 at 320 pounds Created by MyFitnessPal.com - Free Calorie Counter

Down 4 pounds..yes I am one of those people that has to weigh every day. Keeps me motivated even if I know it's water weight. I pretty much slept all day after working a night shift. So not a whole lot activity, but being true to my promise..here is my accountability log of food for today: B: 2 mini crustless quiche (180 cal / 16 protein) L: 1 South Beach Protein Bar (140 cal / 10 protein) S: Shrimp Gumbo with veggies (300 cal / 19 protein), Pistachios (160 cal / 6 gm protein) D: Lean Cuisine (200 cal / 14 gm protein), Broccoli w/2 tbsp ranch, (120 cal / 3 gm protein) So thats a total for today of 1100 calories and 68 gms protein... Did well on low carbs. Come on Robyn..keep it up:tt2:

Down 4 pounds..yes I am one of those people that has to weigh every day. Keeps me motivated even if I know it's water weight. I pretty much slept all day after working a night shift. So not a whole lot activity, but being true to my promise..here is my accountability log of food for today: B: 2 mini crustless quiche (180 cal / 16 protein) L: 1 South Beach Protein Bar (140 cal / 10 protein) S: Shrimp Gumbo with veggies (300 cal / 19 protein), Pistachios (160 cal / 6 gm protein) D: Lean Cuisine (200 cal / 14 gm protein), Broccoli w/2 tbsp ranch, (120 cal / 3 gm protein) So thats a total for today of 1100 calories and 68 gms protein... Did well on low carbs. Come on Robyn..keep it up:tt2:

Awe Thanks so much. I forgot how much the positive reinforcement I used to get from this site encouraged me

Today's intake: B: 3 mini crustless quiche (270 Cals/ 24 Protein) S: 1 cup cottage cheese (80 Cals/ 8 Protein) L: side salad with 2 tbsp ranch (148 Cals/ 0 Protein), 1/4 c asparagus (10 Cal / 1 Protein), 4 sea scallops (100 cals / 20 Protein) S: String Cheese (80 Cal /8 Protein) D:Turkey Meatloaf (270 Cals/ 30 Protein) So that's a grand total for today of 958 Calories and 91 gms protein! Felt like all I have been doing is eating all day...thought I had more calories than that. Felt kind of nauseated with dinner. I still consider myself loose compared to what I was before, but every now and then I still get the uncomfortable stuck feeling. It takes all I have to not go make the pain go away and resist the urge to purge. My husband and I went to a movie today, and I consider it a small victory that we just simply watched the movie and didn't get popcorn (which was all you could eat for free today) or a soda pop. I can't say I wasn't craving it the entire time...but I made it through. One day down, many more to go. You can do this Robyn!

Today's intake: B: 3 mini crustless quiche (270 Cals/ 24 Protein) S: 1 cup cottage cheese (80 Cals/ 8 Protein) L: side salad with 2 tbsp ranch (148 Cals/ 0 Protein), 1/4 c asparagus (10 Cal / 1 Protein), 4 sea scallops (100 cals / 20 Protein) S: String Cheese (80 Cal /8 Protein) D:Turkey Meatloaf (270 Cals/ 30 Protein) So that's a grand total for today of 958 Calories and 91 gms protein! Felt like all I have been doing is eating all day...thought I had more calories than that. Felt kind of nauseated with dinner. I still consider myself loose compared to what I was before, but every now and then I still get the uncomfortable stuck feeling. It takes all I have to not go make the pain go away and resist the urge to purge. My husband and I went to a movie today, and I consider it a small victory that we just simply watched the movie and didn't get popcorn (which was all you could eat for free today) or a soda pop. I can't say I wasn't craving it the entire time...but I made it through. One day down, many more to go. You can do this Robyn!

So I have gained almost 100 pounds back over the past 2.5 years. Had my band loosened after losing almost 170 pounds, as I began to get tired of vomiting all the time. Originally planned on just giving things a "rest", but then quickly enjoyed feeling normal being able to eat again. So here we are over 2 years later, miserable..kicking myself..ready to go at it again. Gonna try this blog thing to keep sort of an on-line diary for myself. Committing to keep a daily diary of food intake as well as other things. Also committing to get back to basics and do the things I did when I was successful before, which included lapband talk. You can do this again Robyn!

