MrsVanderbilt

Glad you paid attention to that little voice in the back of your head. And many thanks to the big Russian! Hope you can get back on track with your surgery and maybe a new surgeon.

Terry1118,
Thank you for sharing your story and your thoughts. You are right. I do know nothing will change if I don't take this step. Sure I will stick with the "diet" for a while but when nothing at all happens...then what? I know this surgery will give me the tool and motivation to do this for myself and my family! I do not want to be the tired mom who always JUST wants to cuddle, I want to be the active mom who takes her kids on hikes, and bike rides (something I've never done in all their lives) I want to not be too embarrassed to go to a Water park n go down the slides with them.
I pray with all my heart, this is my answer, my freedom to this fat shame I carry with me all the time. My new life, my new attitude and a better me!
I really do appreciate everyone on here and their support. Having a place to come and be real and honest and scared with those who understand has been so helpful.

Thank you all for responding!! I feel so great to know I'm not alone and that there are people who genuinely understand me. I'll tell you all that what I have found out recently is that I hate myself. I don't know when it happened but I stopped loving myself and I invest in everything and everyone but me. I think anxiety absolutely played a role and sugars is an absolute addiction for me. I can eat a whole pack of Cookies and a pint of ice cream and feel just terrible afterwards! I know I shouldn't but nothing other than my job and my kids gives me that kind of pleasure.
Thank you for the article on sugar. I do feel better when it is out of my system. But starting that road will be my first step. My birthday is this week so I think I will accept that I will probably have some drinks but I will start tomorrow but cutting off soda and juice from my daily routine. But if not breadsticks and a fruit for breakfast, what do you suggest moonlite?
I'll probably give OA another shot. All your responses really helped and caused me to second guess my decisions today. I have a fitness tracker so I'll start using that again too. At leanmeanfightingmachine, I'm definitely going to invest in massages instead of my binging. It sounds like a good idea!
At teacherlady, thank you for your kind words! I don't love myself and I need to do that again. I'm trying to rediscover myself and look for me. I lost "me" a long time ago. But today was a better day because of all of your encouragement and kind words.
Wildgrits, I've been told to go on an all Protein diet. So maybe just meat and veggies I guess? Thank you for the breakdown. I'll be using my fitness pal app to document.
Finally, Jeana, thank you for being the first to respond to my thread. Today was a new day and all of the posts helped me making wiser choices today. I will work on getting the surgery date again with each day as a new day. I have a mentor who suggested I take two big steps this week with one of them being linking back up with Bariatric pal and I'm glad I did. The second big step was exercise but I still have to figure that out since my day starts at 6am and ends when I get home at 10:30pm.
I can't to hear from you all again and even more people. I've just felt disconnected in this whole ordeal. But I feel like this was the start of something momentous in my life. Again, thank you all.
- Erwin

My husband goes to the gym religiously 4 days a week. He's done that for over 15 years and has put on about 50 pounds of muscle. He's in great shape. Me on the other hand, I've put on 100 pounds of fat and sometimes it seems weird to be the fat wife of a fit guy. I can't wait to be smaller than him. Or at least his size!

My seatbelt kept locking in the car and it would literally piss me off, I'd rage all over it. Lol

If you feel the flame is out, aren't you just wasting your time anyway? As long as you have Mr. Wrong in your house, Mr. Right will not step through the door. Just my opinion.

I saw this episode but it just motivated me more, that I wanted to be a mom that can play with my children on the playground and doesn't have a ton of medical conditions, so yesterday I placed my deposit for VGS and I am scheduled for 3/28/14.

I started at 382 pounds but told everyone I was around 360. I don't know why that 22 pounds mattered to me so much but it did. I decided to stop lying to myself and everyone else as well, Because if I couldn't face my problem, how was I going to fix it. So the day before I was sleeved I took front, back and side pictures of myself wearing a tight tank top and yoga pants. I then posted those pictures and my weight on Facebook for everyone to see!!! I had a lot of people ask me "why did you do that"... or "aren't you embarrassed?" Yes I was very embarrassed and ashamed but I also felt tremendous relief for some reason. Now I know there are pictures of me in very tight clothes showing every roll I have floating around cyber space, but I feel more free now for it.

At first I would say 380 in a very hushed tone..Took me weeks to tell my hubby how much i weighed.............Now to hell with it..That is not me any longer that was the old scared me.........
I am down 182 lbs...that is magnificent if I do say so myself~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so proud of my weight loss and on here I share it because I know there are others who understand that it is a big deal and big achievement. If I can't be honest with people who are struggling with the same issues.. Then I will never be able to be honest with myself...And hun...........you did that just now........................Super duper you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My husband goes to the gym religiously 4 days a week. He's done that for over 15 years and has put on about 50 pounds of muscle. He's in great shape. Me on the other hand, I've put on 100 pounds of fat and sometimes it seems weird to be the fat wife of a fit guy. I can't wait to be smaller than him. Or at least his size!

Now you can say, "I'm that sexy minx with the big curly hair. Grrrr"

All of the preceding advice is good, this is not.
You: "A knuckle sandwich, saved one for you"

"Mary"
I'm kindof tired talking about my weight
like i said i'm eating much healthier , not eating as much, drinking lots of Water, exercise - just basic stuff people do when they are trying to lose weight
i would love to know whats going on with you???
if none of the other wise comments from people "above" don't work........
Punch Her!!
kathy

Starting 395
Surgery 341
Now 180s
12-26-12

Before/ during : 7 months post op

Hi everyone. I'm in lafayette and am strongly considering the sleeve. Do you know if gumbo juice is allowed during the liquid phase? A cajun girls gotta have her gumbo lol
Miznola I'm considering dr Alvin as well. Hoping I can do my preliminaries in lafayette and the surgery in Slidell since my insurance only allows their Slidell location. Can u let me know what u thought about him?

I had a neck lift with Dr. Kevin Duplechain in Lafayette two years ago. Best money I ever spent. He did a wonderful job and I would highly recommend him. I was around 30 years old when I had the procedure. I also had fat transferred to my lips and other areas of my face. Wish I would've gone bigger on the lips though!

I bet green is a terrible color on her. shake it off, what a turd! Maybe you can pass your old jeans on to her??