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Nykee

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  1. Nykee
    Feb. 8th
     
    I slept last night for a few hours and each time I woke up to go pee..

    I was able to stop by the fridge and have some gupls of grape juice.

    Plus this morning arouns 7am when i got up, I have been able to gulp two cups of chocolate milk so far.

    OBVIOUSLY that Shot really really opened me up. Even before my last fill, before this fill and before my menstation.. I COULD NOT DO THAT EVER upon waking or in the middle of the night upon waking.

    This is a good thing, by the time it wears off, I will be off my period. (I didnt bleed all night but I had hella cramps, it should be all over by today)

    It has ran accross my mind that my stomach 'unswelled' SO much that my band has slipped oFF.. BUt that doesnt seem possible or realistic.. BUT its still a scare when I am sitting here able to eat.. I just know if I try to have some soup (chunky kind) It will go down.

    IF I dont restrcit back within this day.. I am going to be real worried.
    I am NOT taking any extra prednisone like he prescribed me to do when I opened up.. The shot is ENOUGH!

    When I tighten back up.. What I am gonna do is take the prednisone at night starting at 40 ml, (he gave me 60mg a day to take) (I already have took 20 ml plenty of times (for my back, when I have plans to go out) and it never made a difference.
    I will see if this helps with morning restriction.. and If it does, and the side effects arent horrible.. I will go in for another fill. I will test this for atleast a month.

    I DONT know though, IF my primary care doctor will support 60 miligrams a day.. OR 60 everyother day.. OR whatever dose I find is good.
    HE only gives me 5mg a day, but thats cuz I was over 400 pounds and I had diabeties..
    MAYBE my diabeties is better (GOTTA get the lab done,) DOUBT IT.
    But I have lost like 70 pounds or more and HE did prescribe me more prednisone to go on my weekend date last month..

    If not, maybe I can continue to get it from that Urgent care Doctor.
    I PROMISE to monitor my blood sugars!!!! I guess it can make you suseptible to infection. IF I do this right, I will be in control of my weight loss. Right now, thats all I can do.
  2. Nykee

    AMAZING aftercare!

    By Nykee,

    February 7th
     
    Today i woke up with the same kind of extreem restrcition that I had yesterday, but worse.
    Yesterday at noon I had one ounce of milk and burped and gurgles on it for hours.
    Today I didnt dare drink a thing, then I found I was gurgling and burping (on my saliva obviously)

    I got scared.

    I felt I should try to NIP this swelling in the BUD. It was FINE, until my period started and it should be fine after. BUT NOt if I let it swell upon swell upon swell until Its gone too far.

    NOW, to get a slight unfil, would only cause more swelling and I would end up losing most my fill anyway. So of course I dont want to do that. That already happened in November and I spent ALL THESE months NOT losing any weight and saving money to buy another fill.

    The way to NIP it in the Bud before it gets out of control... (in case I found my self choking and sliming and spitting on my own saliva, which is ABUSE of my band) Is to take antiinflamitories in huge doses.

    Seeings how I couldnt even sip water.. I needed it intraveniously.

    I went to Urgent Care and I told them my story and I got a BIG ol DOSE by needle. Now I have a prescription for HUGE doses to take at night when I am open, to see if it helps the AM swelling!!

    JUST WHAT I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED!!!!!

    I WAS SO WORRIED.. I WANTED THIS SO BAD. I though NO one would ever listen, ever care enough..

    The doctor was soooooooooo Nice.. He was totally interested, he felt for my port, he asked me a ton of questions, he was very thoughrough..

    and SIMPLY, I COULD TELL.. HE CARED. HE wanted me to continue to have success on this thing and he knew I lost 70 pounds (he spoke to my primary care doctor) and He saw some dehydration in my mouth (how, I dunno..I mean some dryness, Not dehydration) and Anyway.. He said COME IN ANYTIME I NEED IT intraveniously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Which obviously would be when I am having problems sipping anything..
    Which shouldnt be a probelm once my period goes away.