So I have gained almost 100 pounds back over the past 2.5 years. Had my band loosened after losing almost 170 pounds, as I began to get tired of vomiting all the time. Originally planned on just giving things a "rest", but then quickly enjoyed feeling normal being able to eat again. So here we are over 2 years later, miserable..kicking myself..ready to go at it again. Gonna try this blog thing to keep sort of an on-line diary for myself. Committing to keep a daily diary of food intake as well as other things. Also committing to get back to basics and do the things I did when I was successful before, which included lapband talk. You can do this again Robyn!

Okay..I just updated my ticker...so now I'm officially ready to start seeing a change. Here's my test:

P.S. Is Billie attending Dr H's groups each month, or did she just stop by for the one surprise visit??

WOW it's been a long time since I have been on this site. Surprised I haven't been deactivated. Yes it's me.... Hi Angela and Diane! Miss you guys. Diane I can't believe you had the guts to have PS...you look amazing by the way! Okay...where I have I been I know you are all asking:lol: Wallowing in self pitty and gaining weight like mad. I just this week had to ask myself...why am I gaining weight. I have used all the excuses I can come up with but it comes down to the fact that I am doing NONE of the things I am supposed to be doing. I followed the rules to a T at the beginning and lost almost 150 pounds in a year. But then life hit...I discovered ice cream and cheetos (no thanks to a support group meeting):biggrin: and now I'm here. I have gained back 50 pounds from my all time low. So I had to ask myself why and now I'm back to recommit. These are the things I need to start doing to get back on track: 1) 60 gms of protein each day. 2) Stop eating bread (I had an unfill before I went to Hawaii and am now able to eat it again...BIG MISTAKE). But I was literally bullemic (knowingly) prior to having the unfill. If you ask me..binging knowing that I will puke afterwards is a definition of bullemia. 3) Become active on LBT again 4) Go back to Dr Sabopathy to help him "explore my demons that have resurrected". 5) Go back to support groups. 6) Exercise...even if it is only 30 minutes 3 times per week. 7) Quit trying to self-destruct. This truly is a mind thing for me more than physical. I'm NEVER hungry, but I eat to try to feel good, then I just end up feeling miserable. Anyway...I have just spilled my guts. But I feel that this is what I have to do in order to get back on track. If I don't get off this train..I'm going to be right back where I started a year from now at nearly 400 pounds. I gain weight at warp speed when I am not trying to lose it (sometimes as much as 8-10 pounds a week)! Good to talk to you all again. Wheets, can't wait to hear from you. Robyn

Hi Guys- Wanted to give a quick update. I had my surgery on Tuesday. Thought it would be the usual in and out, but they didn't perform it laproscopically. I have a 2-3 inch incision and it hurt WAY more than any of the other surgeries. I guess he wanted to make sure he got in there and fixed it for good this time. After the surgery, they could NOT get my pain under control for anything....SO, I ended up spending the night on a morphine pump. Funny, in one of my previous posts I think I was joking about a pain pump, then I ended up being put on one. He said the tubing had definitely broken through all the layers of my abdomen except for my skin of course. That's why it was hurting again so much. He stitched me up instead of using the usual staples....so that's kind of nice, as I haven't had to be bothered by the pulling sensation that those staples cause until they come out. Anyway, I'm at home, tired...but doing fine.

Diane- P.S. ---I only wish I was in the hospital!!!!! ON A MORPHINE DRIP!!!:faint:

:thinkStill here...Unfortunately......IN PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He took one look at me and said "Let's get you scheduled." That was answered prayer, because of the hoops I had to jump through last time. My surgery is scheduled for Friday, June 22nd. He was all booked up until then. So I have gone through almost 2 bottles of Hydrocodone in a week. I am taking sleeping pills to sleep through the night, and I have make-shift pressure dressing that I put over the incision that is herniated. If I push on it really hard, it seems to feel better. The biggest struggle is the depression....I'm telling you what, this is the worst pain I've been through yet. I can't seem to get through the day without meds....I can't take them when I work, and I've got over a week to go. Oh well...but to answer your question, yes I am still here:cry

Angela- I have those same questions I plan on asking tomorrow. Sad thing was, after the last surgery a year ago, I was so glad to have everything "fixed", I never even took the time to ask HOW it was fixed. I know I remember having A LOT more pain with the 4th surgery than with any of the others, and he made the comment something to the effect that he stitched the beJesus out of that weakened/herniated area. After researching on line, I don't know if he put any mesh over it or anything. Now I'm kicking myself for not at least asking what procedure was done at the time...... All I know is that I am in so much pain I can hardly stand it. I just hope it doesn't turn into one of those appointments tomorrow where I have to go for several tests to confirm blah blah blah before I even get a surgery date scheduled. Gotta do something soon or I'm going to lose it:help: I'm praying that this will somehow be covered by insurance, although I'm not holding my breath.

