I do understand what you talking about, most of us do understand. It's hard sometimes, fighting the temptation, an addiction we once had, most of us opted for surgery to run away from it, the drama it caused in our life that contributed to our sicknesses, it's amazing how it keeps chasing you.. I been eating a lot of sunflower seeds, Doritoes, I even had one toll house chocolate chip and walnut cookie, I had baked it for my husband, the smell, I couldn't help it, I'm lucky I didn't dump, this lets me know I've got to be stronger, tougher, we can do this so don't feel guilty for a slip up.