    I HAVE BEEN SO LUCKY with this aftercare... SO lucky not to be judged and dismissed and not listened to.. SO lucky to have such caring and compassionate doctors..

    MY FILL DOCTOR is like not even an hour away.. she just told me to NEVER not come in due to lack of funds if I need a fill.. TO NOT go all those months needed a fill.. she will work with me..
    SHE also said if this fill OR any fill isnt enough and I decide I want another one within a week and a half or so.. SHE WILL GIVE ME MORE, NO charge!
    She also said if the lady who makes the appointments says there are no openings.. TELL her I am coming ANYWAY and JUST COME>.
    WOW WOW OWWO

    My own primary care doctor is new to all this, and he is so open to learning and working with me. (he is the one who told me to go to urgent care, cuz it was easier to get the IV that way instead of at his office)
    He has NEVER failed me.. EVEr

    Now this Doctor at the Urgent care.. He didnt know much, but so willing to listen and look things up and well .. YEAH.. WOW

    PLUS, remember in JUNE I had to go to the ER.. cuz I had choked for hours on pills after being filled in Mexicool. and they filled my with antiinflamitories (but it was too late for that) and they used a spinal neddlle and having NEVER done a unfill on a lapband before, they all rallied around and unfilled me.. (on the phone with Ortiz to guide them)

    ANYWAY

    I FEEEEL SO AMAZINGLY CARED FOR>.

    :) :) :) :)
  3. Nykee
    Work in Progress
     
    I been using my computer (posting, emails, etc.) from a chair for a month now. I guess I must say I am in a comfortable rocking chair thing with cushions. BUT its UPRIGHT and so am I.. lol
     
    (Oh for those who dont know.. I always had to post from the couch, then later I got this neat lounge chair chaise (spell?) due to pain as I have some back injuries)
     
    I bleached my hair three time in the last two months.. and to rinse it out, I leaned over the tub and rinsed it in the tub facet.
     
    I mean I HAD to cuz I forgot my fancy disabled people shower thingie at my old place. (damn it, that was expensive!)
     
    And it was basically easy. I mean it wasnt easy. But it was WAY WAY WAY easier. Compared to before, it was a SNAP.
     
    I have had to do this before (use the facet) and it has left me in tears.
    I have had crisis interventions over this in the past. (I have to do my hair like every couple months)
     
    I either couldnt reach the facet it well enough to rinse thouroughly and fried my hair, absolutely could not hold my possition and had to leave the area before I was done, cried alot, needed someone to come with a picher to help me, had to get in the tub and let the bleach run all over my body and ect ect... lol, seems like alot to go through to dye my hair, but thats life ya know.. you do what you gotta do and you dont think about it.. UNTIL NOW when its so different.
     
     
     
    I can lay on the couch for more than an hour.
     
    This couch from goodwill..It has two reclyning chairs on the ends.
     
    I couldnt lay on it. It was extremely uncomfortable. (the mechanics inside, undetectable to the normal sized..)
     
    I tried and tried to get a place on this couch because Um I NEED to lay down and I need to be in my living room.
     
    I tried until it was completely clear that in NO way could I use this couch. My family loved it.. Its a pretty cool couch for everone else.
     
    I only had the chaise lounge chair that I could tolerate for semi long periods and it wasnt sufficient. I could only sit on the couch about an hour in its upright possition with the reclyner out. (not quite upright.. lol)
    And EVERY time I regretted it (pain pain pain)
     
    I had no where to "be" in my own living room if I was "bedridden' that day, I actually had to be in my bed.. and I dont like being isolated like that.
     
    So... My stuff was in storage.. I just got a new place... and GUESS WHAT..
     
    I went to lay on the couch.. and I could. AND I CAN..
    I HAVE A PLACE TO BE IN MY OWN LIVING ROOM NOW! WOW
     
    My Watch is loose.
     
    My friend gave me the watch in christmas of 04, she got it fit for me and it fit perfectly. Now its always upside down, dangling and at least three links could be removed. I dangle it everytime I need a pick me up.
     
