susanlondon

46, mum of two, tried everything, succeeded and then failed some more, fed up with carrying the equivalent of a sack or two of potatoes around with me everywhere I go. I lost 4 stone on lipotrim about 2 years ago and then put around 6 back on, it is so so disheartening. I have mustered up the willpower, put myself through major deprivation every few weeks, felt better almost immediately, no more backache after the first 3/4 stone, but then the seduction of food gets to me again and I can't withstand it. Then I go full throttle, gorging myself on everything I feel I lost, so silly but it is not in my control. When that phase ends, hunger sets in and I continue to eat, it is like a never ending cycle and I want to be cured. The lapband seems the last stop before full gastric bypass and I want to try. Course I am reticent of mushy food etc but hey it must be better than what I have been struggling with. When I wake up in the morning, a black cloud descends on me as I realise I am fat. I want an end to this. At the moment I cannot afford surgery but have just landed a job - after I pay my current debts if I am really thrifty I may be able to save £3000 within 6 months. I have heard Dr Dillemans in Brussel is v good and so far I think he is the most reasonable - anyone know how to cut out the middleman and get him directly? Thanks look forward to hearing from you.