I have struggled with weight all of my life. Up until I was 27 I was barely overweight- I fought constantly to keep my weight down. Pregnant with my first child, I just could't white knuckle it any longer and my weight grew to obesity.
Why am I overweight? I love the taste of food. I can eat tons without feeling sick. I love to zone out and eat as an escape. I love to nurture myself with food. As a child I felt deprived of food and choices about food, as my mother was constantly dieting and putting those restrictions on me. I grew up feeling self conscious of my body and that turned into an almost rebellious attitude about food, refusing to give it up, eating more than was healthy for me.
I also feel that obesity is a disease of genetics. An overweight persons biology fights us- I feel as though my body goes into a fight or flight stance when I try and limit my food intake. It created terrible cravings and desires for food in rebellion of being shorted calories. I am strong person and I generally get what I want in life- yet I couldn't keep my weight down despite all of my wishes heart and soul! That just shows what a biological condition and disease obesity is.
I hope to able to reset my internal biology with this surgery, creating a fresh start for my body, and setting it into a state where it doesn't crave calories and sugar so intensely. I hope to practice self forgiveness and an awareness that it wasn't entirely my fault I became overweight. I long to have a healthy relationship with food and exercise, one that allows me to enjoy eating but puts eating and food in it's rightful place in my life.
Height: 5 feet 6 inches
Starting Weight: 250 lbs
Weight on Day of Surgery: 238 lbs
Current Weight: 143 lbs
Goal Weight: 130 lbs
Weight Lost: 107 lbs
Surgery: Gastric Bypass
Surgery Status: Post Surgery
First Dr. Visit: 10/14/2014
Surgery Date: 12/04/2014
Hospital Stay: 1 Week or More
Surgery Funding: Insurance
Insurance Outcome: 1st Letter Approval
bellabloom's Bariatric Surgeon
Santa Barbara, California 93105