AppleSmith1226

I have been banded for a little over 3 months now and yeah my friends are starting to fizzle too. All of my fat friends don't wanna talk to me much and I mainly talk about my weight alot cause I am so excited I mean I talk about other stuff too but they now have NOTHING to say about my weight and don't wanna discuss it. My skinny friends are the one's that cool with it. And my hubby was so excited he hadn't seen me (he's military) since I had lost any of my weight and mouth literally dropped. It felt so good to see his face. But now that I am losing and my fat friends constantly pig out still ... this upsets me and sometime disgust me that I used to be that way. A few of them know about my surgery and I am angry that they don't care about their weight at all and that totally love being fat and unhealthy. I feel bad about these feelings cause I used to be them and I am so not trying to be judgemental but this is the attitude that they portray. But anyway other than that fuck em! I dont care if it's like that you never were my true friend anyone. I don't have time for hatin' ass b!tches in my life. I am only accepting positive people in my circle right now.

Well what I can say is NOBODY can tell you why your husband had an affair. Only person that can answer that for you is HIM! I know your mind is racing all over WHY and I know it's hard and you have babies also so thats x10. But you have to do what is BEST FOR YOU. Because at the end of the day if you sit there throughout a marriage that makes you miserable and sick to your stomach every ounce of that is going to rub off on your children if you are unhappy. So you have to do what is going to keep you healthy for you. Don't force something so bad and then regret it yrs from now. Thats only going to hurt. I am also young but I have been married for a yr and with my man for 4 yrs now. And I am a psych major. My field is going to be family court and social work. And from my volunteering and exp DO YOU! DO WHAT IS BEST FOR YOU. And don't think that you are throwing your marriage away because I was raised in a religious home as well and the ONLY ground for divorce is adultery! So he already threw the marriage away before you did so if you wanna throw him a "peace" sign feel free. But if you wanna work it out as well FIRST TIME SHAME ON HIM. 2ND TIME SHAME ON U get outta there if it happens again. And girl use that xanax and be done with it ... not a good drug ... don't know how it's working for you but when I do have my degree that I am currently studying for all wouldn't put any of my patients on meds until it's the last resort I mean extreme. But follow you first MIND first you gut instinct than follow your heart 2nd cause when it comes to love ... love is very blind and the heart can sometimes lie to you. Look how many battered women follow their hearts and end of dead. Just making an example. But lots of love to you honey and blessings. I would reccommend personal therapy for just yourself as well with him not being in the room. But as my grandma would say dust yourself off and put your big girl panties on shake that sh!t off as best you can and do you. And besides your hot sh!t now his loss... I wish my hubby would pull a stunt like that once I am as fine as I wanna be LOL ... I dont take BS off of him now but once I confidence is through the roof he'd better not mess with me. You can do better baby. It's men out here that would worship you and treat you like the queen that you are. KEEP UR HEAD UP! And we are ALL here for you! Apples!

Well I my doc lets you fill up every 3 weeks. And that I am pretty happy about but I kinda wish it was more like 2 weeks then I would be able to get to my "sweet spot" even faster than what I am!

Karso I just seen your post and I wanted to say please keep your head up girl. Those type of negative thoughts is exactly what will bring you back down. Remember that's all we always fell off diets. "Man this sh!t not working... I'm just gonna stay fat ... screw it" I am sure we have all given up with thoughts of this kind. But you have to change your way of thinking and let it go. You will reach ur sweet spot just like the others. We just have to give it time. LOL we all want this to snap in to place asap. But I had to calm myself down and start to appreciate my journey. On the otherside girl we will all have a story to tell about OUR unique journey. I'm sure the beginning of yours will start "Girl I thought my band wasn't working... but boy look at me now" Keep the FAITH and keep happy positive thoughts. You and your band are a team now! And you both can get through this. Lots of LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!

Well guys I had fill number 3 and still not much. I do feel a bit restricted but not like I hoped I would. I am getting fill #4 on May 19th so once again hoping and praying that this one will do the trick. I am so ready to have my sweet spot it's crazy. I know that once I have restriction the weight will just melt because I count calories like a nutcase. I wear my bodybugg. I am exercising as much as I can even if it's just walking super fast from the parking lot into a store. Eventhough my weight is coming off and I am losing so many inches! But of course to us "fat people" and "ex-fat people" the scale is what counts the most. Because look how long the scale has been the key factor. Doctors or their cute little skinny nurses only made us get on scales our whole life and gave us that look like DAMNNNNN LOL so I dont ever want that feeling again! So lets hope the 4th fill does me justice! I pray!