    I can weigh on a normal scale and the scale at the ymca becasue I am under 350 pounds now. Nuff said.
     
    I had my first Orgasm from a Man, that I didnt have to help one bit.
    I am 35 and having my first one, unassisted. I thought it would NEVER happen. I was OBESE by age 16 and not sexually educated before that....Three kids by 19 and never did enjoy sex. and it was dead ever since because I felt so crappy about myself..
    I almost never even touched myself. I felt so discusted. NO looking even.
     
    This O happened with a good friend who has never done anything wrong to me, who I have been seeing casually for over three years and who I have become increasingly comfortable with. (26 yr old hottie too)
    Last year on my 34th bday, I was able to have 7 multiple O's with him, (I did it, but it only happened cuz he was there and he was OMG AMAZING)
     
    So.. Its a mixture of my becoming increasingly comfortable with him as well as with myself.. In fact, the whole sex thing was so much better that also made me ready and capible..
    This was never due to HIs lack of skill, I know he has the skill, I have known that from our first time. But I was dead and his skills mean nothing if I am dead.
    I am still in shock.. I mean you go 35 years and your mom and sister and best friends ALL know you have never had an orgasm from a man.. and that last year was my first one with a man at all (assisted) (and I date plenty, and many have tried and tried well)
    AND now, its not my story anymore.. lol. (I havent even told them yet!)
     
    Sex..Details later..MAYBE, kinda new and feeling too personal.. BUT ITS HUGE.
     
     
     
    WORK IN PROGRESS
  4. Nykee

    Period. "cuz I can" Reese

    By Nykee,

    ITS MY PERIOD!! YEAH.

    I got the cramps around 10pm and just now found some pink.

    So... I am gonna assume its my menstral.

    Now, I just feel so much better about it all.

    I dont know for sure, but I have a feeling I can stick to some lower calorie eating for a few days now.

    I didnt want this Journal to be about all this crap.. BUT, I guess it will be what ever it is... Go with the flow.

    .............

    Tonight I almost went to the coast with my daughter.. she jsut got back today, but had to go back cuz Dono forgot his wallet in her car.
    I was gonna ride along. But in the end chose not to go.
    I was debating whether to go, cuz I know it would be painfull and it was a quick trip, not for any certain kind of fun or activity, but I have been bored and it was something to do..
    Plus I could stay at my friends house for the night and thats something to do too..
    BUt my daughter said "cuz I can" to something I asked her and I acted like I didnt want her company..... Well, that was obviously me using that as a way to justify my social anxiety and sheer lazyness and fear of pain. All of which I HATE allowing to control me.
    I layed on the couch and watched Southpark all night, helping Cry with her nonexistant family tree and fighting with Ambree to do her chore.
    I coulda been in bed with my friend feeling all calm and relaxed knowing the ocean was nearby and feeling wonderfully small.

    I have a date this weekend with Reese. I AM going, no matter what. If I find a way to weasal out, I may as well give it all up and
    But I am nervous. I think its gonna last Saturday to Monday cuz his work schedule. Well, I will talk about this later.

  5. Nykee

    Restriction kicking in?

    By Nykee,

    Well, Its 8pm and I am STILL having problems.. sipping tomatoe soup and its sitting in my throat.. ugh.
     
    EITHER its my period a coming, OR the restriciton has "kicked in" like many people have described it doing to them.
     
    I will give it a couple of weeks.. Making sure not to irritate it to the point that It hurts or causing the chest pains.
    LASt thing I want is an unfill.
     
    But OF course if I get the pain, I WILL get an unfill ...
     
    I am KINDA excited and QUITE frusterated.
     
    I want to lose weight like I did with my last fill.. BUT unlike my last fill, I am not so happy and overjoyed about NOT eating.. They called it the honeymoon period and I thought it was divine majic or something.. lol
     
    I cant imagine I would get an unfill to simply be able to eat....
    BUT, I also dont see it as impossible..
     