While researching the net, I found this very interesting........ "Fortunately, incisional hernia rates after laparoscopic surgery is rare (1%), and if it does occur, it is in a tiny incision that is easily repaired as an outpatient with a less than 1% recurrence rate." Can you believe that???? Not only am I part of the 1% that gets the "rare" thing, but then I am am also part of the only 1% (of the 1%) that has it reoccur. Amazing.....................:faint:

Hi Guys- I've fallen off the wagon, face first. I haven't been on here because I've been too depressed to talk. Long story short.....I got too tight about 3 months ago and started vomiting 6+ times a day for really no reason, then went to have 1 cc taken out. Since that time (about 2 months ago) I have gained back 33 pounds:eek: I have no desire whatsoever to do this anymore. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired:think Now last night, I felt my lap band tubing "POP" through my abdominal muscle wall once again. I was supposed to have had that fixed during my last surgery, but evidently my muscle wall is still too weak. Now I'm in excruciating pain....rolling over in bed at night wakes me up screaming in pain...... Now I'm facing another surgery I'm sure in order to get the dang thing fixed again....I'm feeling frumpy, fat, depressed, and broken. I called Dr. H's office and have an appointment Monday....:help:

BTW Angela, I was just noticing that I think you are the ONLY person I have ever known to lose 100+ pounds, and your boobs actually look BIGGER than they did before. Most people complain about losing their chest, but yours actually looks bigger than before. I'm impressed:clap2: (and jealous!):kiss

ANGELA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :angry AFTER ALL WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH IN THIS PAST YEAR TOGETHER AND YOU LET US MISS YOUR BANDIVERSARY?!?!?!?! Girl, I'm gonna come after you and hit you over the head with a wet noodle:hungry: (Did someone say pasta:p ) Just kidding! Happy Bandiversary Girl! You have done amazing. And look at you, WOW! You look amazing;) Congratulations! Love ya:kiss2: Yes and I'm sending you one of those touchy feely hugs that you hate so much:girl_hug:

Not a problem Angela- I made myself go, even though I didn't really want to. I'm glad I did because there are sooooo many new people there talking about the basics, which by now I have obviously somehow forgotten. I found it very motivating, whereas before...the same stuff over and over was getting stagnant. However, I can definitely make the correlation between when I stopped going and when I pretty much stopped losing weight. One girl even came up to me afterwards and told me how inspirational I was. That was very sweet and was very uplifting. Sometimes I forget that I am not at all a failure at this. Even if I don't lose another pound, I have come so much further than I ever thought I would. Although, there is something about that last 30 pounds that just hangs there over my head. I just feel until I get this last 30 pounds off, I'm not where I should be. Of interest to you guys though....they are combining the lapband and roux en y meetings for April because they ARE bringing a plastic surgeon to talk. It will be on April 5th I think she said. I definitely want to try and make that one. It was good to see Billie again, as I am not a frequent flyer in the office anymore since I have been at my sweet spot for a while now and am no longer requiring fills/unfills.

Hi Guys- I'm thinking of going to support group tonight for a jump start. If anyone else is interested in going, maybe we could meet up an hour or so before hand? Let me know asap Robyn

I too am from the KC area....Hi and welcome! I am a nurse, as well as having undergone 2 c-sections, gall bladder surgery and lapband. Let me tell you from experience....the Lap-band was the LEAST painful of all three procedures. Yes it is uncomfortable....but totally worth it! You will get through it just fine. In my experience, the gall bladder surgery was the worst of all three Good Luck, and let us know how you do!

Hi Cate! Oh my gosh it is so great to hear from you. I thought you had fallen off the face of the earth or something (LOL). You look AMAZING! Girl, I am right there along with you. This is such a roller coaster ride. I think you DEFINITELY need a fill, it will help so much. However, the ice cream thing and eating around the band is definitely an issue for me to. I get remotivated, but now unfortunately it only seems to last me a couple of days. Then the old habits start creeping back in again. I joined the gym 2 days ago and haven't worked out yet My son was so confused when we went there, paid and left. He said "Mama, why did we go to the gym but not get any exercise"! LOL....Point is, it is an everyday stuggle for all of us. I am so proud of you for getting back on here...that's the first step. I have been thinking about doing an accountability thread again...if nothing else just for my own posting. That helped me a lot in staying on track, even if it is only for 5-10 pounds worth of a loss that I can do it BTW Wheets!!!!! Your PM box is full. I tried to send you a message, but it won't accept it. Gotta run.