Well guys I am not to hungry. I know everyone want's to throw paper balls at me LOL. But I was at one point I was freaking starving but now more than 90 days out I am alrite. I am still losing I have lost 48-52 pounds so far (it fluxuates from day to day LOL stupid scale) I am losing hella inches though I have lost about a good 30 inches from my waist and 25 inches of other areas of my body so a total of 55 inches of my flabby a$$ in 90 days I am fine with but anyway back to the issue at hand I am not this perfect person that has been following band rules to a T but I do plan my meals during the week only cause I am at work all day and I am answering phones and filling prescriptions all day not alot of time to fantasize about food. But all hell here comes the weekend and I pig out. Damn sure not as bad as I ever did before I was banded but it's looks like alot to me now. Like last night I back a cake I ate 2 med size pieces. And I was like oh my god what have I done LOL. Then I said apples wait a min ... before you would eaten half of that cake one night and the other half the next night easy ... then on day 3 you would've been like dang where'd that cake go. But anyway it is all in the mind. I was like "head hunger" before I was banded and when I was first banded. Like these people are crazy LOL and now I see that it does exist. Some days I just crave my a$$ off others I think out how much of a pig I really was and all the food I just ate and ate and it makes me sick to my stomach to remember those moments and that shoos my a$$ away from the fridge immediately. Or when I cant help to contain the inner food addict in my I pop a 100 calorie snack or something that won't ruin my whole entire day. But I hope this helps. And protein, protein, and more protein. This is the only thing helping me so far cause I dont have a 100 percent restriction and I am on fill #3 ... 4th fill coming May 19th! SO I am praying, hoping, and wishing! Cause if I had the right restriction man I would so be on the ball! But lots of love sorry if I rambled a bit but I thought I told ya Apples is backkkkkkkk!

Hey guys how has everybody been ... me just working and trying to maintain my weigh BEINGS THAT I'M 3 FILLS IN AND DONT HAVE A DRP OF RESTRICTION!! Well I take that bad I dont have as much as I would like to have. I wanna take 2-3 bites of food and feel like I just ate 3 serving of Thanksgiving dinner! That's my "fantasy" fill. But as far as weight I think that I am doing pretty good my weight has kinda slowed now but I think it's really because of the fill stuff. But I dont eat anywhere as much as I used to and I am definetely a more concious eater! Before I would just get food and let it rip. I mean sit in front of the TV all weekend and just eat ... eww I was such a pig. I look back on those days now and sometime I get really disgusted with food and other I am just as food happy as I used to be but it only last for a moment ... like if I have something really tasty for lunch or I go to my favorite restaurant or something. I assume this is how "normal" act towards food or "ex-fat people" LOL or "ex-fat people in the making" But anyway guess what! My husband hadn't seen me since I was all fat an extra gross well he came home last week and he was in a state of shock! HE was so happy AND he couldn't keep his hands off me! He was very flattering and the extra flesh wasn't in the way during "play" time! I really really missed him. And he wasso proud of me. And as sexy as he is he deserves to have a nice looking woman on his arm inside and out! BUT OTHER THAN THAT I missed everybody and Apples is BACK!:biggrin:

I'm on my 2nd fill and I really want some advice! I am only 2months out and I really dont wanna get disouraged but I cant help it! I wanna see the pounds come off faster I am working out and trying my hardest not to eat more than I think I should be eating. I eat wayyyy less than I used to but more than I thought I would be able to :confused2: And I don't really feel any restriction yet. Weird ... 3rd fill is Monday April 28th! Hope it works! Any advice would be greatly appreciated!

Well just a tad bit ... but not much! I had my first fill ... Just got my 2nd 2day hoping that it's going to work! But I need some assistance from you VETS! I feel absolutely famished after I exercise ... I know this is normal. My doc explained it to me as a car and gas. If you run your car very fast and hard for a long period of time you will need more food I.E food ... ok I get that. But I feel like I am not eating enough or like I am not doing something right. I always push myself times 10 no matter what I do. But when it comes to this weight it's always been an issue. I dont know what the hell I should eat for breakfast. I still haven't found a good protein yet! And I am guessing that's what I really need. My pounds have stop falling I am now seeing inches come off. But I am curious also at what people are eating ... My bodybugg coach says I should have about 1550 calories a day. I have been staying in that relm ... As a matter of fact I dont think it's my eating I just wanna know when this damn fill is gonna start working?!!?!? I have my 3rd one April 28th ... I work out 3-4 days a week! I feel like if I had proper restriction I would freaking MELT! So ANY advice or assistance would be greatly appreciate. Thanks for your time! Lots of LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!:ohmy:

LOL well I really really appreciate all of your responses! Newgette ... girl I am sure he hit it LOL ... I heard the gross pop of hitting the back of my port LOL!! I do have to get more protein down that I can admit ... But alot of times I am not hungry ... then when I am it's like x10 ... I feel like crap right now cause I did a workout class with my gym buddy and I almost passed out!! It was awful I thought Iwas ready for it and I was not!!! TOUGH! So I just gotta take it easy. I gotta crawl before I run LOL! But it is kinda ddictive seeing the pounds come off than I want more and more and more and more LOL! Like some forbidden fruit or something! But I am really trying with this eating man is it hard. It was easier when I was on mushies and liquids and stuff but now being back on solids it's like a green light! Maybe I should just try to cut cards all 2gether like before ... Like do the south beach diet until I get proper restriction. DAMN why do carbs have to be so damn tasty! I am so proud of myself for my weight loss thus far ... but damn this is harder than I ever imagined! But I am ready for the journery as Jack said ... It took me awhile to get this fat even though it felt like I just woke up fat one day! LOL ... But thanks you guys please keep the comments coming all you "vets" in this game! Us rookies need to hear this stuff alot! But I damn sure hope that the 2nd works and by the way the 2nd is in 3 weeks! So wish me luck lots of love and blessings Apples!