    OF course.. 25 pounds or so will losen the band anyway.... well thats what happened last time..
     
    MY calories have been averaging 2500, my fat 100 and my carbs 300..
    I have GOT to be under that today.. But thats what I thought yesterday. lol
     
    ..........................................
     
    Today we had an appointment with Joe.. and tomarrow is the school and the center.
    Dawn goes to her thing on wednesday.
    Lots of changes.
    I need to turn in my request to MOVE!!!!
  6. Nykee
    FEBUARY 6th

    So, yesterday I felt like I could hardly eat at all. I never had a meal.
     
    I sipped on milk and broth all day.. and around 6pm I was able to chew and spit some chicken and then I had some applesauce and pop and milk and almonds and candy.
     
    BUt it all added up the same as every other day.. About 2500 calories, 100 grams of fat, 300 carbs...
     
    So I didnt like that. It really goes to show how things can add up.. Like I had chocolate chips, two at a time.. but WOW the calories really added up and I had the smallest amounts of pop and those calories added up too..
     
    Had I left out the pop and chocoalte chips, witch would of been so easy. I might of had a lesser calorie day for once..
     
    Its been 4 days since I been loging my food.. and it seems like two weeks for something..
     
    I think tomarrow I may break down and weigh myself.. I wanted to wait till the 14th but tomarrow I will be in the town that I can weigh on the real accurate scale.
     
    Maybe if I see how far I am from Goal (75 pound of loss by Feb. 14th) than I will kick it in this last week??
     
    I MUST BE 340 POUNDS... I JUST MUST.
     
    I could drop 10 pounds in a week, if I really tried.. BUT whats the use? Just to say I made goal? I would just gain it back anyway.
     
    AS USUAL.. I cant get a fill cuz I am too tight in the AM.
     
    PLUS I am eating around the band anyway I can.. how obvious is that!
  7. Nykee
    I found two long lost videos of my son and my boy on the internet.
     
    I am so happy about that.
     
    Now I got to find the ones of cry and amb..
     
    I write this incase this is the brightest point of my day.
     
    Havent done much thinking yet, cept of food .... it is almost 3pm and I am not open yet.. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrr
    ME want JUICE!!

    From fitday:

    Current Weight
    Your weight is 345 lb as of 02/05/2006.
     
    Weight Goal
    Your goal is to weigh 315 lb by 02/14/2006
     
    Goal Progress
    You are currently 30 lb above the target weight.
     
    The deadline for your goal is 9 days (1 weeks, 2 days) away.
     
    To meet your goal you need to lose about 23.33 lb per week.
     
    LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL GOOD LUCK LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
  8. Nykee
    Feburary 4th
     
    I got up off my ass and went to the Ymca.
     
    I took chase and cry. We played and I worked on my arms for 15 minutes.
     
    I sat in the Hot tub twice.
     
    They got a treat afterwards, and I took one bite of a candy bar and I didnt go to the store for any reses or cheetos.. It was hard. I also thought about getting that spinach cheese dip from Applebees and I didnt do that either, even though we drove right by it.
     
    I am bored. I wish I went to the coast. But i went last weekend and I have a weekend date this coming weekend.. and so I think I should of stayed home and I am BORED off my ass..
     
    Prolly take some valium and go to bed. (at leaste my food intake will end around 1000 calories today IF I do)
     
    I am freezing. The electric Bill was 270$ something and Heat is a thing of the past.. NOt really, but it should be! I dont know how I am going to pay these bills.
     
    I want candy.
  9. Nykee

    Ashless Birthday party

    By Nykee,

    So, we had her Birthday Party.
    All of us and my sister, neice and her new man. Plus Ashlee's friend.
     
    It went better than I could of ever hoped for.
     
    She was totally surprised by her ID bracelet and very happy to have it and beemed expressions of feeling lucky and special. That was my intent.
     
    She loved her Roses as she has never had any before and we are not a flower or jewlry kind of family.
     