Nope nothing at all!! And guess what my period is on ... ladies you know exactly what I mean!! FOOD CRAVINGS GALORE!! I just wish I could not eat as much ... of course my will power sucks! And I don't know what to do ... I was doing so good before 1500 calories a day and the nutritionist said that I should bump that to 1800 till I take some more weight off... But I just wish I wouldve known that alot of times first fills don't do the trick I mean I feel nooooooooooooooooooooooo restriction at all! :shades_smile: If anyone could please help me with this any in sight would be greatly appreciated! I don't know what to do ... I just dont wanna regain all my lost weight ... 2nd fill is in 3 weeks from now. But I need soome help I am really down! Thanks LOVE AND BLESSINGS APPLES!:success1:

Doing pretty good girl ... enjoying not having to fight with my damn jeans everyday LOL ... but I have a long way to go still ... just have to keep my eye on the prize ... you should get ur myspace back up and running ... Or did u have another site to track your journey ... check me out I have before and after pics up there LOL since I am not about 39 pounds down!!!! First fill is March 18th!!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I am sooooooooooooo HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!! I can't wait to see before and after pics!!! You will do GREAT BABE!!! Congrats!! LOTS OF LOVE APPLES!! P.S. R u on myspace?!!?!

Yeah same here ... I was having some issues with PCOS stuff but come to find out I dont have the PCOS ... Doc said all of my issues with fertility will go away once I lose all this weight. But my period had stopped completely cause of my weight! But I am losing now so doc wants me to think about birth control because he wants me to wait to get preggo. And so do I ... LOL I am not ready for a baby yet but my DH is! LOL I wanna enjoy my new body!!! But I wish you luck girlie! I am sure you wont have a problem once u lose the weight if you dont have any other gynecological issues! Blessings to you APPLES!

Well my fill date is now March 18th!!! Wish me luck ... my weight loss has slowed BIG TIME so I am READY!!!!!!!! And I think that I am eating too much cause I am not full like before.

I have been grossing people out lately by saying "hey you wanna feel my port ... LOL ... like it is a 6th toe or something ... "hey I have 6 toes on one foot u wanna see" LOL ... I am such a goof ball at times!

Dont feel weird Crystal I felt the sammmmmmmme exact way LOL ... I just didnt post ... LOL But now the feeling has gone away ... maybe it was just our body noticing that something different or extra is ther... but now I do feel my port ... full fledge!!

Congrats on the 14 pounds!!! KEEP IT UP GIRLIE!!!

Thanks Jax!!! I really love and appreciate all of you! It feels really good to be down some pounds when I havent see the scale move in ages!!! LITERALLY! LOL! I Just really wanna keep it going and no stopping! I know the weight loss will slow but let it slow after my first 100 ... I really wanna be down 45 more by June! I hope I pray! At this point I will be happy at 200 pounds and I am a tall girl so ... it wounldnt look as bad on someone thats 5'9 1/2 rather than 5'2 or 5'3 ... LOL but me and my hubby are going to Cancun for our anniversary in June and I wanna look good!!!! GOOD GOOD! LOL ... Maybe a cute bikini ... I dont know but thanks for the love everybody. We will all be victorious come this time '09!!!

Thanks so much!! the supportive comments really mean the world to me!

I feel so happy right now! I e-mailed these to my family and they were so shocked and amazed!! It feels so good coming from family! But if anyone can tell me how to resize these would be greatly appreciated!

Yeah I am going to really try and be calm with him 2day and just let things kinda smooth over by themselves ... I just need to take a chill pill! But at the same time I am getting sexier and sexier by the minute so he'd better stay on his damn toes!!! (LADIES U KNOW WHAT I MEAN! LOL) So I will make his callertune (for those who dont know the song he will here when he is calling me instead of the typical ring ... while waiting for me to answer) Beyonce's Irreplaceable!!!!!!!!!!! That will get his ass! LMAO!!

I am going through the same thing Ang!! I need a fill BADDDDDDDDDDDDDD!! LOL ... I have to REALLY force myself to push my plate away ... I have to the about do I want my double chin to come back LOL ... and that's scary so I usually snap out of it. But anyway I am sooooo pissed with hubby right now too! DAMN I JUST WANNA CHOKE HIM! OR KILL HIM AND BRING HIM RIGHT BACK TO LIFE!!! But I have vented! ((((HUGS))))!!!!

Oh yeah did you guys notice.... my fats ugly ass double chin is gone!!!!!! BEST NSV EVER!!!!

Thanks guys I really really appreciate all the love and support! You guys dont know how ecstatic I am to finally be back in the 2's LOL I am NEVER EVER EVER GOING BACK! But I really do appreciate all of you! Lots of LOVE APPLES! Double V's!!!!