    The dinner went well at Applebee's, I had tomatoe soup and some Spinach dip and got alittle choked up but it subsided. Everyone else had HUGE and delicious meals. Sure would be nice to eat like that again.. NOT!!!
     
    My sister went and paid the bill, The TURKEY. I tried to pay and it was already paid. THE SNEAK. I called her and she said "thanks for doing my taxes" OH BROTHER, it took me all of 5 minutes to do those taxes. But she did get a hefty refund.. So, HEY, Now I can pay the water bill!!
     
    Ashlee then took off for the coast. She is staying in a motel with a HUGE jacuzzi hot tub in the room (this is a 99$ deal in Lincoln City we are fortunate to get in the winter months) With her boyfriend.. I KNOW I KNOW.. that sounds terrible.. But they been dating for 4 years and well I had to get over that a long time ago.
     
    I wonder what the first "I am an adult" thing she will try to pull on me??
  10. Nykee
    Febuary 3rd.
     
    Today I have two 18 yr olds. :nanahump:
     
    Its my daughters birthday, she is the middle child.
     
    My son will be 19 in Mid March.
     
    If they werent both still at home and still completely under my wing and control, this could be a very sad day indeed as I always imagined it would be. Instead I am happy, I am really really happy.. Hummm, TAKE NOTE!:nanahump:
     
    I have to go out now and get reservations at Applebee's and Buy 18 Roses and pick up her present at the jewlers, its an ID bracelet that has ner name on the front and 'happy 18th, love Mom' on the back.
     
    I am proud of myself for saving the money needed to make this a special day for her. ((((hugs to self))))
     
    NOTE: I lost 75% of my income in July and we been having HARD times.
    It is NOT the time to have such luxeries but the kids understand that.
    But, I couldnt bear to have had to jip her on this special day. There is NO way she exspects roses and a nice ID bracelet. I am very excited. I did this on my OWN too.. (the 75% income loss was a MAN and his money)
     
     
    P.S.
    My daughter is ABSOLUTELY amazing. Just 18 and a Sophmore in college. I am so proud of her, its hard to put into words sometimes..
    She was my middle child AKA the 'bad seed'.. total middle child syndrome. My whole life I had to make it up to her for being the middle child, where my oldest was the BEST son anyone could ever ask for and my youngest was the most precious little perfect babykins I ever needed..
    This made her quite selfish, self centered, spoiled and a terrorizing little brat, I honestly thought was going to have major problems in life and grow up hating me and the world for not making her happy or giving her everything she thought she deserved.
    We werent half as close as I was to my other kids and each year it got worse instead of better. I really resigned myself to have failed this child in a way I had not my others. Why didnt she know how much I loved her, why hadnt she learned to be selfless and humble and happy like the others?
    This is of course all the neggative, she was far from this horrid, but this was a part of her and the part I am Soooo GLAD and AMAZED and GREATFULL to report was not permanant..
    She grew up. All of a sudden, I have this perfect child who outshines the others now.. and she is proud and she is happy and she acts like this life does NOt revolve around her, but around US.. as a family.. and what we can do with our selves in this world and our fellow humans.
    I could go on and on about what she does, from always bringing in the mail and running erronds for all of us left and right, from having a car and insurence and a job and
    a responsible and safe and good social life..

    NEVER EVER THINk your kids are lost forever.. IF my AShlee could come out this, ANY KID CAN! Beleive in what you taught them and what you say and show them and Of course the one thing I never ever did was stop loving her, and I DIDNT let her convince me that I had...

    I love her. I just cant say enough. She is my light, she is really the best thing in my life right now.. She is my everything. :nanahump:
  11. Nykee

    How to use this Journal

    By Nykee,

    Hummm, trying to think of how to use this Journal to my best advantage.
     
    I have always wanted one, on line and I never got around to making one, like a blog or my own website or anything like that.
     
    I would like to continue to post as I have on the site, minus my long winded personal rants and such... and adding my basic life details, that I wouldnt normally feel any need to tell anyone but myself, just to have.
     
    so.. I think thats what I will do.
     
    plus, I will try to log once a day..

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